yai start school tomorrow!
so finally the day arrives, after more than 2 and-a-half years of waiting. i don't have classes on monday hence my school week starts tomorrow. ah the anticipation ends tomorrow, but i've only got a 2 hour lecture tomorrow and that's all. the tutorials haven't started yet so this week is rather relaxed actually. so finally the feeling of going to school will sink in again tomorrow. call me wierd but i like going to school. save the studying part though.
went to gym with liz just now to kill time. i think i had a great workout just now, so i expect to wake up tomorrow with a body like a bodybuilder's! haha. but just now was not bad. ah if only i wasn't born such a lazy ass, i would probably have a better-looking body, maybe learnt how to play the bass guitar and have a much much cleaner room now. and a million other things that i could have achieved. haha.
the other day, had dinner with the friends for the orientation group. it was fun! then went to catch some show with them at victoria concert hall. i think the people in my group are quite fun. of course, not in the sporty or outdoors sense. i feel we all can connect on the same level. haha. i can't help thinking i've more than enough friends in the arts faculty. of course one can't have too many friends, but it can prove to be a headache!
anyway the past week i've had too many surprising news. think i had 4 shocks last week. which is really enough. anymore would just shake the pillars of peacefulness of my life. haha. i've really had a shock too many for the past week. and i also got myself a new handphone on top of that! so that should really end my shopping spree. note the keyword is should. hope that no one would have my handphone too, if not that would be quite a spoiler.
okay so tomorrow i start my life as a student! whoo-pee-do!
the competition with girls and the competition for girls starts tomorrow! haha.
Monday, August 13, 2007
Tuesday, August 07, 2007
dreams
the other day i had 1 of the most wierdest dreams ever.
i dreamt that i was on this mrt train on the east-west line, heading towards boon lay, with my parents. as you all know, they are now building an extention of that line, till somwhere in the pioneer road area or somwhere there. but by right boon lay would still be last stop. but the train didn't stop at boon lay, in fact it picked up speed as it sped past boon lay. so naturally everyone on the train was horrified, since the tracks would run out eventually, and the train would go hurtling in the air (think spiderman? the scene where spidey stops the train from going over the tracks and crashing down). but the thing is, in my dream, there was no such heroics. when the tracks ran out, the train just went into the air and plummeted into the sea, but just beside the shoreline, probably somewhere in the tuas area, near the second link. amazingly, nobody died. everyone managed to force the doors open and just swim to the surface. heck, even my parents did that. and of course, a full scale investigation was launched thereafter.
but what a preposterous and wierd dream.
on another note.
the past week's been damn busy! organising schedules, outings here and there, bidding of modules. and my room's still in a damn mess. i'm too lazy to even bother, but i need to do something about it soon anyway. classes start next week, and from the synopses of the modules, they look quite interesting. there's like a fieldtrip to lucky plaza / penisular plaza, and even a remake of the famous versailles treaty of 1919 to be played out in class. oh and a screening of nang nak in one of the lectures. it might not turn out to be interesting, but at least it's different.
back to school in a week's time!
i dreamt that i was on this mrt train on the east-west line, heading towards boon lay, with my parents. as you all know, they are now building an extention of that line, till somwhere in the pioneer road area or somwhere there. but by right boon lay would still be last stop. but the train didn't stop at boon lay, in fact it picked up speed as it sped past boon lay. so naturally everyone on the train was horrified, since the tracks would run out eventually, and the train would go hurtling in the air (think spiderman? the scene where spidey stops the train from going over the tracks and crashing down). but the thing is, in my dream, there was no such heroics. when the tracks ran out, the train just went into the air and plummeted into the sea, but just beside the shoreline, probably somewhere in the tuas area, near the second link. amazingly, nobody died. everyone managed to force the doors open and just swim to the surface. heck, even my parents did that. and of course, a full scale investigation was launched thereafter.
but what a preposterous and wierd dream.
on another note.
the past week's been damn busy! organising schedules, outings here and there, bidding of modules. and my room's still in a damn mess. i'm too lazy to even bother, but i need to do something about it soon anyway. classes start next week, and from the synopses of the modules, they look quite interesting. there's like a fieldtrip to lucky plaza / penisular plaza, and even a remake of the famous versailles treaty of 1919 to be played out in class. oh and a screening of nang nak in one of the lectures. it might not turn out to be interesting, but at least it's different.
back to school in a week's time!
Wednesday, August 01, 2007
sch's starting
sorry for the way overdue entry!
but hey - school's-a-starting!
haha. something i've actually been waiting for ever since i left school at the end of 2004. although i must say i'm not really as enthusiatic as i would like it to have been, because all the preparation is so confusing! everyone is just as confused as i am about alot of the things, and especially the bidding of modules. i'm slightly stressed up by it, no thanks to the meticulous planning required.
but so far all has gone well. been going back to school for the past few days, and i feel i've really got alot of friends all over. i'm not saying i'm that popular - it's just that everywhere i turn, i'm bound to find someone i know. like today. i bumped into a friend on the way to school, and in school i bumped into so many other long-lost friends. the ex-NS buddies, the primary and the secondary school friends too. hell, i even bumped into an ex-NS colleague while crossing the road just now. and he was on his motorbike waiting for the lights to turn green! haha. had time to catch up abit with him before the green man started to blink.
can one simply have too many friends? but it's hard to define how many is too many. even acquaintances or those "hi-bye" people, some would consider as friends too. well all i know i have quite a number of friends inside my faculty. and i'm going to miss my upcoming faculty's orientation anyway. and this whole week has been really busy busy busy! well, at least i ave things to do outside of home everyday anyway, so i'm not exactly complaining!haha.
ah i expect lesser time to play games then! that's real sad. but school's-a-starting, and i hope i have a decent start in school. after more than 2 years of brain-freeze, i hope it still can function properly! haha. but there's so many people to compete with, and its really scary when one thinks of the competition for places and grades later on. tsk tsk.
on another note, i thought i was done with my shopping! but i just had to buy another pair of jeans, and i'm relly thinking of upgrading my handphone. but it should wait, because i want to see if i have enough cash after i pay off my bills and all. haha. getting a new handphone would really cap it all off! but i must see how.
okay i better play my computer game first before i really have no time in the future.
but hey - school's-a-starting!
haha. something i've actually been waiting for ever since i left school at the end of 2004. although i must say i'm not really as enthusiatic as i would like it to have been, because all the preparation is so confusing! everyone is just as confused as i am about alot of the things, and especially the bidding of modules. i'm slightly stressed up by it, no thanks to the meticulous planning required.
but so far all has gone well. been going back to school for the past few days, and i feel i've really got alot of friends all over. i'm not saying i'm that popular - it's just that everywhere i turn, i'm bound to find someone i know. like today. i bumped into a friend on the way to school, and in school i bumped into so many other long-lost friends. the ex-NS buddies, the primary and the secondary school friends too. hell, i even bumped into an ex-NS colleague while crossing the road just now. and he was on his motorbike waiting for the lights to turn green! haha. had time to catch up abit with him before the green man started to blink.
can one simply have too many friends? but it's hard to define how many is too many. even acquaintances or those "hi-bye" people, some would consider as friends too. well all i know i have quite a number of friends inside my faculty. and i'm going to miss my upcoming faculty's orientation anyway. and this whole week has been really busy busy busy! well, at least i ave things to do outside of home everyday anyway, so i'm not exactly complaining!haha.
ah i expect lesser time to play games then! that's real sad. but school's-a-starting, and i hope i have a decent start in school. after more than 2 years of brain-freeze, i hope it still can function properly! haha. but there's so many people to compete with, and its really scary when one thinks of the competition for places and grades later on. tsk tsk.
on another note, i thought i was done with my shopping! but i just had to buy another pair of jeans, and i'm relly thinking of upgrading my handphone. but it should wait, because i want to see if i have enough cash after i pay off my bills and all. haha. getting a new handphone would really cap it all off! but i must see how.
okay i better play my computer game first before i really have no time in the future.
Monday, July 23, 2007
camp
so i got back from the orientation camp a few days ago.
but first, my last day of work ended on the worst possible note ever. the previous sentence had a pun in there relating to what happened, but i don't want to talk about it haha. but work's finally over, and i get a few days rest now to recharge.
anyways back to the camp. i suppose everyone else had a blast. well i didn't really enjoy myself at the camp, partly due to myself. i was totally invisible during the camp. for much of the camp i was very sleepy, and i just couldn't be as enthusiastic as i would like to have been. haha. but actually i'm really not the kind of person to go for such camps. just doesn't suit my personality i think. haha. but at least i made a few friends. friends that i feel i can talk to with. i still haven't really recovered from the exhaustions of the camp, proven by the fact that this weekend alone was the 1st time i had afternoon naps at home in eons.
but it was fun engaging people, and seeing people interact. at least there was abundance of healthy debates and discussions going on within the group. about our religion, our society, our people. which really stimulates the mind, and opens it up to more interesting viewpoints. sometimes it got so heated because naturally, some would be very emotional with their principles and all. but it was good. i learnt alot from such healthy discussions. in fact i think i've learnt alot about our people and our society over the past 2 years.
of course, no thanks to my ns experience, my workplace and my new school. the people i've met from the 3 places are from totally different types of backgrounds. but it should be good for me, to interact with such people. but of course, i haven't actually seen the real picture yet. but i imagine it to be very sad. especially, the real picture of my own society.
seriously, how can we not agree to the fact that the malay society is the one with the most social problems? as i have argued before, i feel we should call ourselves the malaise instead of the malays. if i am ever going to write a book on my society, it would titled 'the malaise' - so don't copy me. haha. anyways, seriously, we never seem to be able to find solutions to combat such problems. everytime we think we've eradicated a problem, another type emerges. it's really sad. malays score very high in the abortion rates, teenage pregnancy rates, teenage marriages rates, school dropout rates and the list goes on. and them with their nonsensical way of dressing, coupled with their ability to create a ruckus everywhere they go and act as if they are so damn cool. it's a national shame, i feel, that my society is churning out such people who obviously have no future and who don't ever even think about their future. all they care about is looking cool just pushing around baby prams in town, with their 101 piercings on their eyebrows and the list goes on. have you ever wondered why you only see young malay couples pushing prams around or just going out with small kids in town, but never from the other races? i don't know about you, but that really is a startling fact for me.
so what is it with these people?? if i had my way they will be purged sooner rather than later. what a waste to society these people are. to think people are the only resources our country has, and we are churning out such sub-standard ill-mannered people? it's no wonder the government actively tries to recruit foreign talent, because our own people are just not convincing enough. i really can't understand why we have people like this. definitely the household has to bear part of the blame. screwed-up families will naturally produce screwed-up offsprings. but it isn't a curse, is it? surely one can buckle the trend. but sadly alot of such people still choose to carry on with their screwed-up lives.
and this is only just the beginning. if you read history, china has this generation of people called 'the lost generation'. these people were the ones who served as the red guards under mao zedong in the 60s. what they did was just to memorise the little red book, and just harass anyone who was anti-mao. they did that for well over a decade, and when mao died they were already in their 20s, but with no proper educational qualifications nor skills. hence many became jobless, and they were really too old to go back to school. they had wasted their teenage years by not making full use of it.
is that what we want of our own people? if such trends persist i can forsee us having a 'lost generation' of our own. and they might probably turn to crime to survive. hence we might have another problems in our hands. tsk tsk. i shudder to even about my own future, what more of my own people or my own country? reality is just sad.
well, at least from the camp, i've learnt that at least people do still care. and at least my society will still churn out people who will bring benefits, and bring good for all. but these are only a select few. the majority of the soon to be 'lost generation' is still out there, waiting for a reality check, waiting for someone to actually wake them up from their prolonged sleep.
purge them i say! haha. as if.
but first, my last day of work ended on the worst possible note ever. the previous sentence had a pun in there relating to what happened, but i don't want to talk about it haha. but work's finally over, and i get a few days rest now to recharge.
anyways back to the camp. i suppose everyone else had a blast. well i didn't really enjoy myself at the camp, partly due to myself. i was totally invisible during the camp. for much of the camp i was very sleepy, and i just couldn't be as enthusiastic as i would like to have been. haha. but actually i'm really not the kind of person to go for such camps. just doesn't suit my personality i think. haha. but at least i made a few friends. friends that i feel i can talk to with. i still haven't really recovered from the exhaustions of the camp, proven by the fact that this weekend alone was the 1st time i had afternoon naps at home in eons.
but it was fun engaging people, and seeing people interact. at least there was abundance of healthy debates and discussions going on within the group. about our religion, our society, our people. which really stimulates the mind, and opens it up to more interesting viewpoints. sometimes it got so heated because naturally, some would be very emotional with their principles and all. but it was good. i learnt alot from such healthy discussions. in fact i think i've learnt alot about our people and our society over the past 2 years.
of course, no thanks to my ns experience, my workplace and my new school. the people i've met from the 3 places are from totally different types of backgrounds. but it should be good for me, to interact with such people. but of course, i haven't actually seen the real picture yet. but i imagine it to be very sad. especially, the real picture of my own society.
seriously, how can we not agree to the fact that the malay society is the one with the most social problems? as i have argued before, i feel we should call ourselves the malaise instead of the malays. if i am ever going to write a book on my society, it would titled 'the malaise' - so don't copy me. haha. anyways, seriously, we never seem to be able to find solutions to combat such problems. everytime we think we've eradicated a problem, another type emerges. it's really sad. malays score very high in the abortion rates, teenage pregnancy rates, teenage marriages rates, school dropout rates and the list goes on. and them with their nonsensical way of dressing, coupled with their ability to create a ruckus everywhere they go and act as if they are so damn cool. it's a national shame, i feel, that my society is churning out such people who obviously have no future and who don't ever even think about their future. all they care about is looking cool just pushing around baby prams in town, with their 101 piercings on their eyebrows and the list goes on. have you ever wondered why you only see young malay couples pushing prams around or just going out with small kids in town, but never from the other races? i don't know about you, but that really is a startling fact for me.
so what is it with these people?? if i had my way they will be purged sooner rather than later. what a waste to society these people are. to think people are the only resources our country has, and we are churning out such sub-standard ill-mannered people? it's no wonder the government actively tries to recruit foreign talent, because our own people are just not convincing enough. i really can't understand why we have people like this. definitely the household has to bear part of the blame. screwed-up families will naturally produce screwed-up offsprings. but it isn't a curse, is it? surely one can buckle the trend. but sadly alot of such people still choose to carry on with their screwed-up lives.
and this is only just the beginning. if you read history, china has this generation of people called 'the lost generation'. these people were the ones who served as the red guards under mao zedong in the 60s. what they did was just to memorise the little red book, and just harass anyone who was anti-mao. they did that for well over a decade, and when mao died they were already in their 20s, but with no proper educational qualifications nor skills. hence many became jobless, and they were really too old to go back to school. they had wasted their teenage years by not making full use of it.
is that what we want of our own people? if such trends persist i can forsee us having a 'lost generation' of our own. and they might probably turn to crime to survive. hence we might have another problems in our hands. tsk tsk. i shudder to even about my own future, what more of my own people or my own country? reality is just sad.
well, at least from the camp, i've learnt that at least people do still care. and at least my society will still churn out people who will bring benefits, and bring good for all. but these are only a select few. the majority of the soon to be 'lost generation' is still out there, waiting for a reality check, waiting for someone to actually wake them up from their prolonged sleep.
purge them i say! haha. as if.
Saturday, July 14, 2007
bag
the long search for the new bag has finally ended.
after weeks and weeks or searching for a bag, i finally decided on that nike bag that purchased it at vivocity just now. this after so much trouble combing through the streets and shops of kl, jb and places like bugis, orchard and queensway. finally. almost what i wanted, but hey - nothing's ever perfect. and this should probably signal the end of my shopping spree.
honestly i don't think i've bought so many stuff in such a short space of time. like at least 10 new shirts, a bag and 3 pairs of shoes within less than 2 months. is crazy, i know. haha. and i also made a new pair of spectacles the other day at jb. metallic purple and black in colour. haha. to mme it's real nice and cool, but haha i wonder what everyone else will think. i can envision almost everyone saying "why purple!?"
was almost tempted to buy a pair of jeans too with fab just now but just couldn't find the nice 1 with the right size. anyways i don't think i really need jeans too. and fab gave me 2 plain tees for free because he couldn't fit them. my gosh my cupboard will really be packed with so much tops. actually there's still the need 2 buy a new watch but watches area all very pricey, and the prices don't change much. so i guess that will really have to wait.
on another note i'm really lethargic nowadays. after returning to kl i worked for 7 straight days, in between alternating between morning and afternoon shifts. god knows how i managed to pull through. but the good news is i'm resigning. sunday's my last day in fact. so i'm left with tomorrow and sunday to work! after that it''s off to the orientation camp. there's like so much hype around the camp, with people saying it's really gonnna be real fun and all. i'm just like err okay, thanks for the input.
oh and i bought a lenin tee from bugis village just now too. so i've a mao and lenin tee, i'm just left with a stalin tee. haha. they even had a ho chi minh tee selling there. i was like what? it's really weird. though i've yet to see a castro or a kim il sung or kim jong il shirt anywhere. castro would be really cool though, instead of those 2 korean despots. or even ho chi minh for that matter. haha.
leaving my job would be really sad, because of the 5 months i slogged it out there with the rest has been quite an eye-opener. my job really taught me quite a number of things that i previously never gave a hoot about. at least in terms of my ways of thinking, it definitely has an effect there. but ah, there's always the school to look forward to.
on another note.
a friend says my personal life is really like a soap opera.
i really second that.
after weeks and weeks or searching for a bag, i finally decided on that nike bag that purchased it at vivocity just now. this after so much trouble combing through the streets and shops of kl, jb and places like bugis, orchard and queensway. finally. almost what i wanted, but hey - nothing's ever perfect. and this should probably signal the end of my shopping spree.
honestly i don't think i've bought so many stuff in such a short space of time. like at least 10 new shirts, a bag and 3 pairs of shoes within less than 2 months. is crazy, i know. haha. and i also made a new pair of spectacles the other day at jb. metallic purple and black in colour. haha. to mme it's real nice and cool, but haha i wonder what everyone else will think. i can envision almost everyone saying "why purple!?"
was almost tempted to buy a pair of jeans too with fab just now but just couldn't find the nice 1 with the right size. anyways i don't think i really need jeans too. and fab gave me 2 plain tees for free because he couldn't fit them. my gosh my cupboard will really be packed with so much tops. actually there's still the need 2 buy a new watch but watches area all very pricey, and the prices don't change much. so i guess that will really have to wait.
on another note i'm really lethargic nowadays. after returning to kl i worked for 7 straight days, in between alternating between morning and afternoon shifts. god knows how i managed to pull through. but the good news is i'm resigning. sunday's my last day in fact. so i'm left with tomorrow and sunday to work! after that it''s off to the orientation camp. there's like so much hype around the camp, with people saying it's really gonnna be real fun and all. i'm just like err okay, thanks for the input.
oh and i bought a lenin tee from bugis village just now too. so i've a mao and lenin tee, i'm just left with a stalin tee. haha. they even had a ho chi minh tee selling there. i was like what? it's really weird. though i've yet to see a castro or a kim il sung or kim jong il shirt anywhere. castro would be really cool though, instead of those 2 korean despots. or even ho chi minh for that matter. haha.
leaving my job would be really sad, because of the 5 months i slogged it out there with the rest has been quite an eye-opener. my job really taught me quite a number of things that i previously never gave a hoot about. at least in terms of my ways of thinking, it definitely has an effect there. but ah, there's always the school to look forward to.
on another note.
a friend says my personal life is really like a soap opera.
i really second that.
