dreams

this past week i've been dreaming like almost everyday. i know myself well enough that when i dream vividly and i can still remember the dreams long after i've woken up it means that i'm really tired and worn out. the more worn out i get the more i dream and the more vivid they become.

last night (or rather this morning) my dream became an epic of sorts. considering i only really got out of bed at 315pm (haha i was supposed to go to school to print notes etc but i was too tired) that shouldn't sound so surprising. actually i got out of bed at 11am to vacuum my room but soon enough i went back to bed to continue dreaming.

i dreamt of alot of weird and interesting stuffs, of which i shall not post up here. haha. my point is this - what are dreams? are they means and ways of which the devil plays tricks with our minds? or do they really reflect what we think we want in life? or are they reenactments of what we've all gone through? are dreams really opposites of reality? are dreams precursors to what is going to happen to our lives in the future? so many questions yet all of them cannot be answered easily.

on another note i'm being referred to as a insensitive jerk, and idiot and a meano on facebook for all to see. it's fine with me. i got dumped in my first relationship and i sympathise with the sort of angst, since i myself displayed the angst publicly on this very blog like eons ago (or rather on my old blog). so i'm fine and it's probably true. i have no excuse for myself - other than i really could not see any other way out besides going separate ways. as i've said there are certain things in life in which we have to make tough decisions. i think no one else is more sorry than me that this relationship had to end in the most horrible of ways. i know how it feels like to be in her shoes and there is nothing else i could say. it's fine with me if people start turning against me or that sort of thing. things like that always happen but i don't know - at least i still go home to a proper home with a caring mom and and a devoted dad and a sister to mind over sometimes. and also God, whom i believe always open doors for people to seek forgiveness and mercy. i really hope this month will make me a better person.

oh well that's all for now. day one of fasting was spent doing nothing, since like almost 3/4 of it was spent sleeping and dreaming. haha. oh well. it's still great to know arsenal trashed pompey 4-1. its 10 years since i started supporting arsenal by the way. okay toodles.