so the so-called last step to the revamp of my computer system has been put in place.
now the whole system is totally different from the last one i had. so stage 3 is complete. although the next thing i might upgrade in the future is the CPU, but it won't come so soon. but im contented with my system so far. it's not the best, but at least it's stable and adequate to meed my needs.
went to the PC show with jj. got some speakers and a new keyboard and mouse set. and i decided against investing in a laptop so soon. and kept running into alot of my ex-recruits. tsk tsk.
ah got alot of things to do this month. got a show im supposed to catch, a party im supposed to attend, and KL! haha. gonna get e car keys in 2 days' time but ah i won't have so much time driving it around anyways.
dear you,
nowadays i don't feel so frustrated about it all anymore. but i really don't know. my mind is so confused about everything. i want to bring it up to you, but i've no courage at all.
what would you see or would have seen in me anyway?
Monday, June 04, 2007
Thursday, May 31, 2007
f up
i feel damn f**ked up right now.
it's as if it's like back to 3 years ago.
sometimes i just feel like dropping everything at once and just stone there.
someone help me get out of my misery.
it's as if it's like back to 3 years ago.
sometimes i just feel like dropping everything at once and just stone there.
someone help me get out of my misery.
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
mp3
finally got that mp3 player that i've been wanting to have.
henceforth no more vapid trips to and fro from work anymore! got it at the creative warehouse sale. the zen v plus for 239 bucks, at 4GB. well as long as it works for me, i'm fine with it. even though i don't really fancy the interface that much. i still prefer my old zen micro! although it's really really outdated now.
bought it on saturday, after the lunch session with the guys at pizza hut. supposed to celebrate ramli's birthday, it was. at least i did something fruitful on my last saturday off. never quite managed to go to the gym.
like today. was supposed to hit the gym, but as always, the key word here is supposed. what i did today was just to go out and get my hair cut (a drastic one at that!) and then meet up with sarah for dinner. and talked alot of things. real personal.
recently i've really done alot of talking. alot of yakking with other people. which is really good for me these days, since it really keeps me sane. haha. but conversations have been good. like the other day, with tyan and sarah. combined with that, a badminton game after work. rushed all the way to god-forsaken hougang just to play badminton for a freaking hour. but it was nice, meeting up old friends and just talk. i'm left out of alot of things it seems.
and meeting up with liz, shaz and hadi on friday night. and just yak the whole night away over coffee . then that saturday, yak away with my dearest so called 3rd cousin na'im during the bus ride home.
i don't know, but it seems alot of people are having a tumultous time with regards to their love life. ah it seems to be that time of the year again where people's hearts are just going through testing times. tsk tsk. wonder when all this will end for us all.
on top of that, i've really got alot of things to do. like clean up my room. and cleaning out my closet. not to mention, finishing up the whose line is it anyway cds that i borrowed from shaz. i can proudly say its more than halfway done, and probably around almost 4 years of whose line left to watch. (give me a break man, the show ran on for 8 freaking years!) and the whole of season 1 lost dvds from fab, which i'll probably give back to him when i graduate. and the 1st 2 seasons of prison break courtesy of ali, which i probably won't watch anytime soon. and those whole stacks of books i keep buying and buying, but they just end up sitting pretty on my desk and yellow with age.
can't wait to see the horrified faces of everyone starting tomorrow!haha.
this is an entry with totally no purpose, i admit.
henceforth no more vapid trips to and fro from work anymore! got it at the creative warehouse sale. the zen v plus for 239 bucks, at 4GB. well as long as it works for me, i'm fine with it. even though i don't really fancy the interface that much. i still prefer my old zen micro! although it's really really outdated now.
bought it on saturday, after the lunch session with the guys at pizza hut. supposed to celebrate ramli's birthday, it was. at least i did something fruitful on my last saturday off. never quite managed to go to the gym.
like today. was supposed to hit the gym, but as always, the key word here is supposed. what i did today was just to go out and get my hair cut (a drastic one at that!) and then meet up with sarah for dinner. and talked alot of things. real personal.
recently i've really done alot of talking. alot of yakking with other people. which is really good for me these days, since it really keeps me sane. haha. but conversations have been good. like the other day, with tyan and sarah. combined with that, a badminton game after work. rushed all the way to god-forsaken hougang just to play badminton for a freaking hour. but it was nice, meeting up old friends and just talk. i'm left out of alot of things it seems.
and meeting up with liz, shaz and hadi on friday night. and just yak the whole night away over coffee . then that saturday, yak away with my dearest so called 3rd cousin na'im during the bus ride home.
i don't know, but it seems alot of people are having a tumultous time with regards to their love life. ah it seems to be that time of the year again where people's hearts are just going through testing times. tsk tsk. wonder when all this will end for us all.
on top of that, i've really got alot of things to do. like clean up my room. and cleaning out my closet. not to mention, finishing up the whose line is it anyway cds that i borrowed from shaz. i can proudly say its more than halfway done, and probably around almost 4 years of whose line left to watch. (give me a break man, the show ran on for 8 freaking years!) and the whole of season 1 lost dvds from fab, which i'll probably give back to him when i graduate. and the 1st 2 seasons of prison break courtesy of ali, which i probably won't watch anytime soon. and those whole stacks of books i keep buying and buying, but they just end up sitting pretty on my desk and yellow with age.
can't wait to see the horrified faces of everyone starting tomorrow!haha.
this is an entry with totally no purpose, i admit.