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
re-kl
got back from kl yesterday evening.
and i'm super-duper tired. the exertions of it all caused me to turn up at work with a sleepy face and totally unkempt hair. the colleagues could see the weariness on my face. it doesn't help that i've to work 7 straight days till my next off. if i do pull through, i'm the real deal man. haha.
the trip was okay. it's not like you get to go away for a few days with your friends often. although a lot of cock ups happened but it was still fun. although i only managed to only buy a shirt and a pair of ugly-looking shoes at a combined cost of RM63. but in all i spent around RM335! haha. don't ask me what happened to rest. i'm not too sure myself.
the 1st day was spent at berjaya times square mainly. got to go in the indoor thempark. and the dna mixer ride was real crazy. haha. the ride jus spins you round and round for a few minutes. haha all i know some of the rest felt like throwing up or giddy after that. but me? no! haha. i went through most of the intimidating rides but it was okay. actually i was the 1st one who wanted to back initially, but that was because my stomach wasn't really 100% at the time. then the evening was spent at this club. the live band there rocks man. their opening act was don't matter by akon. i was like what? what kinda band jams don't matter? but anyway the band played all kinds of genre actually. was really great.
the 2nd day we all watched transformers at the imax theatre at the times square. and the movie kicks ass! i'm grateful i never caught it in singapore. the screen was huge! bigger than any screens in singapore, really! and to watch such a movie on such a screen was really mind-blowing. i liked the part when optimus prime stepped on the witwicky's garden fountain and said sorry, my bad. haha. but the whole movie was damn cool. is the best movie i've watched this year. but not say i've watched alot though. and then then evening was spent at petaling street. the last day was spent at the twin towers. i tried to find my sling bag, but it was in vain. we ended up missing the 4pm bus and had to fork out extra to take the 5pm one.
but overall it was fun. thanks to my friends, and thanks to our other friends in kl who brought us around. i still have RM100 with me which i'm really itching to spend.
on another note.
lately i feel i've gone through alot. it's taken a toll on me, mentally. sometimes i ask myself why must things always pan out this way. sometimes it's always been a case of so near yet so far. i also feel drained phsyically. it doesn't help that i've lost 5kg since i started working. i look more gaunt and scrawny now. i hope i will start school with a blast and have fun there.
although in the past i have always started school with a troubled state of mind.
and i'm super-duper tired. the exertions of it all caused me to turn up at work with a sleepy face and totally unkempt hair. the colleagues could see the weariness on my face. it doesn't help that i've to work 7 straight days till my next off. if i do pull through, i'm the real deal man. haha.
the trip was okay. it's not like you get to go away for a few days with your friends often. although a lot of cock ups happened but it was still fun. although i only managed to only buy a shirt and a pair of ugly-looking shoes at a combined cost of RM63. but in all i spent around RM335! haha. don't ask me what happened to rest. i'm not too sure myself.
the 1st day was spent at berjaya times square mainly. got to go in the indoor thempark. and the dna mixer ride was real crazy. haha. the ride jus spins you round and round for a few minutes. haha all i know some of the rest felt like throwing up or giddy after that. but me? no! haha. i went through most of the intimidating rides but it was okay. actually i was the 1st one who wanted to back initially, but that was because my stomach wasn't really 100% at the time. then the evening was spent at this club. the live band there rocks man. their opening act was don't matter by akon. i was like what? what kinda band jams don't matter? but anyway the band played all kinds of genre actually. was really great.
the 2nd day we all watched transformers at the imax theatre at the times square. and the movie kicks ass! i'm grateful i never caught it in singapore. the screen was huge! bigger than any screens in singapore, really! and to watch such a movie on such a screen was really mind-blowing. i liked the part when optimus prime stepped on the witwicky's garden fountain and said sorry, my bad. haha. but the whole movie was damn cool. is the best movie i've watched this year. but not say i've watched alot though. and then then evening was spent at petaling street. the last day was spent at the twin towers. i tried to find my sling bag, but it was in vain. we ended up missing the 4pm bus and had to fork out extra to take the 5pm one.
but overall it was fun. thanks to my friends, and thanks to our other friends in kl who brought us around. i still have RM100 with me which i'm really itching to spend.
on another note.
lately i feel i've gone through alot. it's taken a toll on me, mentally. sometimes i ask myself why must things always pan out this way. sometimes it's always been a case of so near yet so far. i also feel drained phsyically. it doesn't help that i've lost 5kg since i started working. i look more gaunt and scrawny now. i hope i will start school with a blast and have fun there.
although in the past i have always started school with a troubled state of mind.
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
shop
these days i'm only into one thing - shopping.
basically all my off days or time after work is spent on shopping.
since my kl trip, i've already bought 3 tops and 2 pair of shoes. and before i head off to kl again next week i expect to buy another 1 or 2 more tops. then at kl i shall shop for maybe another pair of shoes, a bag and more tops? haha. and also a new watch. i don't know if i need to get new jeans. actually i don't need to, i just need to alter my exisiting ones and this one that i've not worn yet. oh there's still the pair of spectacles that i need to make.
the things i do just to prepare myself for school. i'm amazed.
so now i've like 4 sneakers, a pair of running shoes, 4 (or 5?) pairs of jeans and a whole lot of tops. but i expect to have even more tops.
can't wait to go kl again so soon. this time with the gang. and finally get to visit my friend over in kl! and shop till i drop. i doubt the gst offset package is even enough for my shopping expenses, at the rate i'm going at.
so my retirement (resignation actually, haha) date has been set. after retiring, i shall probably spend the rest of the days cleaning up the mess in my room. which has never witnessed a major clean up ever since we shifted in here around 7 years ago. haha.
then they ask me to join some orientation camp. i'm rather cool on it, but i'll see how things go. then that 1 time huge class gathering at the end of the month that i'm planning for, and then get ready to enter school again.
i really can't wait for school to start. can't wait to experience the feeling of just going to school, just sitting in lectures etc. call me crazy if you want but i've missed that feeling for over 2 years already.
nowadays i just can't be bothered with things anymore. who cares. fcuk it, as what i saw on a shirt at the french connection shop. i'll just carry on with my own life and do my own things and just bloody care about myself. at least when i shop for myself, i feel good. haha.
pardon me if i exhibit female characteristics. but i assure you, i'm definitely not gay.
but gay as in happy - a definite yes.
basically all my off days or time after work is spent on shopping.
since my kl trip, i've already bought 3 tops and 2 pair of shoes. and before i head off to kl again next week i expect to buy another 1 or 2 more tops. then at kl i shall shop for maybe another pair of shoes, a bag and more tops? haha. and also a new watch. i don't know if i need to get new jeans. actually i don't need to, i just need to alter my exisiting ones and this one that i've not worn yet. oh there's still the pair of spectacles that i need to make.
the things i do just to prepare myself for school. i'm amazed.
so now i've like 4 sneakers, a pair of running shoes, 4 (or 5?) pairs of jeans and a whole lot of tops. but i expect to have even more tops.
can't wait to go kl again so soon. this time with the gang. and finally get to visit my friend over in kl! and shop till i drop. i doubt the gst offset package is even enough for my shopping expenses, at the rate i'm going at.
so my retirement (resignation actually, haha) date has been set. after retiring, i shall probably spend the rest of the days cleaning up the mess in my room. which has never witnessed a major clean up ever since we shifted in here around 7 years ago. haha.
then they ask me to join some orientation camp. i'm rather cool on it, but i'll see how things go. then that 1 time huge class gathering at the end of the month that i'm planning for, and then get ready to enter school again.
i really can't wait for school to start. can't wait to experience the feeling of just going to school, just sitting in lectures etc. call me crazy if you want but i've missed that feeling for over 2 years already.
nowadays i just can't be bothered with things anymore. who cares. fcuk it, as what i saw on a shirt at the french connection shop. i'll just carry on with my own life and do my own things and just bloody care about myself. at least when i shop for myself, i feel good. haha.
pardon me if i exhibit female characteristics. but i assure you, i'm definitely not gay.
but gay as in happy - a definite yes.
Sunday, June 17, 2007
kl
my trip to kl sucked to the core.
1st day, saturday, was spent at the uncle's place, somewhere outside of kl. then the 2nd day, visited a family friend and shopped just abit only. then the problems all started.
kl flooded on sunday night. but by that time, we were already at the hotel area but it wasn't flooded. although at 10pm a blackout occurred, which was corrected only at 130am. then the whole of monday was spent rotting away in the hotel room. the reason - my whole family was down with fever and flu and cough. i was the only okay one, but i wasn't allowed to go out on my own. only on tuesday did i properly shop. and then wednesday back home. a completely uninspiring holiday which i would rather shop. overall, i only spent on a grand total of 2 pathetic tops.
yesterday dined with clare, and just talked away the whole night. been a very long time since i last talked to clare. it was fun. then i just got back from iza's birthday party. just took the car out and drive around like nobody's business too.
i'm very tired nowadays. because i always sleep late. and at kl, we rested quite alot but i always had trouble falling asleep. because my mind is not at peace.
its really distressing.
i wonder why somethings just couldn't be much more straightforward.
1st day, saturday, was spent at the uncle's place, somewhere outside of kl. then the 2nd day, visited a family friend and shopped just abit only. then the problems all started.
kl flooded on sunday night. but by that time, we were already at the hotel area but it wasn't flooded. although at 10pm a blackout occurred, which was corrected only at 130am. then the whole of monday was spent rotting away in the hotel room. the reason - my whole family was down with fever and flu and cough. i was the only okay one, but i wasn't allowed to go out on my own. only on tuesday did i properly shop. and then wednesday back home. a completely uninspiring holiday which i would rather shop. overall, i only spent on a grand total of 2 pathetic tops.
yesterday dined with clare, and just talked away the whole night. been a very long time since i last talked to clare. it was fun. then i just got back from iza's birthday party. just took the car out and drive around like nobody's business too.
i'm very tired nowadays. because i always sleep late. and at kl, we rested quite alot but i always had trouble falling asleep. because my mind is not at peace.
its really distressing.
i wonder why somethings just couldn't be much more straightforward.
Friday, June 08, 2007
kl
tomorrow i'm off to KL! so basically i'll be virtually uncontactable for the next 5 days or so.
it's been awhile since i had a proper holiday. think if i were to count taiwan as the last one, that was more than half a year ago. so i guess i'll be spending away my hard-earned money. alot of things to shop for there, although i would arrive too early for the nationwide sales period.
sent the aunt off on her minor pilgrimage trip to the holy city last wednesday morning. damn tired because i got back at almost 5am. i remember my trip to the holy land there. exactly 7 years ago. simply astounding. just praying in front of the kaabah is an experience to cherish. imagine, around 1.2 billion moslems (maybe you can count out over half of the malays in singapore) praying to the kaabah every single day, and suddenly one gets a chance to pray exactly right in front of it. especially the dusk prayers. i remember birds circling the kaabah. if i wasn't mistaken, they were crows. and crows usually make one hell of a ruckus with their homies. but they just flew around encircling the kaabah noiselessly, as if they knew they just had to shut their traps. simply amazing. a scene i still remember clearly.
someday i shall visit the holy land again. on top of that, for all the wonders of the world, there are also 4 other places i would like visit. firstly jerusalem. i've been there before, and it really is among the most beautiful of cities. i remember standing on top of this bibilical site called the mount of olives. really beautiful. i looked down the view was really magnificent. it overlooks jerusalem and the city looks really wonderful from there. and across from the mount of olives, i could see the al-aqsa mosque, and the famous dome of the rock. and the city itself is beautiful, rich in culture and history. i managed to visit bethlehem, the tomb of king david, the tomb of moses, the western wall and other historically rich places. and i have stepped into the dead sea before! i remember i had a cut at my foot so it did hurt just a little bit. though i never tested to see if i could really float. haha. someday i shall go there again.
moscow is another place on my list. has to do with my fascination with its communist legacy. maybe st. petersburg too. i want to see the kremlin, the red square, and the museums rich in history of communism. berlin too. berlin is a beautiful city, and i would also like to see the remains of the berlin wall, and delve into the history of the nazi era (if they still have relics from that era). london too, for its beautiful setting, and its famous landmarks. and not to mention, probably catch a match at the emirates stadium. just too bad highbury is history.
alot of places to travel to, and alot of money needed! haha. personally if you notice, i of course appreciate places rich in history that i have interests in. natural sights are a sight to behold, say niagara falls etc - but i would rather appreciate buildings, sites, relics that have to do with human history. and america doesn't interest me that much so heck. i hope i can really visit all these 5 places in my lifetime.
dear God, grant me a very well-paying job so as to fulfil my dreams!
for now, it's KL for me it seems. haha.
till next week then.
it's been awhile since i had a proper holiday. think if i were to count taiwan as the last one, that was more than half a year ago. so i guess i'll be spending away my hard-earned money. alot of things to shop for there, although i would arrive too early for the nationwide sales period.
sent the aunt off on her minor pilgrimage trip to the holy city last wednesday morning. damn tired because i got back at almost 5am. i remember my trip to the holy land there. exactly 7 years ago. simply astounding. just praying in front of the kaabah is an experience to cherish. imagine, around 1.2 billion moslems (maybe you can count out over half of the malays in singapore) praying to the kaabah every single day, and suddenly one gets a chance to pray exactly right in front of it. especially the dusk prayers. i remember birds circling the kaabah. if i wasn't mistaken, they were crows. and crows usually make one hell of a ruckus with their homies. but they just flew around encircling the kaabah noiselessly, as if they knew they just had to shut their traps. simply amazing. a scene i still remember clearly.
someday i shall visit the holy land again. on top of that, for all the wonders of the world, there are also 4 other places i would like visit. firstly jerusalem. i've been there before, and it really is among the most beautiful of cities. i remember standing on top of this bibilical site called the mount of olives. really beautiful. i looked down the view was really magnificent. it overlooks jerusalem and the city looks really wonderful from there. and across from the mount of olives, i could see the al-aqsa mosque, and the famous dome of the rock. and the city itself is beautiful, rich in culture and history. i managed to visit bethlehem, the tomb of king david, the tomb of moses, the western wall and other historically rich places. and i have stepped into the dead sea before! i remember i had a cut at my foot so it did hurt just a little bit. though i never tested to see if i could really float. haha. someday i shall go there again.
moscow is another place on my list. has to do with my fascination with its communist legacy. maybe st. petersburg too. i want to see the kremlin, the red square, and the museums rich in history of communism. berlin too. berlin is a beautiful city, and i would also like to see the remains of the berlin wall, and delve into the history of the nazi era (if they still have relics from that era). london too, for its beautiful setting, and its famous landmarks. and not to mention, probably catch a match at the emirates stadium. just too bad highbury is history.
alot of places to travel to, and alot of money needed! haha. personally if you notice, i of course appreciate places rich in history that i have interests in. natural sights are a sight to behold, say niagara falls etc - but i would rather appreciate buildings, sites, relics that have to do with human history. and america doesn't interest me that much so heck. i hope i can really visit all these 5 places in my lifetime.
dear God, grant me a very well-paying job so as to fulfil my dreams!
for now, it's KL for me it seems. haha.
till next week then.
Monday, June 04, 2007
hair
so the so-called last step to the revamp of my computer system has been put in place.
now the whole system is totally different from the last one i had. so stage 3 is complete. although the next thing i might upgrade in the future is the CPU, but it won't come so soon. but im contented with my system so far. it's not the best, but at least it's stable and adequate to meed my needs.
went to the PC show with jj. got some speakers and a new keyboard and mouse set. and i decided against investing in a laptop so soon. and kept running into alot of my ex-recruits. tsk tsk.
ah got alot of things to do this month. got a show im supposed to catch, a party im supposed to attend, and KL! haha. gonna get e car keys in 2 days' time but ah i won't have so much time driving it around anyways.
dear you,
nowadays i don't feel so frustrated about it all anymore. but i really don't know. my mind is so confused about everything. i want to bring it up to you, but i've no courage at all.
what would you see or would have seen in me anyway?
now the whole system is totally different from the last one i had. so stage 3 is complete. although the next thing i might upgrade in the future is the CPU, but it won't come so soon. but im contented with my system so far. it's not the best, but at least it's stable and adequate to meed my needs.
went to the PC show with jj. got some speakers and a new keyboard and mouse set. and i decided against investing in a laptop so soon. and kept running into alot of my ex-recruits. tsk tsk.
ah got alot of things to do this month. got a show im supposed to catch, a party im supposed to attend, and KL! haha. gonna get e car keys in 2 days' time but ah i won't have so much time driving it around anyways.
dear you,
nowadays i don't feel so frustrated about it all anymore. but i really don't know. my mind is so confused about everything. i want to bring it up to you, but i've no courage at all.
what would you see or would have seen in me anyway?
Thursday, May 31, 2007
f up
i feel damn f**ked up right now.
it's as if it's like back to 3 years ago.
sometimes i just feel like dropping everything at once and just stone there.
someone help me get out of my misery.
it's as if it's like back to 3 years ago.
sometimes i just feel like dropping everything at once and just stone there.
someone help me get out of my misery.
