since the last month i blogged, many things have happened.

school has started.
now we are already in the fasting month.
and i am back to being single once again.

as for school - it's already the end of week 2 yet i feel like i'm still in slumber mode. i feel that school has yet to start - although i've really printed out a lot of my readings already. like really a lot. i wish the holidays were still here. oh well. most importantly i've had cash injections recently and is expecting some more injections in the next 2 months or so. yayy! haha.

as for the fasting month - praying terawih was relaxing just now. isn't that the meaning of terawih?(correct me if i'm wrong). i felt peaceful just now and i hope i have a great ramadhan. i hope you guys do too. for me personally, fasting month is when i can totally not think about food and water and think of other more important stuffs like studies. okay i'm not some nerd or anything, it's just 'cos i'm a full time student so i mean studies would somewhat dictate my life direction for now. so almost all resources is geared towards my studies i guess. food and water are really distractions when it comes to studying, so hopefully i'll get to kickstart this semester. well of course i look forward to this month as it is the month that is full of forgiveness and mercy- and that i pray to the Lord for his compassion and mercy, so that He guides me as much as possible to be the servant of God that is expected of all of us. i hope that i benefit greatly from this ramadhan.

as for the breakup - well it hasn't been pretty. if you ask me you could fairly say i'm the bastard in this whole equation. but ask me and hear me out before you pass judgements. though i'm really fine if i'm accused of this and that - simply because some things just cannot be explained in logical or rational terms or i have no excuses. all i know is that the decisions that i have made have been well thought out. it has not been easy, but there are some things in life that require you to make tough and life-changing decisions. and this is one of those.

i just want to be myself and be happy being myself. decisions that i've made have been selfish in nature, though i believe it is in the best interests of all parties. i feel that i'm happier off this way and i'm happy that my life has panned out the way it has so far. sometimes one doesn't realise how past decisions or actions, when looked upon in retrospect, have actually made our own lives better and happier when we didn't think that back then it would. i hope this is one of those things really. all i know life goes on, no matter how badly stained our history will be.

now i go to bed. here's to a brand new tomorrow with day one of fasting.