captain

this week is a week full of all types of emotions.

(skip the next 3 paragraphs if you don't follow football.)

yesterday for the first time in probably eons i caught a champions league match live. it kicked off at 230am, which was an hour earlier than normal, and i started school at 4pm today anyway so i could tune in. well i caught liverpool-arsenal, and to be honest - i think it was really arsenal being luckless. i thought we had hope after walcott went on that crazy mazy run that stretched almost 3/4 length of the pitch and squared the ball for adebayor to score. but a freaking dubious penalty (it was really 50-50, any other referee might not have given it) spoilt it all. then the babel counter-attacked which resulted in a goal really made it seem as if arsenal was really that horrible. i hate the way arsenal lost last night. i was up and about prancing around in my room, just shouting at myself in frustration at 4+ am in the morning. haha i haven't been so frustrated and so emotional watching football for a very long time. even the arsenal defeat to barcelona in the champions league final 2 years ago i could stomach. but to lose in such a stupid manner - i really went to bed feeling frustrated and dejected.

anyway if you watched arsenal play yesterday, i really think there's something wrong with the team. i really don't like some of their players. i don't think diaby is good. i've never really thought much of eboue. gallas is really not the leader arsenal needs right now, and his hairstyle is really ugly. clichy is not really the player he used to be. especially after that loss of concentration against birmingham he really looks out of depth. senderos was found wanting when hyypia scored yesterday, and i don't rate him much. bendtner sucks big time, and even more so after blocking fabregas' shot in the first leg against liverpool. for all of the stick adebayor got, i think at least now he's maturing. for god's sake wenger - please buy more experienced players, who will fit in the team. names like menez, schweinsteiger and diego have been tossed up. please dip into your pockets and buy like 1 or 2 of these players. the club looks out of depth and even if arsenal spends prudently or frugally or whatever, seriously abit of splurging wouldn't hurt. i find it amazing arsenal's record signing is still sylvian wiltord at 13million pounds. compare it with 26million for torres, 30million for shevchenko and 20+ million for rooney and veron.(remember him?)

anyway nothing much from last weekend's goals - just that go and catch the highlights of the palermo-juventus game. the goals that palermo scored are just superb. they beat juve 3-2 anyway. watch out for the last goal. it's really a good goal. other than that that's all. apparently arsenal and manchester united square off this weekend at old trafford. we can win, but the way i see some of the youngsters who play - i can't help feeling disturbed.

i'm a tad disappointed i got B for my marcos and suharto essay. i was hoping mayb a B+ would be good, but it's always the same thing - i'm too long-winded and wordy. haha i know that very well. i speak in circles and i'm vague. that's how i am with my mom and with my friends, when i blog, and also in essays. haha. okay well at least the essays and assignments deadlines are over! finally i can revise properly for the exams!

other than that this week has been fine. i just need to get the groove going for revision. and catching up on sleep. and making the most of new responsibilities that suddenly i seem to have to undertake. i feel i'm happier and more cheerful nowadays. i hope that will last as long as God wills it. i pray that things will go find and turn out okay, because i really want everything to work out well for me. i pray i will have the strength, the drive, the will and the mental capactiy to go through it all.

okay, so now for project manchuria.