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
mp3
finally got that mp3 player that i've been wanting to have.
henceforth no more vapid trips to and fro from work anymore! got it at the creative warehouse sale. the zen v plus for 239 bucks, at 4GB. well as long as it works for me, i'm fine with it. even though i don't really fancy the interface that much. i still prefer my old zen micro! although it's really really outdated now.
bought it on saturday, after the lunch session with the guys at pizza hut. supposed to celebrate ramli's birthday, it was. at least i did something fruitful on my last saturday off. never quite managed to go to the gym.
like today. was supposed to hit the gym, but as always, the key word here is supposed. what i did today was just to go out and get my hair cut (a drastic one at that!) and then meet up with sarah for dinner. and talked alot of things. real personal.
recently i've really done alot of talking. alot of yakking with other people. which is really good for me these days, since it really keeps me sane. haha. but conversations have been good. like the other day, with tyan and sarah. combined with that, a badminton game after work. rushed all the way to god-forsaken hougang just to play badminton for a freaking hour. but it was nice, meeting up old friends and just talk. i'm left out of alot of things it seems.
and meeting up with liz, shaz and hadi on friday night. and just yak the whole night away over coffee . then that saturday, yak away with my dearest so called 3rd cousin na'im during the bus ride home.
i don't know, but it seems alot of people are having a tumultous time with regards to their love life. ah it seems to be that time of the year again where people's hearts are just going through testing times. tsk tsk. wonder when all this will end for us all.
on top of that, i've really got alot of things to do. like clean up my room. and cleaning out my closet. not to mention, finishing up the whose line is it anyway cds that i borrowed from shaz. i can proudly say its more than halfway done, and probably around almost 4 years of whose line left to watch. (give me a break man, the show ran on for 8 freaking years!) and the whole of season 1 lost dvds from fab, which i'll probably give back to him when i graduate. and the 1st 2 seasons of prison break courtesy of ali, which i probably won't watch anytime soon. and those whole stacks of books i keep buying and buying, but they just end up sitting pretty on my desk and yellow with age.
can't wait to see the horrified faces of everyone starting tomorrow!haha.
this is an entry with totally no purpose, i admit.
henceforth no more vapid trips to and fro from work anymore! got it at the creative warehouse sale. the zen v plus for 239 bucks, at 4GB. well as long as it works for me, i'm fine with it. even though i don't really fancy the interface that much. i still prefer my old zen micro! although it's really really outdated now.
bought it on saturday, after the lunch session with the guys at pizza hut. supposed to celebrate ramli's birthday, it was. at least i did something fruitful on my last saturday off. never quite managed to go to the gym.
like today. was supposed to hit the gym, but as always, the key word here is supposed. what i did today was just to go out and get my hair cut (a drastic one at that!) and then meet up with sarah for dinner. and talked alot of things. real personal.
recently i've really done alot of talking. alot of yakking with other people. which is really good for me these days, since it really keeps me sane. haha. but conversations have been good. like the other day, with tyan and sarah. combined with that, a badminton game after work. rushed all the way to god-forsaken hougang just to play badminton for a freaking hour. but it was nice, meeting up old friends and just talk. i'm left out of alot of things it seems.
and meeting up with liz, shaz and hadi on friday night. and just yak the whole night away over coffee . then that saturday, yak away with my dearest so called 3rd cousin na'im during the bus ride home.
i don't know, but it seems alot of people are having a tumultous time with regards to their love life. ah it seems to be that time of the year again where people's hearts are just going through testing times. tsk tsk. wonder when all this will end for us all.
on top of that, i've really got alot of things to do. like clean up my room. and cleaning out my closet. not to mention, finishing up the whose line is it anyway cds that i borrowed from shaz. i can proudly say its more than halfway done, and probably around almost 4 years of whose line left to watch. (give me a break man, the show ran on for 8 freaking years!) and the whole of season 1 lost dvds from fab, which i'll probably give back to him when i graduate. and the 1st 2 seasons of prison break courtesy of ali, which i probably won't watch anytime soon. and those whole stacks of books i keep buying and buying, but they just end up sitting pretty on my desk and yellow with age.
can't wait to see the horrified faces of everyone starting tomorrow!haha.
this is an entry with totally no purpose, i admit.
Sunday, May 20, 2007
gym
today i went to the gym.
the last time i did that, was more than half a year ago.
me and hadi were up for gym since last night, and the girls liz and shaz wanted to tag along. haha. i really needed a workout since leaving my job as the defender of the fatherland a few months back. my body's very frail actually. but the workout at the bukit gombak gym was okay. i think tomorrow then my arms will ache as hell.
yesterday i was supposed to watch the fa cup final. thank goodness i didn't. it was such a bore, apparently. luckily fab said he was lazy. so i managed to meet up with hadi, and shaz and liz later on, followed by lin. had ben & jerry's first. haha so i've actually broken my virginity with regards to ben & jerry's. but seriously, what's the hype all about it? the taste isn't as spectacular as i thought it would be. after that went to have satay under the stars at lau pa sat, and managed to catch drogba's goal at the end. and then this funny thing happened.
we got to the car to head home, then there was this lizard that entered the car when we opened the doors. so the girls were screaming away, and i took my bag out to also check whether it was inside. then after lin said he saw the lizard scurry out of the car, we just got in the car quickly. inside then i remember i had left the drinks on the railings of the carpark, so i quickly exited and took them back in the car. so we drove off.
then at the cashcard gantry as hadi stopped, there was this security guard running towards the car and waving at us frantically. hadi lowered down the screen and the guard told him - "hey, there's a bag on top of the car!"
haha stupid me forgot to put back the bag under my seat after checking it for the lizard. i just absent-mindedly left it on top of the car! haha. and to think i could remember that i left the drinks behind but not my dearest deutschland sling bag. on top of the car, at that! we could have driven through the CTE still with my bag on top of it. maybe when hadi braked hard, and then the bag would have fallen forward on top of the bonnet. haha that was real funny but really stupid and absent-minded of me. god knows what would have happened if the guard never spotted it in the first place.
on another note.
i'm still bogged down with this 1 huge ass of a problem.
dear you,
all i need is just some time with you. there's certain things i need to talk to you about. i hope you understand.
i still need you.
the last time i did that, was more than half a year ago.
me and hadi were up for gym since last night, and the girls liz and shaz wanted to tag along. haha. i really needed a workout since leaving my job as the defender of the fatherland a few months back. my body's very frail actually. but the workout at the bukit gombak gym was okay. i think tomorrow then my arms will ache as hell.
yesterday i was supposed to watch the fa cup final. thank goodness i didn't. it was such a bore, apparently. luckily fab said he was lazy. so i managed to meet up with hadi, and shaz and liz later on, followed by lin. had ben & jerry's first. haha so i've actually broken my virginity with regards to ben & jerry's. but seriously, what's the hype all about it? the taste isn't as spectacular as i thought it would be. after that went to have satay under the stars at lau pa sat, and managed to catch drogba's goal at the end. and then this funny thing happened.
we got to the car to head home, then there was this lizard that entered the car when we opened the doors. so the girls were screaming away, and i took my bag out to also check whether it was inside. then after lin said he saw the lizard scurry out of the car, we just got in the car quickly. inside then i remember i had left the drinks on the railings of the carpark, so i quickly exited and took them back in the car. so we drove off.
then at the cashcard gantry as hadi stopped, there was this security guard running towards the car and waving at us frantically. hadi lowered down the screen and the guard told him - "hey, there's a bag on top of the car!"
haha stupid me forgot to put back the bag under my seat after checking it for the lizard. i just absent-mindedly left it on top of the car! haha. and to think i could remember that i left the drinks behind but not my dearest deutschland sling bag. on top of the car, at that! we could have driven through the CTE still with my bag on top of it. maybe when hadi braked hard, and then the bag would have fallen forward on top of the bonnet. haha that was real funny but really stupid and absent-minded of me. god knows what would have happened if the guard never spotted it in the first place.
on another note.
i'm still bogged down with this 1 huge ass of a problem.
dear you,
all i need is just some time with you. there's certain things i need to talk to you about. i hope you understand.
i still need you.
Sunday, May 13, 2007
return
today i mourn the loss of my friend.
the late isz sazli bin sapari. if you've read the news on the taiwanese fighter jet plane crash, the name might sound a bell. yes, he was 1 of 2 to be killed on that tragedy. when i first came to know of it i was really dumbfounded. even till now i feel sad that things had to turn out this way. it's a real big shock to all of us.
i admit i wasn't close to him. but in school, he used to mixed around with us often, despite he being the junior batch. despite us always bullying him, he still wanted to mix around with us. frankly speaking, he's a real down to earth guy. not your typical malay type, he's really earnest and really zesty at times. i can still remember how he sounds like, although the last time i spoke to him was more than a year ago.
and suddenly this happens. i actually cried just thinking of him just now and praying to God for him. we are all so saddened and shocked by this. how would they answer to his parents? i feel that it's real sad that he died this way. so what if he died with full military honours at his burial? one can't bring him back. i will surely miss talking to him.
yesterday i just couldn't sleep. spent freaking 3 hours jus tossing and turning around in bed before i could get some sleep. when i tossed to one side, all i could think of was isz and whatever happened in the past. when i tossed to the other side, the other major issue i'm facing now came to my mind. the 2 issues kept running through my mind back and forth, so much so i really felt so strained trying to fall asleep last night. frankly speaking i've never really felt so mentally strained in quite a long time.
errgh. actually i need someone to talk to now? preferably a female companion?haha. but seriously. my mind's so bogged up now and the more i think the more frustrated and exasperated i get. the normal me would usually just chuck it all aside and concentrate, but nowadays i really can't. i feel so affected, i'm really at a loss. then the news of isz's death filters through. makes my head spin.
dear you,
actually i need to talk to you now. but from what i see, there doesn't seem to be time for that nowadays. if you are reading is, all i can tell you i'm really confused. my mind is so blank and i really can't see the light. tell me if i was wrong, because as you know, i am stupid, blur and naive.
i need you.
the late isz sazli bin sapari. if you've read the news on the taiwanese fighter jet plane crash, the name might sound a bell. yes, he was 1 of 2 to be killed on that tragedy. when i first came to know of it i was really dumbfounded. even till now i feel sad that things had to turn out this way. it's a real big shock to all of us.
i admit i wasn't close to him. but in school, he used to mixed around with us often, despite he being the junior batch. despite us always bullying him, he still wanted to mix around with us. frankly speaking, he's a real down to earth guy. not your typical malay type, he's really earnest and really zesty at times. i can still remember how he sounds like, although the last time i spoke to him was more than a year ago.
and suddenly this happens. i actually cried just thinking of him just now and praying to God for him. we are all so saddened and shocked by this. how would they answer to his parents? i feel that it's real sad that he died this way. so what if he died with full military honours at his burial? one can't bring him back. i will surely miss talking to him.
yesterday i just couldn't sleep. spent freaking 3 hours jus tossing and turning around in bed before i could get some sleep. when i tossed to one side, all i could think of was isz and whatever happened in the past. when i tossed to the other side, the other major issue i'm facing now came to my mind. the 2 issues kept running through my mind back and forth, so much so i really felt so strained trying to fall asleep last night. frankly speaking i've never really felt so mentally strained in quite a long time.
errgh. actually i need someone to talk to now? preferably a female companion?haha. but seriously. my mind's so bogged up now and the more i think the more frustrated and exasperated i get. the normal me would usually just chuck it all aside and concentrate, but nowadays i really can't. i feel so affected, i'm really at a loss. then the news of isz's death filters through. makes my head spin.
dear you,
actually i need to talk to you now. but from what i see, there doesn't seem to be time for that nowadays. if you are reading is, all i can tell you i'm really confused. my mind is so blank and i really can't see the light. tell me if i was wrong, because as you know, i am stupid, blur and naive.
i need you.
Friday, May 04, 2007
spidey
suddenly i just felt like blogging.
earlier this week work has really weighed me down. stress is one thing, the sheer fatigue of it all is another. i feel i am showing signs of disgruntlement nowadays. 1 fine day i fear, i shall really explode.
on another note i've had 2 days off straight, on wednesday and today. now i feel so lazy to want to go back to work tomorrow. wednesday was spent with yan. lunched and then slacked around at the harbourfront area. today (or rather yesterday) was spent w/ jj and fab. had tau hui at the rochor aread before catching a movie. spider-man 3 was the order of the day! my suggestion it was.
luckily i suggested catching it, since we hadn't any proper plans to do actually. being the non-movie buff i mean, i'm not ashamed to say i've actually never caught the first 2 installments of the movie. yes call me a loser for all i care. anyway being the naive me, i thought the movie would last around a 100minutes. well i didn't know it was 2 and a half hours long. and halfway an annoying thing happened.
it was already 1 and a half hours into the movie. my seat was near the left aisle of the theatre. suddenly out of nowhere these 5 male jc students in their uniform appeared out of the blue and were standing on the aisle just outside of my row. then they were discussing something, and they said out loud to me and my friends that we had taken up their seats.
what the hell? it's already more than halfway through the show and you don't just come in and try to shoo others away. they did just that. one had the cheek to say do you mind moving away 'cause you've taken up our seats. i made quite a big fuss over it, and then suddenly one of them turned smart just like that and realised they were in the wrong theatre altogether.
and guess what? NONE even said sorry.
how rude can one get? they had already tried to act ya-ya but trying to chase me out of my seats, and thinking i had nothing better than to take other peoples' seats. they had already disturbed me while watching the show. and to top it all of, not even a hint of regret or remorse by saying sorry.
even till now i'm quite peeved at it actually. so rude and uncivilised of them. making a scene in the middle of a show and yet not wanting to say sorry or anything of that sort. seriously, how rude can 1 get?
i think kids nowadays are just immoral. totally don't know how to act their age and show some dignity and basic kindness. whatever happened to the old age values and morals our forefathers used to preach in the days of yesteryear? seems that they wilt away in time.
ah, the youths of today. they can't wait to be adults as soon as possible, but when they reach adulthood they wished it couldn't have come so soon.
earlier this week work has really weighed me down. stress is one thing, the sheer fatigue of it all is another. i feel i am showing signs of disgruntlement nowadays. 1 fine day i fear, i shall really explode.
on another note i've had 2 days off straight, on wednesday and today. now i feel so lazy to want to go back to work tomorrow. wednesday was spent with yan. lunched and then slacked around at the harbourfront area. today (or rather yesterday) was spent w/ jj and fab. had tau hui at the rochor aread before catching a movie. spider-man 3 was the order of the day! my suggestion it was.
luckily i suggested catching it, since we hadn't any proper plans to do actually. being the non-movie buff i mean, i'm not ashamed to say i've actually never caught the first 2 installments of the movie. yes call me a loser for all i care. anyway being the naive me, i thought the movie would last around a 100minutes. well i didn't know it was 2 and a half hours long. and halfway an annoying thing happened.
it was already 1 and a half hours into the movie. my seat was near the left aisle of the theatre. suddenly out of nowhere these 5 male jc students in their uniform appeared out of the blue and were standing on the aisle just outside of my row. then they were discussing something, and they said out loud to me and my friends that we had taken up their seats.
what the hell? it's already more than halfway through the show and you don't just come in and try to shoo others away. they did just that. one had the cheek to say do you mind moving away 'cause you've taken up our seats. i made quite a big fuss over it, and then suddenly one of them turned smart just like that and realised they were in the wrong theatre altogether.
and guess what? NONE even said sorry.
how rude can one get? they had already tried to act ya-ya but trying to chase me out of my seats, and thinking i had nothing better than to take other peoples' seats. they had already disturbed me while watching the show. and to top it all of, not even a hint of regret or remorse by saying sorry.
even till now i'm quite peeved at it actually. so rude and uncivilised of them. making a scene in the middle of a show and yet not wanting to say sorry or anything of that sort. seriously, how rude can 1 get?
i think kids nowadays are just immoral. totally don't know how to act their age and show some dignity and basic kindness. whatever happened to the old age values and morals our forefathers used to preach in the days of yesteryear? seems that they wilt away in time.
ah, the youths of today. they can't wait to be adults as soon as possible, but when they reach adulthood they wished it couldn't have come so soon.
Friday, April 27, 2007
sleep deprivation
maybe you've read about how people get tortured through sleep deprivation.
yesterday i had a very amazing incident at night.
it was just past 12 and i was extremely sleepy. my eyes were so heavy and it was obvious i was ready to tuck in for the nite. i switched off the computer and then left my chair.
the moment i stepped forward, in my state of sheer fatigue i suddenly somehow just collapsed to the floor.
i then pulled myself together and then jus slumped myself on my bed.
come to think of it,now i feel it was quite a scary moment.
only once in my life have i fainted (all the way back in secondary 2), but yesterday i felt like it was more of me being too tired so much so that my legs just couldn't carry my body weight anymore. that's how i felt about it. but on hindsight it was rather scary actually. although i know the source of my extreme fatigue.
it was the manchester united-ac milan match the day before. i was already tired from work and from the lack of sleep in the past few days. but that night i stayed up to watch till 430am. at least the game had 5 goals. thn by 8am i was already up ready to go to work. surprisingly i didn't feel tired at work, but i could feel the fatigue when i reached home. and it all culminated in the collapse later at night. although i did get 12 hours of sleep following that.
on another note just now was the 1st time i've been to holland village! call me a loser if you want but hey, no one's ever asked me to come down to holland village before. i must say though, it's quite a nice place to hang out at night. there's this certain calmness, coolnes and serenity about the place, and to think its smack in the middle of a housing estate. i believe it's a nice place to hang out once i start school soon.
on yet another note, so much for the hype on the kl trip. apparently no one is enthusiastic about it, so it's all gone up in smoke. i'm rather disappoited about it, but what can you do when no one really seems to be up for it? then pulau ubin it is, according to them, although i'll wager that it won't happen either.
and work's really getting more stressful nowadays. one day i might just blow up in the face of a customer. i'm really restraining myself nowadays.
yesterday i had a very amazing incident at night.
it was just past 12 and i was extremely sleepy. my eyes were so heavy and it was obvious i was ready to tuck in for the nite. i switched off the computer and then left my chair.
the moment i stepped forward, in my state of sheer fatigue i suddenly somehow just collapsed to the floor.
i then pulled myself together and then jus slumped myself on my bed.
come to think of it,now i feel it was quite a scary moment.
only once in my life have i fainted (all the way back in secondary 2), but yesterday i felt like it was more of me being too tired so much so that my legs just couldn't carry my body weight anymore. that's how i felt about it. but on hindsight it was rather scary actually. although i know the source of my extreme fatigue.
it was the manchester united-ac milan match the day before. i was already tired from work and from the lack of sleep in the past few days. but that night i stayed up to watch till 430am. at least the game had 5 goals. thn by 8am i was already up ready to go to work. surprisingly i didn't feel tired at work, but i could feel the fatigue when i reached home. and it all culminated in the collapse later at night. although i did get 12 hours of sleep following that.
on another note just now was the 1st time i've been to holland village! call me a loser if you want but hey, no one's ever asked me to come down to holland village before. i must say though, it's quite a nice place to hang out at night. there's this certain calmness, coolnes and serenity about the place, and to think its smack in the middle of a housing estate. i believe it's a nice place to hang out once i start school soon.
on yet another note, so much for the hype on the kl trip. apparently no one is enthusiastic about it, so it's all gone up in smoke. i'm rather disappoited about it, but what can you do when no one really seems to be up for it? then pulau ubin it is, according to them, although i'll wager that it won't happen either.
and work's really getting more stressful nowadays. one day i might just blow up in the face of a customer. i'm really restraining myself nowadays.
Monday, April 16, 2007
reunion wk
the past week has been a reunion of sorts for me.
every now and then i keep running into people from my past.
it all started off with that day i went to work early, i ran into ashraf, or rather 'bob', on the way to work in the train. then the ex-army colleagues on the way while walking to work. then even during lunchtime and afterwork, even more army colleagues. and even zai, the secondary school friend.
friday was no different. after work i ran into nick! then on the way to orchard mrt met more ex-army colleagues. then at the mrt station i ran into liz, and basically my plans for the night completely changed after that. instead of being the good boy and go home straight after work me,liz n hadi had dinner and then coffee.
saturday night too, was spent with them. and fazlin too. at boat quay, eating ice cream! and jus now, was dinner with the jc friends at causeway point.
alot of reunions, alot of catching up to do!
oh why i ran into so many of my ex-army colleagues was because just outside of my workplace, there's this NS fair which was celebrating the 40 years of NS. so alot of them were involved in the on-the-ground work.
and the word is i'm gonna be transferred to another department at my workplace. as much as i still loathe the sight of pots, pans and porcelain, i feel happy there. i like working there actually, in fact. i feel i get along fine with the staff. the pay is pathetic, i know, but hey, some people earns alot at their work but their lives can still be as miserable as ever. at least i know even if i'm not happy, i can say i'm contented at the least.
but i'm rather disappointed to be hearing that i'm gonna be transferred. the way i see it, i don't have colleagues that are as crazy as the ones i have now. and i really don't wan to make friends all over again, and make colleagues, when i'm just gonna be there for like just over a month more? to me it's not worth it at all. not worth it.
but kent's tendered his resignation, so i hope the HR department would seriously rethink their decision! the reason i'm being transferred out is because they're gonna have a new permanent staff coming in. i'm like so what? if kent's gone and they transfer me out, the department would be slightly handicapped you know. i hope i don't get transferred out. and such news really travels fast. even some of the promoters have got wind of it. and some think i requested for it! tsk tsk.
kent's resignation has given me hope i feel. haha. seriously, i'm quitting in the end of may, earliest. i don't see why they should transfer me out. it all depends.
so many uncertainties now, even about the kl trip. tsk tsk.
i need to get things going!
every now and then i keep running into people from my past.
it all started off with that day i went to work early, i ran into ashraf, or rather 'bob', on the way to work in the train. then the ex-army colleagues on the way while walking to work. then even during lunchtime and afterwork, even more army colleagues. and even zai, the secondary school friend.
friday was no different. after work i ran into nick! then on the way to orchard mrt met more ex-army colleagues. then at the mrt station i ran into liz, and basically my plans for the night completely changed after that. instead of being the good boy and go home straight after work me,liz n hadi had dinner and then coffee.
saturday night too, was spent with them. and fazlin too. at boat quay, eating ice cream! and jus now, was dinner with the jc friends at causeway point.
alot of reunions, alot of catching up to do!
oh why i ran into so many of my ex-army colleagues was because just outside of my workplace, there's this NS fair which was celebrating the 40 years of NS. so alot of them were involved in the on-the-ground work.
and the word is i'm gonna be transferred to another department at my workplace. as much as i still loathe the sight of pots, pans and porcelain, i feel happy there. i like working there actually, in fact. i feel i get along fine with the staff. the pay is pathetic, i know, but hey, some people earns alot at their work but their lives can still be as miserable as ever. at least i know even if i'm not happy, i can say i'm contented at the least.
but i'm rather disappointed to be hearing that i'm gonna be transferred. the way i see it, i don't have colleagues that are as crazy as the ones i have now. and i really don't wan to make friends all over again, and make colleagues, when i'm just gonna be there for like just over a month more? to me it's not worth it at all. not worth it.
but kent's tendered his resignation, so i hope the HR department would seriously rethink their decision! the reason i'm being transferred out is because they're gonna have a new permanent staff coming in. i'm like so what? if kent's gone and they transfer me out, the department would be slightly handicapped you know. i hope i don't get transferred out. and such news really travels fast. even some of the promoters have got wind of it. and some think i requested for it! tsk tsk.
kent's resignation has given me hope i feel. haha. seriously, i'm quitting in the end of may, earliest. i don't see why they should transfer me out. it all depends.
so many uncertainties now, even about the kl trip. tsk tsk.
i need to get things going!
Monday, April 09, 2007
my mom always says that i take after her smartness yet i take after my dad's stupidity.
to that i agree.
i might be book-smart, but i'm definitely not streetsmart.
i'm always doing the stupidest of things and the stupidest of things always happens to me.
take for instance, just now.
i packed food from home for dinner for work, and guess what? just when i was digging out the rice from the thermos suddenly there was a loud BANG! i froze for a moment and thinking where did that come from. but when i looked around the wrold world was staring at me. then i realised.
okay, my thermos kinda exploded actually.
the inner glass lining cracked under pressure, so glass shards were spewed all over my rice and some on the table.
right.
apparently one shouldn't use a metal spoon to dig out warm/hot food from inside a glass-walled thermos. i'm not sure why, but now i know what happens when you do so. haha the whole thing was quite funny actually. but of course, embarassing. and of course the whole department knows about this. tsk tsk.
an exploding thermos.
thats's really food for thought.
sometimes i think why can't i also take after my mom's streetsmartness. i am so blur and so dim-witted at times i find it hard to believe what use can i be to people. people who know well enough know that i'm not a very practical person, neither am i good hands-on. i really feel damn stupid at times getting into the stupidest of situations. sometimes i just brush it off but it really gets to me at times.
for all of the money in the world, i would rather be not so dim-witted and more street-smart and better on hands-on things. seriously.
to that i agree.
i might be book-smart, but i'm definitely not streetsmart.
i'm always doing the stupidest of things and the stupidest of things always happens to me.
take for instance, just now.
i packed food from home for dinner for work, and guess what? just when i was digging out the rice from the thermos suddenly there was a loud BANG! i froze for a moment and thinking where did that come from. but when i looked around the wrold world was staring at me. then i realised.
okay, my thermos kinda exploded actually.
the inner glass lining cracked under pressure, so glass shards were spewed all over my rice and some on the table.
right.
apparently one shouldn't use a metal spoon to dig out warm/hot food from inside a glass-walled thermos. i'm not sure why, but now i know what happens when you do so. haha the whole thing was quite funny actually. but of course, embarassing. and of course the whole department knows about this. tsk tsk.
an exploding thermos.
thats's really food for thought.
sometimes i think why can't i also take after my mom's streetsmartness. i am so blur and so dim-witted at times i find it hard to believe what use can i be to people. people who know well enough know that i'm not a very practical person, neither am i good hands-on. i really feel damn stupid at times getting into the stupidest of situations. sometimes i just brush it off but it really gets to me at times.
for all of the money in the world, i would rather be not so dim-witted and more street-smart and better on hands-on things. seriously.
Sunday, April 01, 2007
sarah's party
the past few days have been rather tiring.
take for example yesterday.
for some reason i came to at around 10.30am. that's too early! and i couldn't sleep back again. then in the evening i went to attend sarah's 21st birthday party. oh and i managed to get hold of my aunt's car! so the whole night i was driving around actually. very excited, i was.
so the party was okay. the cake wasn't nice though apparently. i thought it was okay, it's just that we needed water to wash it down. and the party actually ran out of drinks. after the party, as a class we went to bishan to have some coffee. then we decided to drive over to seletar damn to chill the night away. and then the most ridiculous thing happened.
my car keys actually broke apart.
i think when i put it in my pocket it could have buckled under pressure and then broke. the metal part was still intact, but the plastic part that was welded together had given way. so i couldn't turn the ignition key in, since the plastic part which held the whole key together had given way. so there i was, for a whole 20 minutes i think, figuring out how 2 get the car started.
they key simply just wouldn't turn in! and there i was, stuck in bishan at 1+am in the morning. i was already about to abandon the car and just take a cab home since the locking mechanism of the car was still working fine. then after a few more tries finally i could get it started! whew, what a relief! luckily it didn't spoil the night for my classmates. finally after wasting so much valuable time, we then all drove to seletar dam. including mine, the entourage was made up of 3 cars. haha what a rarity.
before this i had always been wondering, what was so nice about seletar dam? the answer: nothing much actually. so many mosquitos, and i thought it would be a peaceful place. but of course, the road there was like a mini moto gp track. everytime the bikes screamed past it all sounded so annoying. but the scenery is okay actually. then we just talked the night away. once in a while, one must do things that one doesn't do often.
after driving jimmy home, i got home at close to 4am. and i had work that same day actually. morning shift some more! so this whole morning, i was so groggy. haha. my eyes were very heavy and i had a few short spells of headaches. but amazingly i managed to pull through the day. but i'm still weary. but it was fun actually, having the car for night and just zipping around here and there. of course, it really helped alot that yesterday, i didn't fork out a single cent for parking fees.
oh and guess what? my zen neeon got stolen! how f**ked up can things get? i believe it was stolen at the bag deposit at my workplace, since when i was on the way home the other day my player wasn't in the bag anymore. damn wasted, it wasn't even half a year old. i'm just pek chek about the whole thing. although my player was very slow and lagged alot but still, it was worth quite abit of my money! if my player really got stolen by some stranger, curse him to lose his job and get involved in some horrible accident or something along those lines.
i should really get a haircut, since it's really getting messier.
ah i'm just to darn lazy to even bother about things anymore.
take for example yesterday.
for some reason i came to at around 10.30am. that's too early! and i couldn't sleep back again. then in the evening i went to attend sarah's 21st birthday party. oh and i managed to get hold of my aunt's car! so the whole night i was driving around actually. very excited, i was.
so the party was okay. the cake wasn't nice though apparently. i thought it was okay, it's just that we needed water to wash it down. and the party actually ran out of drinks. after the party, as a class we went to bishan to have some coffee. then we decided to drive over to seletar damn to chill the night away. and then the most ridiculous thing happened.
my car keys actually broke apart.
i think when i put it in my pocket it could have buckled under pressure and then broke. the metal part was still intact, but the plastic part that was welded together had given way. so i couldn't turn the ignition key in, since the plastic part which held the whole key together had given way. so there i was, for a whole 20 minutes i think, figuring out how 2 get the car started.
they key simply just wouldn't turn in! and there i was, stuck in bishan at 1+am in the morning. i was already about to abandon the car and just take a cab home since the locking mechanism of the car was still working fine. then after a few more tries finally i could get it started! whew, what a relief! luckily it didn't spoil the night for my classmates. finally after wasting so much valuable time, we then all drove to seletar dam. including mine, the entourage was made up of 3 cars. haha what a rarity.
before this i had always been wondering, what was so nice about seletar dam? the answer: nothing much actually. so many mosquitos, and i thought it would be a peaceful place. but of course, the road there was like a mini moto gp track. everytime the bikes screamed past it all sounded so annoying. but the scenery is okay actually. then we just talked the night away. once in a while, one must do things that one doesn't do often.
after driving jimmy home, i got home at close to 4am. and i had work that same day actually. morning shift some more! so this whole morning, i was so groggy. haha. my eyes were very heavy and i had a few short spells of headaches. but amazingly i managed to pull through the day. but i'm still weary. but it was fun actually, having the car for night and just zipping around here and there. of course, it really helped alot that yesterday, i didn't fork out a single cent for parking fees.
oh and guess what? my zen neeon got stolen! how f**ked up can things get? i believe it was stolen at the bag deposit at my workplace, since when i was on the way home the other day my player wasn't in the bag anymore. damn wasted, it wasn't even half a year old. i'm just pek chek about the whole thing. although my player was very slow and lagged alot but still, it was worth quite abit of my money! if my player really got stolen by some stranger, curse him to lose his job and get involved in some horrible accident or something along those lines.
i should really get a haircut, since it's really getting messier.
ah i'm just to darn lazy to even bother about things anymore.
Saturday, March 24, 2007
zoo
it has been a very eventful week. in fact i've just gotten home under an hour ago.
i went to the zoo today! haha yes, our very own singapore zoo. never in my whole life did i think i would ever visit that hell hole again, but i did. courtesy of 2 of my secondary school friends who had free tickets to the zoo, so some of us went along to the zoo. so there were 9 of us in total.
it was a tiring day walking around in the zoo. even my hours of standing at work non-stop was of no use today. i was really bogged down by the heat, the humidity and the weight of my bag. and it wasn't help by the fact that i was wearing a black top. but it was okay, the trip.
didn't know there were so many types of primates around. what with you orang utans, the siamangs, the proboscis monkey, the chimps and so many more. i got sick of it at one time. and there were new names i've never heard before. like this hugeass freshwater amazon fish called the arapaima. i think the name's cool though. and a primate with a blue ass called a mandrill (it's really blue!). and some other names like the lemur, nighliy (i think) and a few others. got to take a few cool pics of several animals though. and got to see this hugeass python too, and some lazy-ass pigs and boars. and an animal called the babirusa (pig-deer). haha. alot of interesting things to learn.
like the above-mentioned arapaima. i swear i've never of such a fish before. apparently it's the largest freshwater fish in the world, growing up to 3m in length. and they are carnivorous. they eat other fish. i saw the keeper feeding them, and the way the consume it is damn cool. they create a suction-like vacuum using their mouths to suck the fish into their mouths, instead of just biting it straightaway. so it creates a very loud pop sound, which never ceases to shock everyone around. quite cool i find it. that was what the presenter said about this fish. oh and the presenter was very cute! i like her alot already! haha. she had a nice voice and really looks cute when she smiles! maybe i'll go and visit the arapaimas again soon then! haha.
after that was dinner at lot 1, and then i met jimmy. in between i ran into dear old mr chiam! he still remembers alot of me, but not my name! haha. but is okay. at least he remembers. unlike a certain teacher i've mentioned 1 of my recent posts. anyways, what a coincidence running into him, right after a dinner with the secondary school people. mr chiam was a teacher no one ever listened to in class, although he was really devoted to giving extra tuition after school at night. i was one of those who benefited from such sessions. he's actually a good one-on-one tutor i admit. but in class, no one really paid attention to him. we were alwasy playing cards or listening to music. i remembered once, i even had my fortune told in class. imagine that.
and then ran into nurul in the bus on the way to meeting jimmy. haha i keep running into nurul nowadays. and i met jimmy to sort out certain preparations for an event that's coming up!haha.
oh i watched pathfinder the other day. not bad a movie, although it is definitely a movie with the least scripts and lines i've ever watched. and the lead actress, moon bloodgood, is damn hooottt! shes dutch, irish and korean all rolled into 1! what an exotic blend! but i've yet to watch 300. and teenage mutant ninja turtles! errghh. it's tough being single in this sense. haha.
oh well, i would rather want to watch teenage mutant ninja turtles that 300 i guess. anyone caring enough to accompany me and watch either of the 2 movies? i'm so desperate. tsk tsk.
i went to the zoo today! haha yes, our very own singapore zoo. never in my whole life did i think i would ever visit that hell hole again, but i did. courtesy of 2 of my secondary school friends who had free tickets to the zoo, so some of us went along to the zoo. so there were 9 of us in total.
it was a tiring day walking around in the zoo. even my hours of standing at work non-stop was of no use today. i was really bogged down by the heat, the humidity and the weight of my bag. and it wasn't help by the fact that i was wearing a black top. but it was okay, the trip.
didn't know there were so many types of primates around. what with you orang utans, the siamangs, the proboscis monkey, the chimps and so many more. i got sick of it at one time. and there were new names i've never heard before. like this hugeass freshwater amazon fish called the arapaima. i think the name's cool though. and a primate with a blue ass called a mandrill (it's really blue!). and some other names like the lemur, nighliy (i think) and a few others. got to take a few cool pics of several animals though. and got to see this hugeass python too, and some lazy-ass pigs and boars. and an animal called the babirusa (pig-deer). haha. alot of interesting things to learn.
like the above-mentioned arapaima. i swear i've never of such a fish before. apparently it's the largest freshwater fish in the world, growing up to 3m in length. and they are carnivorous. they eat other fish. i saw the keeper feeding them, and the way the consume it is damn cool. they create a suction-like vacuum using their mouths to suck the fish into their mouths, instead of just biting it straightaway. so it creates a very loud pop sound, which never ceases to shock everyone around. quite cool i find it. that was what the presenter said about this fish. oh and the presenter was very cute! i like her alot already! haha. she had a nice voice and really looks cute when she smiles! maybe i'll go and visit the arapaimas again soon then! haha.
after that was dinner at lot 1, and then i met jimmy. in between i ran into dear old mr chiam! he still remembers alot of me, but not my name! haha. but is okay. at least he remembers. unlike a certain teacher i've mentioned 1 of my recent posts. anyways, what a coincidence running into him, right after a dinner with the secondary school people. mr chiam was a teacher no one ever listened to in class, although he was really devoted to giving extra tuition after school at night. i was one of those who benefited from such sessions. he's actually a good one-on-one tutor i admit. but in class, no one really paid attention to him. we were alwasy playing cards or listening to music. i remembered once, i even had my fortune told in class. imagine that.
and then ran into nurul in the bus on the way to meeting jimmy. haha i keep running into nurul nowadays. and i met jimmy to sort out certain preparations for an event that's coming up!haha.
oh i watched pathfinder the other day. not bad a movie, although it is definitely a movie with the least scripts and lines i've ever watched. and the lead actress, moon bloodgood, is damn hooottt! shes dutch, irish and korean all rolled into 1! what an exotic blend! but i've yet to watch 300. and teenage mutant ninja turtles! errghh. it's tough being single in this sense. haha.
oh well, i would rather want to watch teenage mutant ninja turtles that 300 i guess. anyone caring enough to accompany me and watch either of the 2 movies? i'm so desperate. tsk tsk.
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
k/w
i'm very absent-minded. with regards to work, it's really very annoying. twice today alone, i forgot to give back 2 credit cards to the respective customer. we could call back 1, but not the other. today there's just something wrong with me. cocked up alot. as always. and not forgetting, i'm still being faced with rude and overly demanding customers.
so work has been taxing, but i can stand 5 hours on an end now. haha. other than that things have been okay. i'm now a full-fledged cashier, although still unsure on certain things. but so far no major problems. i'm happily enjoying work.
and i've been having alot of dinners out lately. with jj, hasan, and last saturday met up with fairus, khamsya and hanan. after dinner, slacked at starbucks with hana and khamsya. it's real fun being with them. and i really wonder how's school gonna be with them around later in the year. it will be so havoc i feel. i doubt the campus has seen the most havoc and happenning students yet. i really can't wait for school, i wished it started tomorrow.
and a few days ago, i finally saw nad in person! but i was scared to approach her, fearing the ill-fated question - who are you? ah it was unmistakeably her. apparently she thought it was me. my dearest primary school friend, so finally i've seen you in person. happy birthday to you anyways, haha.
and mom has given me the green light to go KL. haha the funny thing was, before i left for work yesterday, i told her playfully i wanted to go london in june. she chided me, for saying such things, since i was kinda not so well-off, yet wanted to go holidaying in london. but later on in the day after i got back from work, she actually asked me whether i really wanted to go to london. haha. damn funny la my mum. but she says i can go to KL. so i can't wait. a few people are very interested in it, so hope the trip materialises.
and also, alot of gatherings to attend. on the 24th,on e 31st,on the 1st of apr...my gosh i don't know shy suddenly all the gatherings culminate during this period. my work hasalready take up much of my time, and plus all this...of course it's all gonna be very fun. and packed. haha. well at least i've things to do on much of the upcoming weekends. better staying at home and rotting away.
can't wait for the end of the month to beckon.
so work has been taxing, but i can stand 5 hours on an end now. haha. other than that things have been okay. i'm now a full-fledged cashier, although still unsure on certain things. but so far no major problems. i'm happily enjoying work.
and i've been having alot of dinners out lately. with jj, hasan, and last saturday met up with fairus, khamsya and hanan. after dinner, slacked at starbucks with hana and khamsya. it's real fun being with them. and i really wonder how's school gonna be with them around later in the year. it will be so havoc i feel. i doubt the campus has seen the most havoc and happenning students yet. i really can't wait for school, i wished it started tomorrow.
and a few days ago, i finally saw nad in person! but i was scared to approach her, fearing the ill-fated question - who are you? ah it was unmistakeably her. apparently she thought it was me. my dearest primary school friend, so finally i've seen you in person. happy birthday to you anyways, haha.
and mom has given me the green light to go KL. haha the funny thing was, before i left for work yesterday, i told her playfully i wanted to go london in june. she chided me, for saying such things, since i was kinda not so well-off, yet wanted to go holidaying in london. but later on in the day after i got back from work, she actually asked me whether i really wanted to go to london. haha. damn funny la my mum. but she says i can go to KL. so i can't wait. a few people are very interested in it, so hope the trip materialises.
and also, alot of gatherings to attend. on the 24th,on e 31st,on the 1st of apr...my gosh i don't know shy suddenly all the gatherings culminate during this period. my work hasalready take up much of my time, and plus all this...of course it's all gonna be very fun. and packed. haha. well at least i've things to do on much of the upcoming weekends. better staying at home and rotting away.
can't wait for the end of the month to beckon.
Monday, March 05, 2007
cashier
so nowadays i'm ALWAYS the cashier. the seniors and the permanent staff always bully me by telling me to be the cashier for the day, even if the roster didn't say so.
i mean cashiering is okay actually, fun at the start. but i'm always stuck at the counter, and i can't really go out and walk around and interact with the rest of the staff. but i'm more adept at cashiering nowadays. to tell you the truth i'm beginning to like my job behind the counter.haha. although it can be a tad too boring at times. like my what my colleague said just now - "got customers can die, no customers also can die." haha. there's alot of sense and truth in that statement. last weekend was quite hellish though. in fact i've gotten a complain from a customer already. haha. wasn't really my fault anyway.
it was friday morning, and we were really understaffed. the phone at the counter kept ringing non-stop, so there was this 1 particular call i answered. then came along this ang moh woman who wanted to pay. i dealt with the call first, but after a while i realised the call would take quite some time. then i told her politely to proceed to the other counters. then she got exasperated, because as it turned out the other counter had directed her to mine. she then stormed off and in the distance i could see her turn back and gesturing and probably curse and swear at me. of course i couldn't hear a thing since my ear was still glued to the receiver. i think she complained about me to the other counter.
then my manager came along to inquire about the complain, but eventually she forgot about it. tsk tsk. that's not all. on saturday i got a earful from another customer. his credit card didn't bear his signature at the back, so politely i asked him to sign. he berated me, saying his card was brand new so its the top of the range kind, where e signature is already embedded at the front of card. he said i was totally ignorant of such things and said i should know of such updates since i'm a cashier. in the end my colleague was the one who said sorry.
now that man is a complete a**hole. c'mon la, you are talking to this poor boy, who doesn't even own a POSB GO! card for god's sake. i'm not like some stinking rich chinese indonesians who come here and spulrge like 3K on knives alone. or neither do i collect credit cards like i'm a stamp collector. that's why i'm actually working as a modest cashier, a**hole. how would you expect me to know what kind of credit card you have, new or old?
you see, i realise the most stuck up and standoffish customers are surprise, surprise, our very own asians. just because they think they are filthy rich they think they can bully others around with their wealth. singaporeans too, become more well-off then suddenly they become pig-headed. the caucasians on the other hand, are rather polite and curteous. all these japanese, koreans, indonesians and even singaporeans - they are the most demanding, most unreasonable and most unrealistic customers i've ever seen. really. working in this line has shown me how rude, snobbish, ungracious and ridiculous our very own singaporeans are. i think we can only just hav a first world place to live in, but not the first world citizens to match up to that.
how to? become abit more wealthier and many start to think they are more superior than the rest. hallo, even the caste system is banned in India FYI. even simple mistakes and small matters can be blown up to such a huge and unreasonable proportion. the way i see it, i serious feel we can never be the gracious society that is hoped of us to be. we can always be a first world country in our lifetime no doubt, but with second rate citizens, with second rate mindsets, and second rate behaviour and attitudes.
on another note.
my computer was spoilt for the past week. thanks to ali it's up and running now. later on this week there will be an IT show at Suntec City. i need to go there to buy a DVD writer. i borrowed fabian's Lost DVD series for season 1, but my player in the living room can't play DVDs. i'm quite an idiot for not realising this, so anyway i shall have to get one soon. and mayb speakers to go along. we'll see how.
i got offs on wednesday and thursday back to back. i don't know if i should play badminton or not. but i'm sure i will go to the IT show. then dinner with fad, and abit of shopping to go. friday i feel like having dinner with some of the classmates.
busy, busy days ahead it seems.
i mean cashiering is okay actually, fun at the start. but i'm always stuck at the counter, and i can't really go out and walk around and interact with the rest of the staff. but i'm more adept at cashiering nowadays. to tell you the truth i'm beginning to like my job behind the counter.haha. although it can be a tad too boring at times. like my what my colleague said just now - "got customers can die, no customers also can die." haha. there's alot of sense and truth in that statement. last weekend was quite hellish though. in fact i've gotten a complain from a customer already. haha. wasn't really my fault anyway.
it was friday morning, and we were really understaffed. the phone at the counter kept ringing non-stop, so there was this 1 particular call i answered. then came along this ang moh woman who wanted to pay. i dealt with the call first, but after a while i realised the call would take quite some time. then i told her politely to proceed to the other counters. then she got exasperated, because as it turned out the other counter had directed her to mine. she then stormed off and in the distance i could see her turn back and gesturing and probably curse and swear at me. of course i couldn't hear a thing since my ear was still glued to the receiver. i think she complained about me to the other counter.
then my manager came along to inquire about the complain, but eventually she forgot about it. tsk tsk. that's not all. on saturday i got a earful from another customer. his credit card didn't bear his signature at the back, so politely i asked him to sign. he berated me, saying his card was brand new so its the top of the range kind, where e signature is already embedded at the front of card. he said i was totally ignorant of such things and said i should know of such updates since i'm a cashier. in the end my colleague was the one who said sorry.
now that man is a complete a**hole. c'mon la, you are talking to this poor boy, who doesn't even own a POSB GO! card for god's sake. i'm not like some stinking rich chinese indonesians who come here and spulrge like 3K on knives alone. or neither do i collect credit cards like i'm a stamp collector. that's why i'm actually working as a modest cashier, a**hole. how would you expect me to know what kind of credit card you have, new or old?
you see, i realise the most stuck up and standoffish customers are surprise, surprise, our very own asians. just because they think they are filthy rich they think they can bully others around with their wealth. singaporeans too, become more well-off then suddenly they become pig-headed. the caucasians on the other hand, are rather polite and curteous. all these japanese, koreans, indonesians and even singaporeans - they are the most demanding, most unreasonable and most unrealistic customers i've ever seen. really. working in this line has shown me how rude, snobbish, ungracious and ridiculous our very own singaporeans are. i think we can only just hav a first world place to live in, but not the first world citizens to match up to that.
how to? become abit more wealthier and many start to think they are more superior than the rest. hallo, even the caste system is banned in India FYI. even simple mistakes and small matters can be blown up to such a huge and unreasonable proportion. the way i see it, i serious feel we can never be the gracious society that is hoped of us to be. we can always be a first world country in our lifetime no doubt, but with second rate citizens, with second rate mindsets, and second rate behaviour and attitudes.
on another note.
my computer was spoilt for the past week. thanks to ali it's up and running now. later on this week there will be an IT show at Suntec City. i need to go there to buy a DVD writer. i borrowed fabian's Lost DVD series for season 1, but my player in the living room can't play DVDs. i'm quite an idiot for not realising this, so anyway i shall have to get one soon. and mayb speakers to go along. we'll see how.
i got offs on wednesday and thursday back to back. i don't know if i should play badminton or not. but i'm sure i will go to the IT show. then dinner with fad, and abit of shopping to go. friday i feel like having dinner with some of the classmates.
busy, busy days ahead it seems.
Monday, February 26, 2007
taka
my legs are definitely stronger now. i can stand for 4 hours straight without feeling muscles aches. haha. and my legs do feel less painful too even after a long day at work.
so i've finally started off with cashiering. it's quite simple actually, although some parts are abit confusing. i just need to slowly grasp the concepts and that should be all. the colleagues have been really patient with me and the other newbies. i'm thankful for that actually. even though the place is always packed with people almost all the time.
and i've seen alot fo people i know too. and my friends have been dropping by, i don't know why. is it like exciting to see me work at the counter? i don't know. thanks though for wasting your time (and my time!) for dropping by. oh i ran into into cikgu saripah too. but surprisingly she can't remember me at all.
i waved at her then she waved back. obviously she couldn't remember who i was, so i gave her the chance to stare at me at close range for a few seconds, and the name that came out of her mouth was not mine. right. what an anti-climax. so i explained myself, and we chatted a very short while. she says she can't remember her all of her students because she's taught alot of students.
that is, of course. but come on la cikgu! we were your last batch of students before you left our school to go to RI!(of course i didn't say it in front of her.) and we were your pioneer malay literature class batch, in fact the only 1 you taught before you left our school. and there were like, 14 of us in that small class? i admit i wasn't 1 of the more attention-grabbing students, but surely you should still remember me? memories of us would be fresher, logically. she remember shaz, when she ran into her last month. and shaz only takes higher malay! i took both! even after she walked away after the conversation, i wasn't fully convinced she actually remembered who i actually am. tsk tsk.
anyway last week had that class reunion dinner. i ate pizza that i asked von to order. the reast ate steamboat, and i only ate a measly prawn. then they did the lo hey thingy, and i couldn't bear to consume that, since it looked disgusting to me (sorry man!) anyway there's actually such things as halal lo hey. i'm like, what? okay la, it shouldn't be difficult to find halal lo hey snce it only consists of vegetables (errgh! simply disgusting!) and raw fish. it was nice to see back the classmates. i'm quite amazed we still meet up. i bet most of you don't even know what has happened to your own ex-classmates.
anyway arsenal lost last night. kinda disappointed, considering we opened the scoring first. i thought the unknown quantity that is the youth players of arsenal could have given chelsea a huge surprise. it did initially, but in the end chelsea nicked it. oh well. at least it proves arsenal's youngster have a very bright future in them. if the can match up to chelsea in a final, i guess they can match up to the hustle and bustle of the premiership then.
today on off, tomorrow back to work. feel like playing badminton this thursday with haekal, acop and rahman again. it's like a weekly ritual you know. my way (only way actually) of keeping fit. haha although we all tire very easily towards the end of the 2 hours.
everyday, i'm always wondering wondering who i'll run into at my workplace. the possibiilty of it is always very very high, it seems. oh well.
so i've finally started off with cashiering. it's quite simple actually, although some parts are abit confusing. i just need to slowly grasp the concepts and that should be all. the colleagues have been really patient with me and the other newbies. i'm thankful for that actually. even though the place is always packed with people almost all the time.
and i've seen alot fo people i know too. and my friends have been dropping by, i don't know why. is it like exciting to see me work at the counter? i don't know. thanks though for wasting your time (and my time!) for dropping by. oh i ran into into cikgu saripah too. but surprisingly she can't remember me at all.
i waved at her then she waved back. obviously she couldn't remember who i was, so i gave her the chance to stare at me at close range for a few seconds, and the name that came out of her mouth was not mine. right. what an anti-climax. so i explained myself, and we chatted a very short while. she says she can't remember her all of her students because she's taught alot of students.
that is, of course. but come on la cikgu! we were your last batch of students before you left our school to go to RI!(of course i didn't say it in front of her.) and we were your pioneer malay literature class batch, in fact the only 1 you taught before you left our school. and there were like, 14 of us in that small class? i admit i wasn't 1 of the more attention-grabbing students, but surely you should still remember me? memories of us would be fresher, logically. she remember shaz, when she ran into her last month. and shaz only takes higher malay! i took both! even after she walked away after the conversation, i wasn't fully convinced she actually remembered who i actually am. tsk tsk.
anyway last week had that class reunion dinner. i ate pizza that i asked von to order. the reast ate steamboat, and i only ate a measly prawn. then they did the lo hey thingy, and i couldn't bear to consume that, since it looked disgusting to me (sorry man!) anyway there's actually such things as halal lo hey. i'm like, what? okay la, it shouldn't be difficult to find halal lo hey snce it only consists of vegetables (errgh! simply disgusting!) and raw fish. it was nice to see back the classmates. i'm quite amazed we still meet up. i bet most of you don't even know what has happened to your own ex-classmates.
anyway arsenal lost last night. kinda disappointed, considering we opened the scoring first. i thought the unknown quantity that is the youth players of arsenal could have given chelsea a huge surprise. it did initially, but in the end chelsea nicked it. oh well. at least it proves arsenal's youngster have a very bright future in them. if the can match up to chelsea in a final, i guess they can match up to the hustle and bustle of the premiership then.
today on off, tomorrow back to work. feel like playing badminton this thursday with haekal, acop and rahman again. it's like a weekly ritual you know. my way (only way actually) of keeping fit. haha although we all tire very easily towards the end of the 2 hours.
everyday, i'm always wondering wondering who i'll run into at my workplace. the possibiilty of it is always very very high, it seems. oh well.
Friday, February 16, 2007
ppp
i probably should call myself the gangster wrapper. or gangsta wrappa, ratha.
a la 50cent, but not quite.
i wrap like mad at work nowadays.
now pots, pans and porcelain (ppp i term them) is the norm for me at my workplace.
idiotic jerome. cursed me that i might be posted to the pots and pans department. and it REALLY turned out to just that. tsk tsk. everyday i wrap and wrap. still not proficient at it though, but definitely better with my hands now. haha.
pay's not good at all. but hey, this is the only job that i could get. better then idling away at home. at least i learn something, although not really mentally stimulating. kinda tests more on patience and endurance. haven't yet started with the cash register machine, but next week i'm quite sure i've to start cashiering. so no more gangsta-wrappa for me i guess. actually not really.
been reading a book on english words and terms that are actually imported and borrowed from other languages. some of them are really alien to me, but some of them we use itall the time, not knowing it actually is of foreign nature. like vice versa. or status quo. or even chic. and macho.
so everyday i do the same thing - wake up, go to work, read this book on the way to work( i'm done with it actually), work my ass off, thn go back and read it on the way home, then sleep.
i'm still trying to get used to such routines, but so far it has been okay. work hasn't really been a blast, but at least it ain't boring, although there's really alot of tedious things to do. like i said, at least there's things to do. even though the pay might never match anything else.
so i don't work for the next 3 days. but as always, nothing is ever open during these holidays.
i guess it's home sweet home for me then this weekend.
then got a steamboat next week at vonnie's house. more than 2 years ago it was christmas dinner at fab's house. so now is a chinese new year steamboat dinner. ah shall have to rush down from work then.
my legs are really aching like mad! tsk tsk. now i know the life behind the counter ain't so simple.
a la 50cent, but not quite.
i wrap like mad at work nowadays.
now pots, pans and porcelain (ppp i term them) is the norm for me at my workplace.
idiotic jerome. cursed me that i might be posted to the pots and pans department. and it REALLY turned out to just that. tsk tsk. everyday i wrap and wrap. still not proficient at it though, but definitely better with my hands now. haha.
pay's not good at all. but hey, this is the only job that i could get. better then idling away at home. at least i learn something, although not really mentally stimulating. kinda tests more on patience and endurance. haven't yet started with the cash register machine, but next week i'm quite sure i've to start cashiering. so no more gangsta-wrappa for me i guess. actually not really.
been reading a book on english words and terms that are actually imported and borrowed from other languages. some of them are really alien to me, but some of them we use itall the time, not knowing it actually is of foreign nature. like vice versa. or status quo. or even chic. and macho.
so everyday i do the same thing - wake up, go to work, read this book on the way to work( i'm done with it actually), work my ass off, thn go back and read it on the way home, then sleep.
i'm still trying to get used to such routines, but so far it has been okay. work hasn't really been a blast, but at least it ain't boring, although there's really alot of tedious things to do. like i said, at least there's things to do. even though the pay might never match anything else.
so i don't work for the next 3 days. but as always, nothing is ever open during these holidays.
i guess it's home sweet home for me then this weekend.
then got a steamboat next week at vonnie's house. more than 2 years ago it was christmas dinner at fab's house. so now is a chinese new year steamboat dinner. ah shall have to rush down from work then.
my legs are really aching like mad! tsk tsk. now i know the life behind the counter ain't so simple.
Sunday, February 11, 2007
shirts
i don't know why, but i keep seeing our football heroes these days.
on wednesday night and last night, i saw khairul amri. then just now i saw raddy avramovic.
so who's next for tomorrow? jj says it should be ridhuan muhd. haha. he of the bandaged head fame. but apparently he took out the stitches on his head all by himself.
i digress.
so i have gotten a job actually. i try not to be choosy so i just accepted it. then another offer comes along. which is more lucrative than the first one.
how now brown cow?
i haven't started work yet. i start on monday. but the 2nd job offer offers more - for less. but i only have had a verbal agreement for the first job, no contract signing etc done yet. but right now i'm very muddled up.
i accepted the first offer because it's so hard to get a part-time/temporary job nowadays. the pay is rather paltry i guess. but working there would probably open me up to a world i might not have seen before. but the 2nd job offers more money, for less hours. but its working conditions are so - safe. like it's really guarded.
ah i was already geared up to work on monday. i'm not really excited or anything, it's just that i jus want to know what my new job entails and such. it might be mundane, but it will be quite insightful i guess. it might make me a stronger person.
oh well.
on another note, i've been shopping these days - even though there's no sale going on now. so far i've spent jus over a hundred bucks on 4 shirts. haha. 3 dress shirts and 1 top from topman. tsk tsk. and river island is something like topman, but i think slightly more pricey, from what i observed just now.
on yet another note.
2 nights ago was the birthday dinner with nurul and the rest. i'm real glad even after all these years we primary school friends still meet up. it's amazing to see how each other have grown through the years. and cam-whoring is so fun! haha yes hatta, yours truly admit he's a cam-whore. okay i guess i kind of get in touch with this feminine( is that how you spell it?) side of mine. but then again, i already have a digital camera, so might as well shoot away all night long what! haha. if not for what i own a digital camera?
so tomorrow is another day of shopping for me - with jj and jimmy. haha. money's flowing out but not coming in. tsk tsk.
the other day i had no jobs at all. now i've got 2 offers! haha what a whirlwind life can be.
how now brown cow?
on wednesday night and last night, i saw khairul amri. then just now i saw raddy avramovic.
so who's next for tomorrow? jj says it should be ridhuan muhd. haha. he of the bandaged head fame. but apparently he took out the stitches on his head all by himself.
i digress.
so i have gotten a job actually. i try not to be choosy so i just accepted it. then another offer comes along. which is more lucrative than the first one.
how now brown cow?
i haven't started work yet. i start on monday. but the 2nd job offer offers more - for less. but i only have had a verbal agreement for the first job, no contract signing etc done yet. but right now i'm very muddled up.
i accepted the first offer because it's so hard to get a part-time/temporary job nowadays. the pay is rather paltry i guess. but working there would probably open me up to a world i might not have seen before. but the 2nd job offers more money, for less hours. but its working conditions are so - safe. like it's really guarded.
ah i was already geared up to work on monday. i'm not really excited or anything, it's just that i jus want to know what my new job entails and such. it might be mundane, but it will be quite insightful i guess. it might make me a stronger person.
oh well.
on another note, i've been shopping these days - even though there's no sale going on now. so far i've spent jus over a hundred bucks on 4 shirts. haha. 3 dress shirts and 1 top from topman. tsk tsk. and river island is something like topman, but i think slightly more pricey, from what i observed just now.
on yet another note.
2 nights ago was the birthday dinner with nurul and the rest. i'm real glad even after all these years we primary school friends still meet up. it's amazing to see how each other have grown through the years. and cam-whoring is so fun! haha yes hatta, yours truly admit he's a cam-whore. okay i guess i kind of get in touch with this feminine( is that how you spell it?) side of mine. but then again, i already have a digital camera, so might as well shoot away all night long what! haha. if not for what i own a digital camera?
so tomorrow is another day of shopping for me - with jj and jimmy. haha. money's flowing out but not coming in. tsk tsk.
the other day i had no jobs at all. now i've got 2 offers! haha what a whirlwind life can be.
how now brown cow?
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
ord
okay, so finally my nightmare has ended.
finally. errgh, the wait seemed like forever. for the past 2 years this is the day i have been waiting for, but it passed just like that. i'm not feeling so euphoric or ecstatic, it just feels like just another day. i don't know why.
everyone is really looking forward to this day, but yet is feel nothing inside. i don't know. ah must be the uncertainties that lie ahead. the end of something is almost always the beginning of something.
and i haven't even started to scout for jobs, and yet people have been asking me out here and there. tomorrow i'm out with marcus and wadi. thursday's dinner with the primary school friends. friday's job-hunting and maybe another game of badminton, and saturday could be a gathering of old camp mates. ah it's all so packed.
but i need a job, badly. my finances isn't that healthy, and it may plummet towards recession sooner rather than later it seems. i need the World Bank to save me! haha.
oh well. at least i've somewhat gotten my life back.
can't wait to start school. i don't mind starting school tomorrow, frankly speaking.but actually, i need a break.
come june - Kl here i come. i think.
finally. errgh, the wait seemed like forever. for the past 2 years this is the day i have been waiting for, but it passed just like that. i'm not feeling so euphoric or ecstatic, it just feels like just another day. i don't know why.
everyone is really looking forward to this day, but yet is feel nothing inside. i don't know. ah must be the uncertainties that lie ahead. the end of something is almost always the beginning of something.
and i haven't even started to scout for jobs, and yet people have been asking me out here and there. tomorrow i'm out with marcus and wadi. thursday's dinner with the primary school friends. friday's job-hunting and maybe another game of badminton, and saturday could be a gathering of old camp mates. ah it's all so packed.
but i need a job, badly. my finances isn't that healthy, and it may plummet towards recession sooner rather than later it seems. i need the World Bank to save me! haha.
oh well. at least i've somewhat gotten my life back.
can't wait to start school. i don't mind starting school tomorrow, frankly speaking.but actually, i need a break.
come june - Kl here i come. i think.
Monday, January 29, 2007
match
just came home from going out...to buy the singapore-thailand match tickets. yeah finally. was supposed to go down to catch saturday's match but the tickets sold out by 3pm. i was already ready to rush down in thomas' car but it wasn't to be. the whole weekend was then practically wasted away at home doing nothing but colelcting dust.
so this time round me and jerome couldn't take any chances. we reached jalan besar at close to 4 but the queue was quite long. took us around 20minutes or so before we could purchase the tickets. the fatigue on the faces of the people at the counter was clear - both of them had sore eyes! and they still had to work. so wednesday i'll be there cheering them on against the mighty thais.
seriously singapore played quite horribly against malaysia. i think me and jj got a common consensus. singapore wants to utilise alam shah's supposed aerial prowess but they can't even cross the ball properly. even the freekicks were wasted. and i don't think one needs to be an einstein to tell me indra is off-form. so is baihakki. baihakki is seriously a pale shadow of the player he was during the last tiger cup. and the defence is really shaky. bennett can't really take freekicks, contrary to what the players claim. ridhuan mohd can't cross the ball for nuts and shi jia yi hasn't impressed me enough.
of course i don't expect perfection. but seriously, what i see on the pitch and what is written on the newspapers do not match. so i think i should be expecting better from them this wednesday, since it is most probably the national stadium's last match ever.
frankly speaking i've never watched a match at the stadium before, although i've performed on the pitch itself many times with my military band in my heydays a few years back.
on another note.
finally i've won the international cup on winning 11 at level 5! haha big deal to some other people, but it's quite an achievement to me. been trying to do that for the past few months. finally did it! achieved it at 3am+ on sunday night/monday morning. finally!haha.
on yet another note.
i need to find work!
anyone got a decent propostion?
so this time round me and jerome couldn't take any chances. we reached jalan besar at close to 4 but the queue was quite long. took us around 20minutes or so before we could purchase the tickets. the fatigue on the faces of the people at the counter was clear - both of them had sore eyes! and they still had to work. so wednesday i'll be there cheering them on against the mighty thais.
seriously singapore played quite horribly against malaysia. i think me and jj got a common consensus. singapore wants to utilise alam shah's supposed aerial prowess but they can't even cross the ball properly. even the freekicks were wasted. and i don't think one needs to be an einstein to tell me indra is off-form. so is baihakki. baihakki is seriously a pale shadow of the player he was during the last tiger cup. and the defence is really shaky. bennett can't really take freekicks, contrary to what the players claim. ridhuan mohd can't cross the ball for nuts and shi jia yi hasn't impressed me enough.
of course i don't expect perfection. but seriously, what i see on the pitch and what is written on the newspapers do not match. so i think i should be expecting better from them this wednesday, since it is most probably the national stadium's last match ever.
frankly speaking i've never watched a match at the stadium before, although i've performed on the pitch itself many times with my military band in my heydays a few years back.
on another note.
finally i've won the international cup on winning 11 at level 5! haha big deal to some other people, but it's quite an achievement to me. been trying to do that for the past few months. finally did it! achieved it at 3am+ on sunday night/monday morning. finally!haha.
on yet another note.
i need to find work!
anyone got a decent propostion?
Sunday, January 21, 2007
slacking
things are very mundane nowadays.
i sleep quite alot in camp. in fact i even brought in a very detailed book about WWII to keep me preoccupied.
ah it's not those thick and wordy ones, is those with colour illustrations and almost 300 page thick. just what i need to get a grasp of the events of WWII. tomorrow i'll start on the chapter where the tide of the war now goes against the Nazi Germans.
it's quite exciting actually. well maybe to me actually, since history is probably the only i read in depth.
on another note.
my clumsiness has taken me to a higher level now. haha. think some of you might know just how clumsy i can be. and the stupidest of things that i could do. well yet another embarassing thing happened to me.
ever walked past by SMU? somewhere there by bras basah rd, there's this water fountain thingy, outside the li ka shing library. well i happened to walk past there on saturday with sheikh and iman. then i got a call. so while on the phone i started to lose my mind abit i think, apparently i slowly swayed too much to the left the woooosh!
damn it i stepped into the water structure. the thing looked like a flight of stairs but its full of water. i couldn't see since it was at night around 7+and the lighting was dim. i swear i didn't realise it was water. you gotta go see for yourselves how the water structure looks like.
well the aftermath was embarassing. my jeans were drenched up to my shin level. it was pretty obvious. then i just sat down exasperated. while the guys were laughing their socks off. well at least their socks were still dry. tsk tsk.
after various means of trying to get my jeans dry up it took like around 7 hours before my jeans really dried up. that night still carried on. played pool, played counter-strike for the 1st time ever and then hanged out till morning.
rather embarassing. well at least it didn't happen on my way to meet some girl on a date or what. haha. i'm so clumsy i wonder when i'll grow out of my clumsiness. it kinda stems from my blurredness or my stupidity somehow. it's all a mish-mash.
so far i've been to 2 birthday functions this month. everyone's like turning 21 this year. thinking of having 1 myself later in the year, but logistics-wise it will be quite a nightmare. still thinking.
well, good thing is the nightmare is going to end rather soon.
but it it isn't the end of everything it seems.
the end of something almost always means the beginning of another thing.
and somethings can never end just like that.
i sleep quite alot in camp. in fact i even brought in a very detailed book about WWII to keep me preoccupied.
ah it's not those thick and wordy ones, is those with colour illustrations and almost 300 page thick. just what i need to get a grasp of the events of WWII. tomorrow i'll start on the chapter where the tide of the war now goes against the Nazi Germans.
it's quite exciting actually. well maybe to me actually, since history is probably the only i read in depth.
on another note.
my clumsiness has taken me to a higher level now. haha. think some of you might know just how clumsy i can be. and the stupidest of things that i could do. well yet another embarassing thing happened to me.
ever walked past by SMU? somewhere there by bras basah rd, there's this water fountain thingy, outside the li ka shing library. well i happened to walk past there on saturday with sheikh and iman. then i got a call. so while on the phone i started to lose my mind abit i think, apparently i slowly swayed too much to the left the woooosh!
damn it i stepped into the water structure. the thing looked like a flight of stairs but its full of water. i couldn't see since it was at night around 7+and the lighting was dim. i swear i didn't realise it was water. you gotta go see for yourselves how the water structure looks like.
well the aftermath was embarassing. my jeans were drenched up to my shin level. it was pretty obvious. then i just sat down exasperated. while the guys were laughing their socks off. well at least their socks were still dry. tsk tsk.
after various means of trying to get my jeans dry up it took like around 7 hours before my jeans really dried up. that night still carried on. played pool, played counter-strike for the 1st time ever and then hanged out till morning.
rather embarassing. well at least it didn't happen on my way to meet some girl on a date or what. haha. i'm so clumsy i wonder when i'll grow out of my clumsiness. it kinda stems from my blurredness or my stupidity somehow. it's all a mish-mash.
so far i've been to 2 birthday functions this month. everyone's like turning 21 this year. thinking of having 1 myself later in the year, but logistics-wise it will be quite a nightmare. still thinking.
well, good thing is the nightmare is going to end rather soon.
but it it isn't the end of everything it seems.
the end of something almost always means the beginning of another thing.
and somethings can never end just like that.
Saturday, January 06, 2007
new yr
hey, happy new year!
oh i know, i haven't been blogging for quite sometime. pardon the laziness. my bad.
i guess i'll just blog on what happened in the day leading up to the new year and after that.
for starters, the class outing. the much-hyped one apparently. the one that i kinda volunteered to organise.
it went okay actually. although everyone else came late for the badminton game. there was me, jerome, fabian, thomas, vineson, gq, clarissa, yenlin, sarah and lingfang. we played for around 2 hours at the toa payoh sports hall. then we showered and then made our way to toa payoh central. waited for mr yong to come. dear old mr yong, my jc class form teacher. i haven't seen him since i collected my results for a levels almost 2 years ago. too bad mr tan and mr yap couldn't join us. tyan joined us for dinner too.
so we dined at swensens. and chatted. then we played pool for 2 hours near there. then me jerome fabian and thomas made our way to a pub at selegie road, supposedy to catch the liverpool-spurs match. but ended up watching man u-reading instead.
so the class outing went okay. it wasn't really a blast,but it wasn't really a disaster either. it's just wasted that some originally could make it but had to pull out last minute. it's really hard to get everyone coming over actually.
then the next day was hari raya haji. got to drive the aunt's car around abit. at night i went out to clarke quay. met up with hadi,lizzy, haryyany and shaz. shaz brought along her cousin from kl. and we walked around, and then went over to esplanade to catch the fireworks. then slacked around town, and catching the 1st (or rather 2nd train) home. no cabs wanted to take us in, so we decided to waste time away till the first train.
i got home at close to 8am on new year's day. later that day i went out again, this time with fab and jj. got a shirt for myself from pull and bear at taka. and after that caught the liverpool-bolton game at chjimes. and on the 2nd i was on duty in camp.
so now it's already 2007. i'm going to ord quite soon. but i'm really taking things with alot of caution. things havent't really panned out well for me so far. i really hope everything else won't affect me. because it might just have an adverse effect on me. until then all i can say is jus i've keep my head up and put on a brave front i guess. hope things will turn out okay for me in the end.
i really do.
God please help me.
oh i know, i haven't been blogging for quite sometime. pardon the laziness. my bad.
i guess i'll just blog on what happened in the day leading up to the new year and after that.
for starters, the class outing. the much-hyped one apparently. the one that i kinda volunteered to organise.
it went okay actually. although everyone else came late for the badminton game. there was me, jerome, fabian, thomas, vineson, gq, clarissa, yenlin, sarah and lingfang. we played for around 2 hours at the toa payoh sports hall. then we showered and then made our way to toa payoh central. waited for mr yong to come. dear old mr yong, my jc class form teacher. i haven't seen him since i collected my results for a levels almost 2 years ago. too bad mr tan and mr yap couldn't join us. tyan joined us for dinner too.
so we dined at swensens. and chatted. then we played pool for 2 hours near there. then me jerome fabian and thomas made our way to a pub at selegie road, supposedy to catch the liverpool-spurs match. but ended up watching man u-reading instead.
so the class outing went okay. it wasn't really a blast,but it wasn't really a disaster either. it's just wasted that some originally could make it but had to pull out last minute. it's really hard to get everyone coming over actually.
then the next day was hari raya haji. got to drive the aunt's car around abit. at night i went out to clarke quay. met up with hadi,lizzy, haryyany and shaz. shaz brought along her cousin from kl. and we walked around, and then went over to esplanade to catch the fireworks. then slacked around town, and catching the 1st (or rather 2nd train) home. no cabs wanted to take us in, so we decided to waste time away till the first train.
i got home at close to 8am on new year's day. later that day i went out again, this time with fab and jj. got a shirt for myself from pull and bear at taka. and after that caught the liverpool-bolton game at chjimes. and on the 2nd i was on duty in camp.
so now it's already 2007. i'm going to ord quite soon. but i'm really taking things with alot of caution. things havent't really panned out well for me so far. i really hope everything else won't affect me. because it might just have an adverse effect on me. until then all i can say is jus i've keep my head up and put on a brave front i guess. hope things will turn out okay for me in the end.
i really do.
God please help me.
Thursday, December 14, 2006
end of year
so the end of year beckons.
what have i really achieved this year?
frankly speaking, nothing much to brag about. oh well except the much coveted driving licence. and alot of my materialistic aims have been achieved (upgrading the whole computer system, shoes, clothes etc).
on a side note, let me go through again how much i've been in these tow months (nov and dec) alone!
$149 + $25 + $399 + $69 + $178 + $15 = $835
wow. a grand total of $835. that doesn't even include all those spent on transport and food and the what-nots. right.
anyway the $174 was spent of two shoes, 1, an asics running shoes and another an adidas sneakers. i'm really thinking of buying that converse pair that costs just under $50. ah i'm really stocking up for my life after life.
back to the main topic.
what i've gained from this whole? actually it;s only lessons. lessons for life. things that only life in ns could have thought me at this stage of my life. like how i realise now, people are really diverse in every way possible. the only similiarity is that we are all human beings and that's all. people of all kinds of characters, personalities that you thought could never exist do actually exist.
it is interesting, this point, because it leads to another point - how do you deal with such a variety of people? since everyone else presents to you a different type of character and personality, definitely dealing with them cannot be through using a standard method. and so i've realised that i've really gotta handle different people differently. if not, i might just hurt their feelings, or they might get the wrong perception of me. it's a give and take world, i guess. it's all so complex.
and working withpeople can be such a chore. and that would lead to another point - what about my future working life? what if i don't really personally like my colleagues? so how? i can;t really choose how i want my colleagues to be like. i can't choose my working environtment, neither can i choose my superiors. it's all fated to be like that, like it or not. freedom to choose is really bullshit i guess. how can one choose how they want to live? given the aspirations and the needs that we need to fulfil, are we really able to live life they way we want it? i think that's too much wishful thinking.
life is really about choices, they say. but some things have already been pre-decided for you. so what's there to be choosy about? anyway in singapore, i believe there's not much of a choice on how we can really live our lives. it's all so preset, so pre-determined, so fake.
well, we ain't got much of choice do we? life goes on, and you live only once. oh well.
on a brighter note, the jc class gathering that i'm organinsing, the response has been quite encouraging. i hope things turn out okay though. i'mn really looking forward to it, since everyone hasn't seen each other for quite a while. hope all goes to plan and almost all will turn out.
looking forward to the new year, and of course, the life after life!
what have i really achieved this year?
frankly speaking, nothing much to brag about. oh well except the much coveted driving licence. and alot of my materialistic aims have been achieved (upgrading the whole computer system, shoes, clothes etc).
on a side note, let me go through again how much i've been in these tow months (nov and dec) alone!
$149 + $25 + $399 + $69 + $178 + $15 = $835
wow. a grand total of $835. that doesn't even include all those spent on transport and food and the what-nots. right.
anyway the $174 was spent of two shoes, 1, an asics running shoes and another an adidas sneakers. i'm really thinking of buying that converse pair that costs just under $50. ah i'm really stocking up for my life after life.
back to the main topic.
what i've gained from this whole? actually it;s only lessons. lessons for life. things that only life in ns could have thought me at this stage of my life. like how i realise now, people are really diverse in every way possible. the only similiarity is that we are all human beings and that's all. people of all kinds of characters, personalities that you thought could never exist do actually exist.
it is interesting, this point, because it leads to another point - how do you deal with such a variety of people? since everyone else presents to you a different type of character and personality, definitely dealing with them cannot be through using a standard method. and so i've realised that i've really gotta handle different people differently. if not, i might just hurt their feelings, or they might get the wrong perception of me. it's a give and take world, i guess. it's all so complex.
and working withpeople can be such a chore. and that would lead to another point - what about my future working life? what if i don't really personally like my colleagues? so how? i can;t really choose how i want my colleagues to be like. i can't choose my working environtment, neither can i choose my superiors. it's all fated to be like that, like it or not. freedom to choose is really bullshit i guess. how can one choose how they want to live? given the aspirations and the needs that we need to fulfil, are we really able to live life they way we want it? i think that's too much wishful thinking.
life is really about choices, they say. but some things have already been pre-decided for you. so what's there to be choosy about? anyway in singapore, i believe there's not much of a choice on how we can really live our lives. it's all so preset, so pre-determined, so fake.
well, we ain't got much of choice do we? life goes on, and you live only once. oh well.
on a brighter note, the jc class gathering that i'm organinsing, the response has been quite encouraging. i hope things turn out okay though. i'mn really looking forward to it, since everyone hasn't seen each other for quite a while. hope all goes to plan and almost all will turn out.
looking forward to the new year, and of course, the life after life!
Sunday, December 03, 2006
december
it's been a while since i last updated.
so i'll try and condense it all.
finally december beckons! the recruits will be passing out soon, and my time is also coming up. another 8 more weeks to go before it all ends! haha. although i'm just taking things a day at a time. but december would still be a busy month for me. i've still got alot of duties to do, and not much leave to clear. i can't even go for my secondary 2 class outing on the 10th. boo hoo. i haven't seen them for a very long time, must have been eons i think.
well last week, like any other kiasu singaporean i went down to the creative warehouse sale. got lucky and purchased the creative zen neeon 6gb player worth $149. i know, i know, it ain't the new creative zen neeon 2, but hey, i'm looking for something value for my money. 6gb for $149, i think is a bargain. but there's some problems with the installation cd, so i haven't been able to use it yet. oh well, gotta call them up i guess. but the digicam looks real good. and
but my sister, i guess abit jealous with my purchase, on her own went down to plaza singapura 3 days ago to get her own mp3 player. but not worth the money. a creative zen muvo n200 (an even oler model), 1gb at $109. at the sale it went for $69, and even had a promotion price of buy 2 at $130! too rushed in her decision, so i told her off. what a waste of money, i feel.
oh yesterday i drove around for the whole day. my aunt and uncle left for thailand for a holiday, so the car was lent to us. we sent them off at the airport and the made our way to the expo. i wanted to see around for any bargains for a digital camera, and i got 1. although it's quite expensive to me ($399), but i guess i got a good deal. an olympus 6.0 camera. quite sleek looking too, although i wanted to buy 1 within the proce range of $200+. but the digital camera looks real good, and i think i got myself quite a good deal.
and then we dropped by john little, and drove around singapore here and there. at night i drove myself here and there. what a field day i had. but at night when i reached home and wanted to turn right into the carpark, something blocked the way. an accident had happened so i had to go in by another way. quite a horrible accident. from the way i looked at it, it seemed as if the van was making a right turn but didn't see the motorcyclist speeding towards his direction. the motobike was completely damaged, but i think the guy got sent to hospital. the junction in front of my black is a hazardous area. every now and then there's bound to be accidents here and there.
i guess it's things like these that make you wake up about the dangers of driving on the roads. reality will strike you hard if we don't make an effort to drive safely.
looking forward to the end of the month! till then good day!
so i'll try and condense it all.
finally december beckons! the recruits will be passing out soon, and my time is also coming up. another 8 more weeks to go before it all ends! haha. although i'm just taking things a day at a time. but december would still be a busy month for me. i've still got alot of duties to do, and not much leave to clear. i can't even go for my secondary 2 class outing on the 10th. boo hoo. i haven't seen them for a very long time, must have been eons i think.
well last week, like any other kiasu singaporean i went down to the creative warehouse sale. got lucky and purchased the creative zen neeon 6gb player worth $149. i know, i know, it ain't the new creative zen neeon 2, but hey, i'm looking for something value for my money. 6gb for $149, i think is a bargain. but there's some problems with the installation cd, so i haven't been able to use it yet. oh well, gotta call them up i guess. but the digicam looks real good. and
but my sister, i guess abit jealous with my purchase, on her own went down to plaza singapura 3 days ago to get her own mp3 player. but not worth the money. a creative zen muvo n200 (an even oler model), 1gb at $109. at the sale it went for $69, and even had a promotion price of buy 2 at $130! too rushed in her decision, so i told her off. what a waste of money, i feel.
oh yesterday i drove around for the whole day. my aunt and uncle left for thailand for a holiday, so the car was lent to us. we sent them off at the airport and the made our way to the expo. i wanted to see around for any bargains for a digital camera, and i got 1. although it's quite expensive to me ($399), but i guess i got a good deal. an olympus 6.0 camera. quite sleek looking too, although i wanted to buy 1 within the proce range of $200+. but the digital camera looks real good, and i think i got myself quite a good deal.
and then we dropped by john little, and drove around singapore here and there. at night i drove myself here and there. what a field day i had. but at night when i reached home and wanted to turn right into the carpark, something blocked the way. an accident had happened so i had to go in by another way. quite a horrible accident. from the way i looked at it, it seemed as if the van was making a right turn but didn't see the motorcyclist speeding towards his direction. the motobike was completely damaged, but i think the guy got sent to hospital. the junction in front of my black is a hazardous area. every now and then there's bound to be accidents here and there.
i guess it's things like these that make you wake up about the dangers of driving on the roads. reality will strike you hard if we don't make an effort to drive safely.
looking forward to the end of the month! till then good day!
Sunday, November 12, 2006
extra
finally i'm back home after being locked away for so long in camp.
yesterday i was on duty on a borin g boring saturday, so i actually had a movie marathon of my own. a grand total of 5 hours, all of which i've never watched before. first i watched munich. then i finished up hitler: the rise of evil. followed by this chinese movie called love and the city, and then paradise now. lastly i watched cast away on channel 5. haha. but it's sad enough i can't go out hari raya with my secondary school mates or with the people i went to kl with in december 2004. or the play at esplanade next week. haha it's a real sad life.
next week's gonna be the same. life is so mundane. i hope december will be power packed. december sounds like it has alot of things in store for me. can probably look forward to the class outings. or even the trip to kl. and the short break. and xmas holidays, and hari raya haji. and the fact that my nightmare is in its closing chapters. although i must admit this month i'll be really slaving it out, since it's really so packed. i don't think i'll ever go out this month.
i think i'll get myself an ipod. how soon i don't know. and the digital camera too. and the shoes, i'll have to get them at kl i hope! and a few tops or whatever. i don't know, i just wanna get out of here and scram to somewhere better.
it's a real sad life now.
feels like i should be screaming.
yesterday i was on duty on a borin g boring saturday, so i actually had a movie marathon of my own. a grand total of 5 hours, all of which i've never watched before. first i watched munich. then i finished up hitler: the rise of evil. followed by this chinese movie called love and the city, and then paradise now. lastly i watched cast away on channel 5. haha. but it's sad enough i can't go out hari raya with my secondary school mates or with the people i went to kl with in december 2004. or the play at esplanade next week. haha it's a real sad life.
next week's gonna be the same. life is so mundane. i hope december will be power packed. december sounds like it has alot of things in store for me. can probably look forward to the class outings. or even the trip to kl. and the short break. and xmas holidays, and hari raya haji. and the fact that my nightmare is in its closing chapters. although i must admit this month i'll be really slaving it out, since it's really so packed. i don't think i'll ever go out this month.
i think i'll get myself an ipod. how soon i don't know. and the digital camera too. and the shoes, i'll have to get them at kl i hope! and a few tops or whatever. i don't know, i just wanna get out of here and scram to somewhere better.
it's a real sad life now.
feels like i should be screaming.
Sunday, October 29, 2006
raya
so i have been driving around lately.
on the 1st day of raya i drove around my aunt's mitsubishi lancer and my uncle's toyota wish. haha it's quite cool to drive actually. braving myself against e elements of the roads. but haha, apparently i drive too fast,above the speed limit, especially on the highways.
like just now. 110 on the kje. tsk tsk. haha, especially for new drivers like me. but im getting the feel of it i guess, especially when driving in packed areas, or driving in multi-storey carparks. i guess i've somewhat got the hang of how to park openly and in the multi-storey carparks. but of course, such things need more experience and practice. which i won't get that much. well, i guess that bmw will have to wait another 15 years then.haha.
oh and i drove in johor on day 2 of raya. and i was a complete idiot. from the customs in jb to my kampong, it takes about 20mins by car. i drove there in my uncle's proton wira. drove at max 80. the thing was, after i reached my kampong, i realised that i didn't let go of the handbrake AT ALL. the whole time i was driving at 80 with the handbrake not released. can u imagine that? i probably burned through the whole brake system (which i hope didn't happen, although my uncle didn't say anything!). i felt really bad about it, 'cause i know the brake would have heated up pretty much alot. really hope it's all ok. it doesn't help that his wira is quite old and broken down here and there.
but at least i could go back to my kampong and visit my grandma and aunts and uncles and cousin. oh i have this hot cousin from my kampong! haha. she's really attractive. the thing is, i don't know her name, her age. i'm serious. the thing about my paternal side is that it's rather shady. far flung relatives, divorces, marriages turning bad and the unwillingness to keep in contact. i think this hot cousin of mine is younger than i am, but that's about it. i was like wow, since when i had such a hot cousin?haha. oh well i guess the next time i'll see her is next year then. next year then i ask! haha.
so far raya's been okay. i didn't get much money,but i'm not complaining. it's really about meeting the people you don't see everyday, and catch up on their lives and stuffs. and see how people grow up so fast. and people will admire how i've grown up so fast. haha it's all the same.
what are you doing now? after NS do what? in NS what's your vocation? wah why are you so dark? wah, you're so tall! and the rare questions will come like where's the wife? (someone asked this just now!) haha. it's all very mundane but hey, it's fun to see the far-flung relatives and the 2nd and 3rd cousins etc.
ah but next week i'm confined in camp, so no visiting! ah i guess there's always next year.
ah till then, selamat hari raya all!
on the 1st day of raya i drove around my aunt's mitsubishi lancer and my uncle's toyota wish. haha it's quite cool to drive actually. braving myself against e elements of the roads. but haha, apparently i drive too fast,above the speed limit, especially on the highways.
like just now. 110 on the kje. tsk tsk. haha, especially for new drivers like me. but im getting the feel of it i guess, especially when driving in packed areas, or driving in multi-storey carparks. i guess i've somewhat got the hang of how to park openly and in the multi-storey carparks. but of course, such things need more experience and practice. which i won't get that much. well, i guess that bmw will have to wait another 15 years then.haha.
oh and i drove in johor on day 2 of raya. and i was a complete idiot. from the customs in jb to my kampong, it takes about 20mins by car. i drove there in my uncle's proton wira. drove at max 80. the thing was, after i reached my kampong, i realised that i didn't let go of the handbrake AT ALL. the whole time i was driving at 80 with the handbrake not released. can u imagine that? i probably burned through the whole brake system (which i hope didn't happen, although my uncle didn't say anything!). i felt really bad about it, 'cause i know the brake would have heated up pretty much alot. really hope it's all ok. it doesn't help that his wira is quite old and broken down here and there.
but at least i could go back to my kampong and visit my grandma and aunts and uncles and cousin. oh i have this hot cousin from my kampong! haha. she's really attractive. the thing is, i don't know her name, her age. i'm serious. the thing about my paternal side is that it's rather shady. far flung relatives, divorces, marriages turning bad and the unwillingness to keep in contact. i think this hot cousin of mine is younger than i am, but that's about it. i was like wow, since when i had such a hot cousin?haha. oh well i guess the next time i'll see her is next year then. next year then i ask! haha.
so far raya's been okay. i didn't get much money,but i'm not complaining. it's really about meeting the people you don't see everyday, and catch up on their lives and stuffs. and see how people grow up so fast. and people will admire how i've grown up so fast. haha it's all the same.
what are you doing now? after NS do what? in NS what's your vocation? wah why are you so dark? wah, you're so tall! and the rare questions will come like where's the wife? (someone asked this just now!) haha. it's all very mundane but hey, it's fun to see the far-flung relatives and the 2nd and 3rd cousins etc.
ah but next week i'm confined in camp, so no visiting! ah i guess there's always next year.
ah till then, selamat hari raya all!
Monday, October 23, 2006
hari raya
so today is the last day of fasting. flashback to a year ago.
i was actually charging up and down the forests and hills of taiwan. and on hari raya itself, we were all so down, and even ended up crying together. to be away in a the jungles of a foreign land on the most celebrated day in the muslim calendar is a really harrowing experience.
so fast forward back to today. still i can't feel the hari raya mood. it doesn't help that alot of weekends will be burnt in camp. oh well, life's like that. on a brighter note i didnt skip a single day of fastingh since day 1. which is quite an achievement. although i did try to find avenues to try and sleep and rest as an when i could in camp. but i guess this wasn't such a great ramadhan for me, i think and i hope to do better for the next month. basically the only plus point was that i didn't skip any days.
although this year i sent out quite a few hari raya cards. realised after going through my stuffs i had some hari raya cards left, so why not send them out? although not all have received them. haha but the feedback is always the same - you're probably the ONLY one to send me a hari raya card this year, or this will probably be my ONLY hari raya card this year, and that my handwriting is totally illegible.
i plead guilty to e 2nd point. firstly my handwriting isn't as neat as it used to be 10 years ago. secondly i had to rush through to make the cards! but haha even i myself have problems figuring out my own handwriting sometimes. so sorry for the illegibility though! haha, shall work on it the next time round.
i myself didn't receive any this year, since its more convenient for people to just sms each other. haha i only got a note by mail from clare and attached to it a replacement commie chain for the one that i lost last month. haha thanks though, even if it isn't really a hari raya card! haha. at least something came through the mail.
anyway yesterday i dropped by fab's house. he went to china last week and bought me communist stuffs from there. a whole lot of things. especially the huge ass mao zedong posters. oh and i have an english little red book! and a mao bag, a mao lighter, a mao pendant clock and mao badges. everything mao!
so mistake me for having a morbid perversion for all things communist. its just a simple fascincation with communism, especially soviet russia. imagine how such a ideology that many believed could never work but could scare the whole globe for 50 years or so. everyone was so paranoid about whoever was communist, and as far as possible everyone else tried to wipe them out. even though the USSR eventually collapsed, but it's legacy still prevails. and people still fear communism, even though they know it's an ideology doomed to fail.
and communism has thar fervour, the nationalistic fervour, the patriotic fervour. that was able to drive home the point to masses that live in then USSR n China. that was able to galvanise the masses in the efforts of building up the country. of achieving the communist utopia. amazing isn't it? such an ideology could drive millions to actually conslave themselves for the good of the nation.
but i'm not a commie, strictly speaking. i just find the whole commie thing fascinating and interesting. haha. someday i shall go to moscow and probably st. petersburg and collect even more relics from the days of the USSR! haha stalins mini-statuettes, badges, uniform, propaganda posters and what not! haha. someday i hope i can go!
so to all of you, apologies to anyone whom i've hurt through my actions and words.
and with that selamat hari raya!
i was actually charging up and down the forests and hills of taiwan. and on hari raya itself, we were all so down, and even ended up crying together. to be away in a the jungles of a foreign land on the most celebrated day in the muslim calendar is a really harrowing experience.
so fast forward back to today. still i can't feel the hari raya mood. it doesn't help that alot of weekends will be burnt in camp. oh well, life's like that. on a brighter note i didnt skip a single day of fastingh since day 1. which is quite an achievement. although i did try to find avenues to try and sleep and rest as an when i could in camp. but i guess this wasn't such a great ramadhan for me, i think and i hope to do better for the next month. basically the only plus point was that i didn't skip any days.
although this year i sent out quite a few hari raya cards. realised after going through my stuffs i had some hari raya cards left, so why not send them out? although not all have received them. haha but the feedback is always the same - you're probably the ONLY one to send me a hari raya card this year, or this will probably be my ONLY hari raya card this year, and that my handwriting is totally illegible.
i plead guilty to e 2nd point. firstly my handwriting isn't as neat as it used to be 10 years ago. secondly i had to rush through to make the cards! but haha even i myself have problems figuring out my own handwriting sometimes. so sorry for the illegibility though! haha, shall work on it the next time round.
i myself didn't receive any this year, since its more convenient for people to just sms each other. haha i only got a note by mail from clare and attached to it a replacement commie chain for the one that i lost last month. haha thanks though, even if it isn't really a hari raya card! haha. at least something came through the mail.
anyway yesterday i dropped by fab's house. he went to china last week and bought me communist stuffs from there. a whole lot of things. especially the huge ass mao zedong posters. oh and i have an english little red book! and a mao bag, a mao lighter, a mao pendant clock and mao badges. everything mao!
so mistake me for having a morbid perversion for all things communist. its just a simple fascincation with communism, especially soviet russia. imagine how such a ideology that many believed could never work but could scare the whole globe for 50 years or so. everyone was so paranoid about whoever was communist, and as far as possible everyone else tried to wipe them out. even though the USSR eventually collapsed, but it's legacy still prevails. and people still fear communism, even though they know it's an ideology doomed to fail.
and communism has thar fervour, the nationalistic fervour, the patriotic fervour. that was able to drive home the point to masses that live in then USSR n China. that was able to galvanise the masses in the efforts of building up the country. of achieving the communist utopia. amazing isn't it? such an ideology could drive millions to actually conslave themselves for the good of the nation.
but i'm not a commie, strictly speaking. i just find the whole commie thing fascinating and interesting. haha. someday i shall go to moscow and probably st. petersburg and collect even more relics from the days of the USSR! haha stalins mini-statuettes, badges, uniform, propaganda posters and what not! haha. someday i hope i can go!
so to all of you, apologies to anyone whom i've hurt through my actions and words.
and with that selamat hari raya!
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
rock climbing
my body is aching right now.
firstly, i went to the gym for the first time since before i enlisted yesterday and had a short workout that lasted around 40 minutes maybe?
secondly today i went indoor rock climbing for the 1st time ever! with hisham and marcus. at this place at rangoon road. oh i suck at climbing, it's real hard when you've got no strength. gripping is so hard, and i'm now having callouses at my finger joints. now the pain has subsided though.
but rock climbing is a real eye opener for me. for someone who would rather laze around, it's quite interesting actually. to actually challenge yourself and see how far you can climb. i couldn't really scale that far, since i'm quite a novice, and i'm really not that cut out for this. but actually i realised what they said is true - gripping is one thing, but actually footwork is very crucial too. it helps to ease the pain exerted by the body on the hand actually.
but i kept falling down on the mattress. haha i guess my arms are too small. well that's what hafizah said - "yusri looks bigger now, but his arms are still small." i was like what?haha. what a comment. but it's true i guess. must beef up my arms! they look so spaghetti-like to me!haha.
must work out, hit the weights, probably climb around abit more here n there, and then i'll have the "i jsut came out of NS" body. haha. but the thing is i'm so darn freaking lazy.
anyway, on second thoughts i might just want to matriculate earlier. well i don't want to hang around in the outside world for too long. i want to get back to the 'hit the books' mood again, so that i won't lag behind so much when i come in next year.
ah alot of things on my mind now. things that i need to do next year expecially. all my thought are already on 2007! how i'm gonna organise myself, gonna get things ready for school, gonna do something about the mess in my room, gonna but this and that, gonna change things around etc etc. next year will be quite exciting i feel! can't wait actually for the year's end to come.
for then nightmare will then draw to its closing chapter.
firstly, i went to the gym for the first time since before i enlisted yesterday and had a short workout that lasted around 40 minutes maybe?
secondly today i went indoor rock climbing for the 1st time ever! with hisham and marcus. at this place at rangoon road. oh i suck at climbing, it's real hard when you've got no strength. gripping is so hard, and i'm now having callouses at my finger joints. now the pain has subsided though.
but rock climbing is a real eye opener for me. for someone who would rather laze around, it's quite interesting actually. to actually challenge yourself and see how far you can climb. i couldn't really scale that far, since i'm quite a novice, and i'm really not that cut out for this. but actually i realised what they said is true - gripping is one thing, but actually footwork is very crucial too. it helps to ease the pain exerted by the body on the hand actually.
but i kept falling down on the mattress. haha i guess my arms are too small. well that's what hafizah said - "yusri looks bigger now, but his arms are still small." i was like what?haha. what a comment. but it's true i guess. must beef up my arms! they look so spaghetti-like to me!haha.
must work out, hit the weights, probably climb around abit more here n there, and then i'll have the "i jsut came out of NS" body. haha. but the thing is i'm so darn freaking lazy.
anyway, on second thoughts i might just want to matriculate earlier. well i don't want to hang around in the outside world for too long. i want to get back to the 'hit the books' mood again, so that i won't lag behind so much when i come in next year.
ah alot of things on my mind now. things that i need to do next year expecially. all my thought are already on 2007! how i'm gonna organise myself, gonna get things ready for school, gonna do something about the mess in my room, gonna but this and that, gonna change things around etc etc. next year will be quite exciting i feel! can't wait actually for the year's end to come.
for then nightmare will then draw to its closing chapter.
Sunday, October 15, 2006
class
so i'm actually blogging from camp now. had to drag my sorry ass just to book in in the morning today. but yesterday was an eventful day.
went down to NUS yesterday with some of my secondary school friends, for that early matriculation talk. found out after all that even if i go matriculate early, i might never graduate earlier. they encouraged us to actually take up the special term as a means of finding our feet back in the study mode, after 2 years of a brain freeze in NS. so in that case i might not marticulate early. i guess i'll find a job first. i might actually work under wesley and make waffles for 1.2K a month. haha.
but i do want to travel. there's a certain yearning in me about travelling. about seeing things i don't see everyday. i wanna go to Eastern Europe! and Moscow and St. Petersburg! but it's too expensive, and i am sure to get lost. furthermore i might have to consume bread all the way through my trip i guess. but i wann go somewhere. reading the trips and expeditions that i read on the SAFRA newsletters seem interesting to me.haha. i might wanna try next year, we'll see how.
and then yesterday night i went to break fast with azhari, rushdy, hatta and shahidah. at this place called ramen ten at jubilee amg mo kio. not too bad, the food. although they didnt give us the dates that we ordered. i ordered some dry ramen, and it tasted quite all right. quite affordable too. ah it's always fun to catch up on each other's life and to reminisce.
and then we chilled at coffee bean at junction 8. by then hatta had left but nurul joined us later on. haha and we had more laughs and alot more discussions. wow, so it means ive met up with them more times this year alone than i had for the past 8 years since i left primary school. for such a ad-hoc and a haphazardly organised outing held by none other than yours truly, the turn out was considered not bad i guess. haha. next time we shall do it once more.
and reeza keeps asking me weird and thought-provoking questions! hmm! haha. very werid and out of the blue type, which baffles me! it's just so....weird.
ah my voice feels so weird too and i've now phlegm in my throat. ah the sickness that has gripped me since friday hasn't gone away. i'm still not 100% yet, probably 75% only?haha.
life is so mundane now. sometimes i feel like just dropping everything down and just run away.
things just seem so meaningless all the time. likes there's no purpose in doing things.
ah i wish all this would just end now.
went down to NUS yesterday with some of my secondary school friends, for that early matriculation talk. found out after all that even if i go matriculate early, i might never graduate earlier. they encouraged us to actually take up the special term as a means of finding our feet back in the study mode, after 2 years of a brain freeze in NS. so in that case i might not marticulate early. i guess i'll find a job first. i might actually work under wesley and make waffles for 1.2K a month. haha.
but i do want to travel. there's a certain yearning in me about travelling. about seeing things i don't see everyday. i wanna go to Eastern Europe! and Moscow and St. Petersburg! but it's too expensive, and i am sure to get lost. furthermore i might have to consume bread all the way through my trip i guess. but i wann go somewhere. reading the trips and expeditions that i read on the SAFRA newsletters seem interesting to me.haha. i might wanna try next year, we'll see how.
and then yesterday night i went to break fast with azhari, rushdy, hatta and shahidah. at this place called ramen ten at jubilee amg mo kio. not too bad, the food. although they didnt give us the dates that we ordered. i ordered some dry ramen, and it tasted quite all right. quite affordable too. ah it's always fun to catch up on each other's life and to reminisce.
and then we chilled at coffee bean at junction 8. by then hatta had left but nurul joined us later on. haha and we had more laughs and alot more discussions. wow, so it means ive met up with them more times this year alone than i had for the past 8 years since i left primary school. for such a ad-hoc and a haphazardly organised outing held by none other than yours truly, the turn out was considered not bad i guess. haha. next time we shall do it once more.
and reeza keeps asking me weird and thought-provoking questions! hmm! haha. very werid and out of the blue type, which baffles me! it's just so....weird.
ah my voice feels so weird too and i've now phlegm in my throat. ah the sickness that has gripped me since friday hasn't gone away. i'm still not 100% yet, probably 75% only?haha.
life is so mundane now. sometimes i feel like just dropping everything down and just run away.
things just seem so meaningless all the time. likes there's no purpose in doing things.
ah i wish all this would just end now.
Thursday, October 12, 2006
break
ok so i got to book out for a while. tomorrowing morning gotta head back to camp. i booked out just to tend to a letter from NUS that needed my signature and the letter be posted back to them. and i've got the real driving licence! yeah! although my hair looks retarded in the photo.haha.
on a not so bright side, i almost got charged again in camp. but all should be okay now so worries. it's just disturbing that i'm always inviting trouble to myself without me realising it, and always getting myself into hot soup. i'm not really a troublemaker, it's just that at times i just cannot be bothered with things. either that or i'm just plain unlucky. and i've just found out i might be in hot soup for another incident which is totally not of my fault, nevertheless at the back of my mind i feel abit uneasy. oh well.
and things are getting so mundane. every day in camp is just a dread. things are going at a snail's pace, and sunday feels like a tuesday, monday feels like a saturday. i've lost my sense of time, and everytime i feel very lethargic. coupled with the haze and the boredom of things. i'm totally having the 'whatever!' attitude right now.
been spending alot of time with iman in camp nowadays, he's like a very close buddy to me. in our conversations we have touched on alot of things, and we have agreed on a few things. and 1 things stands out.
the fact that we both find women, or girls, or whatever, to be very ridiculous in nature. or in malay, 'perempuan memang merepek!' really. i can quote specific examples, but as of now i'm already treading on dangerous paths. hence i shall keep them to myselves. but really. nowadays i find the behaviour, the attitude and the mindset of girls to be particularly disturbing. sometimes some girls are hypocrites themselves. and with the emotions and all, it doesn't really helps. one moment they can say they won't do 1 thing, the next moment you see them doing the exact same thing they said they would never do. they expect us to be forgiving when they themselves aren't. some even go back on their words, and never keep their promises. some just have this attitude that simply isn't ladylike. and guys are suppose to please such girls? please la, i think guys got better things to do.
as i say i'm referring to the general female generation as a whole. and i'm not sexist, or an egoist. or do i champion the notion that guys are superior to girls. i just feel that females can never think rationally and sensibly, what with all the emotions and their 'heart vs head' thing, and or their politicking and backbiting whatnot. which results in my phrase - 'perempuan memang merepek'.
which is really true. for all the childish and immature manners of guys nowadays, at least i believe most are level-headed and can think rationally and sensibly. we are not so emotionally unstable i guess.
oh well, like i said, it is just an opinion. so don't throw your kitchen sink at me girls.
as they say, hell hath no fury like a woman scorned.
on a not so bright side, i almost got charged again in camp. but all should be okay now so worries. it's just disturbing that i'm always inviting trouble to myself without me realising it, and always getting myself into hot soup. i'm not really a troublemaker, it's just that at times i just cannot be bothered with things. either that or i'm just plain unlucky. and i've just found out i might be in hot soup for another incident which is totally not of my fault, nevertheless at the back of my mind i feel abit uneasy. oh well.
and things are getting so mundane. every day in camp is just a dread. things are going at a snail's pace, and sunday feels like a tuesday, monday feels like a saturday. i've lost my sense of time, and everytime i feel very lethargic. coupled with the haze and the boredom of things. i'm totally having the 'whatever!' attitude right now.
been spending alot of time with iman in camp nowadays, he's like a very close buddy to me. in our conversations we have touched on alot of things, and we have agreed on a few things. and 1 things stands out.
the fact that we both find women, or girls, or whatever, to be very ridiculous in nature. or in malay, 'perempuan memang merepek!' really. i can quote specific examples, but as of now i'm already treading on dangerous paths. hence i shall keep them to myselves. but really. nowadays i find the behaviour, the attitude and the mindset of girls to be particularly disturbing. sometimes some girls are hypocrites themselves. and with the emotions and all, it doesn't really helps. one moment they can say they won't do 1 thing, the next moment you see them doing the exact same thing they said they would never do. they expect us to be forgiving when they themselves aren't. some even go back on their words, and never keep their promises. some just have this attitude that simply isn't ladylike. and guys are suppose to please such girls? please la, i think guys got better things to do.
as i say i'm referring to the general female generation as a whole. and i'm not sexist, or an egoist. or do i champion the notion that guys are superior to girls. i just feel that females can never think rationally and sensibly, what with all the emotions and their 'heart vs head' thing, and or their politicking and backbiting whatnot. which results in my phrase - 'perempuan memang merepek'.
which is really true. for all the childish and immature manners of guys nowadays, at least i believe most are level-headed and can think rationally and sensibly. we are not so emotionally unstable i guess.
oh well, like i said, it is just an opinion. so don't throw your kitchen sink at me girls.
as they say, hell hath no fury like a woman scorned.
Thursday, October 05, 2006
work
so tomorrow the new batch of recruits will be enlisting. so another 2 months of doing the same thing all over again. on a lighter note, i've benn relieved of ALL my responsibilites and duties! haha. i used to hold several appointments in camp (which i don't see the need to mention) and furthermore, i've been relegated from the role of a platoon sergeant to section commander! haha! that's total relinquishing of my powers, position and responsibilities! but heck. it means i shall have a slightly easier time in camp. i think.
but the training schedule kinda sucks, since most of my saturdays will be spent in camp. can forget about celebrating hari raya too. anyways there's always a hari raya every year. and it is frankly becoming less and less meaningful for me. so heck. at least it's october now, so we are all gearing up for the year's end! there's alot of things to think about for now.
especially my future! whether i want to matriculate earlier, in may instead of in august. there's alot of things the future holds. frankly speaking, i really fear for my future. the market in singapore is getting so saturated. sham mentioned a friends whos got a degree with honours still finding a job, after 6 months of graduationg. with honours! kinda makes me think, how about me?
how will things pan out in the near future? all is so uncertain. that's why sometimes i like to bask in the past. at least it has already happened. but of the future? it's inevitable that one will have to think of it. and the dreams that everyone will have, will the ever be fulfilled?
like mine! i have dreams!
1) i want a BMW! by the age of 35 hopefully?haha
2) i want to go to Europe, and especially Moscow! to see all the relics from the communist era!
3) a class 4 licence! to drive a bus!
4) to be a professor! haha. i really want to go on tv and talk all those things about elections, political developments, you know like those talk shows on CNA! haha
5) a lasik surgery! to correct my poor lazy eyes. (is it possible?)
6) drop by ashburton grove and catch an arsenal match live!(i would have loved to visit the old highbury though...)
abit far-fetched some of them might sound, but i mean who doesn't have such dreams? but it's tough to actually achieve them. it's too unrealistic some of them, if you consider the current situations in singapore today. ah its a dog eat dog world i guess.
times are tough, and they won't get any easier.
oh well, happy fasting everyone!
but the training schedule kinda sucks, since most of my saturdays will be spent in camp. can forget about celebrating hari raya too. anyways there's always a hari raya every year. and it is frankly becoming less and less meaningful for me. so heck. at least it's october now, so we are all gearing up for the year's end! there's alot of things to think about for now.
especially my future! whether i want to matriculate earlier, in may instead of in august. there's alot of things the future holds. frankly speaking, i really fear for my future. the market in singapore is getting so saturated. sham mentioned a friends whos got a degree with honours still finding a job, after 6 months of graduationg. with honours! kinda makes me think, how about me?
how will things pan out in the near future? all is so uncertain. that's why sometimes i like to bask in the past. at least it has already happened. but of the future? it's inevitable that one will have to think of it. and the dreams that everyone will have, will the ever be fulfilled?
like mine! i have dreams!
1) i want a BMW! by the age of 35 hopefully?haha
2) i want to go to Europe, and especially Moscow! to see all the relics from the communist era!
3) a class 4 licence! to drive a bus!
4) to be a professor! haha. i really want to go on tv and talk all those things about elections, political developments, you know like those talk shows on CNA! haha
5) a lasik surgery! to correct my poor lazy eyes. (is it possible?)
6) drop by ashburton grove and catch an arsenal match live!(i would have loved to visit the old highbury though...)
abit far-fetched some of them might sound, but i mean who doesn't have such dreams? but it's tough to actually achieve them. it's too unrealistic some of them, if you consider the current situations in singapore today. ah its a dog eat dog world i guess.
times are tough, and they won't get any easier.
oh well, happy fasting everyone!
Monday, October 02, 2006
peters
russell peters is coming to town! this coming weekend!
according to hadi. but i can't make it to see him! i'll be confined in camp this weekend! damn! i like him! fot those of you who don't know him, do yourself a favour and try and download his videos! his really funny. but anyway the cheapest tickets come at $87 anyway. that's quite expensive. but still, it's not like you get to see russell peters live everyday you know. sigh.
on and brighter note, today i met shahidah. the one long lost friend i've been trying to find for the past 10 years. finally after one freaking decade, i've finally seen her again. on children's day at that! essentially she still looks the same like in 1996. apparently so do i, to her, but i really beg to differ. i wonder if another 10 years, we'll still look 20?haha
yup so went over to the national library at bras basah , borrowed some books then walked around till we reach the library @ esplanade. i must clarify. it isn't like we love books, it's just that i would have loved to chat over coffee at starbucks. but its the fasting month! and in the hot afternoon sun, i didnt want to soak in the sun by the river. so library @ esplanade it was.
it's a nice feeling to actually catch up on people's lives, especially of those whom you haven't seen for quite a while. i don't know if a decade is quite a while, but ya there was alot of catching up to do. just sitting down and talk an reminisce. quite fun actually. shahidah never changed. from the posture, to the voice, to the looks. haha. it's remarkable, that fact.
oh yours truly is on duty tomorrow. great, just great.
anyways, to the stranger:
ah! now i now who you are. haha. yup i won't say the name. but its interesting that you read my blog? the other day you said my blog was boring! haha. but thanks anyway for tagging. see you around!
oh and you could probably leave yr blog link? thanks!
oh well.
happy children's day!
it's real funny how i can't remember by primary school song yet i can remember the children's day song. the song that in reality we sing only 6 times in our lifetime.
according to hadi. but i can't make it to see him! i'll be confined in camp this weekend! damn! i like him! fot those of you who don't know him, do yourself a favour and try and download his videos! his really funny. but anyway the cheapest tickets come at $87 anyway. that's quite expensive. but still, it's not like you get to see russell peters live everyday you know. sigh.
on and brighter note, today i met shahidah. the one long lost friend i've been trying to find for the past 10 years. finally after one freaking decade, i've finally seen her again. on children's day at that! essentially she still looks the same like in 1996. apparently so do i, to her, but i really beg to differ. i wonder if another 10 years, we'll still look 20?haha
yup so went over to the national library at bras basah , borrowed some books then walked around till we reach the library @ esplanade. i must clarify. it isn't like we love books, it's just that i would have loved to chat over coffee at starbucks. but its the fasting month! and in the hot afternoon sun, i didnt want to soak in the sun by the river. so library @ esplanade it was.
it's a nice feeling to actually catch up on people's lives, especially of those whom you haven't seen for quite a while. i don't know if a decade is quite a while, but ya there was alot of catching up to do. just sitting down and talk an reminisce. quite fun actually. shahidah never changed. from the posture, to the voice, to the looks. haha. it's remarkable, that fact.
oh yours truly is on duty tomorrow. great, just great.
anyways, to the stranger:
ah! now i now who you are. haha. yup i won't say the name. but its interesting that you read my blog? the other day you said my blog was boring! haha. but thanks anyway for tagging. see you around!
oh and you could probably leave yr blog link? thanks!
oh well.
happy children's day!
it's real funny how i can't remember by primary school song yet i can remember the children's day song. the song that in reality we sing only 6 times in our lifetime.
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