Sunday, May 20, 2007
gym
today i went to the gym.
the last time i did that, was more than half a year ago.
me and hadi were up for gym since last night, and the girls liz and shaz wanted to tag along. haha. i really needed a workout since leaving my job as the defender of the fatherland a few months back. my body's very frail actually. but the workout at the bukit gombak gym was okay. i think tomorrow then my arms will ache as hell.
yesterday i was supposed to watch the fa cup final. thank goodness i didn't. it was such a bore, apparently. luckily fab said he was lazy. so i managed to meet up with hadi, and shaz and liz later on, followed by lin. had ben & jerry's first. haha so i've actually broken my virginity with regards to ben & jerry's. but seriously, what's the hype all about it? the taste isn't as spectacular as i thought it would be. after that went to have satay under the stars at lau pa sat, and managed to catch drogba's goal at the end. and then this funny thing happened.
we got to the car to head home, then there was this lizard that entered the car when we opened the doors. so the girls were screaming away, and i took my bag out to also check whether it was inside. then after lin said he saw the lizard scurry out of the car, we just got in the car quickly. inside then i remember i had left the drinks on the railings of the carpark, so i quickly exited and took them back in the car. so we drove off.
then at the cashcard gantry as hadi stopped, there was this security guard running towards the car and waving at us frantically. hadi lowered down the screen and the guard told him - "hey, there's a bag on top of the car!"
haha stupid me forgot to put back the bag under my seat after checking it for the lizard. i just absent-mindedly left it on top of the car! haha. and to think i could remember that i left the drinks behind but not my dearest deutschland sling bag. on top of the car, at that! we could have driven through the CTE still with my bag on top of it. maybe when hadi braked hard, and then the bag would have fallen forward on top of the bonnet. haha that was real funny but really stupid and absent-minded of me. god knows what would have happened if the guard never spotted it in the first place.
on another note.
i'm still bogged down with this 1 huge ass of a problem.
dear you,
all i need is just some time with you. there's certain things i need to talk to you about. i hope you understand.
i still need you.
the last time i did that, was more than half a year ago.
me and hadi were up for gym since last night, and the girls liz and shaz wanted to tag along. haha. i really needed a workout since leaving my job as the defender of the fatherland a few months back. my body's very frail actually. but the workout at the bukit gombak gym was okay. i think tomorrow then my arms will ache as hell.
yesterday i was supposed to watch the fa cup final. thank goodness i didn't. it was such a bore, apparently. luckily fab said he was lazy. so i managed to meet up with hadi, and shaz and liz later on, followed by lin. had ben & jerry's first. haha so i've actually broken my virginity with regards to ben & jerry's. but seriously, what's the hype all about it? the taste isn't as spectacular as i thought it would be. after that went to have satay under the stars at lau pa sat, and managed to catch drogba's goal at the end. and then this funny thing happened.
we got to the car to head home, then there was this lizard that entered the car when we opened the doors. so the girls were screaming away, and i took my bag out to also check whether it was inside. then after lin said he saw the lizard scurry out of the car, we just got in the car quickly. inside then i remember i had left the drinks on the railings of the carpark, so i quickly exited and took them back in the car. so we drove off.
then at the cashcard gantry as hadi stopped, there was this security guard running towards the car and waving at us frantically. hadi lowered down the screen and the guard told him - "hey, there's a bag on top of the car!"
haha stupid me forgot to put back the bag under my seat after checking it for the lizard. i just absent-mindedly left it on top of the car! haha. and to think i could remember that i left the drinks behind but not my dearest deutschland sling bag. on top of the car, at that! we could have driven through the CTE still with my bag on top of it. maybe when hadi braked hard, and then the bag would have fallen forward on top of the bonnet. haha that was real funny but really stupid and absent-minded of me. god knows what would have happened if the guard never spotted it in the first place.
on another note.
i'm still bogged down with this 1 huge ass of a problem.
dear you,
all i need is just some time with you. there's certain things i need to talk to you about. i hope you understand.
i still need you.
Sunday, May 13, 2007
return
today i mourn the loss of my friend.
the late isz sazli bin sapari. if you've read the news on the taiwanese fighter jet plane crash, the name might sound a bell. yes, he was 1 of 2 to be killed on that tragedy. when i first came to know of it i was really dumbfounded. even till now i feel sad that things had to turn out this way. it's a real big shock to all of us.
i admit i wasn't close to him. but in school, he used to mixed around with us often, despite he being the junior batch. despite us always bullying him, he still wanted to mix around with us. frankly speaking, he's a real down to earth guy. not your typical malay type, he's really earnest and really zesty at times. i can still remember how he sounds like, although the last time i spoke to him was more than a year ago.
and suddenly this happens. i actually cried just thinking of him just now and praying to God for him. we are all so saddened and shocked by this. how would they answer to his parents? i feel that it's real sad that he died this way. so what if he died with full military honours at his burial? one can't bring him back. i will surely miss talking to him.
yesterday i just couldn't sleep. spent freaking 3 hours jus tossing and turning around in bed before i could get some sleep. when i tossed to one side, all i could think of was isz and whatever happened in the past. when i tossed to the other side, the other major issue i'm facing now came to my mind. the 2 issues kept running through my mind back and forth, so much so i really felt so strained trying to fall asleep last night. frankly speaking i've never really felt so mentally strained in quite a long time.
errgh. actually i need someone to talk to now? preferably a female companion?haha. but seriously. my mind's so bogged up now and the more i think the more frustrated and exasperated i get. the normal me would usually just chuck it all aside and concentrate, but nowadays i really can't. i feel so affected, i'm really at a loss. then the news of isz's death filters through. makes my head spin.
dear you,
actually i need to talk to you now. but from what i see, there doesn't seem to be time for that nowadays. if you are reading is, all i can tell you i'm really confused. my mind is so blank and i really can't see the light. tell me if i was wrong, because as you know, i am stupid, blur and naive.
i need you.
the late isz sazli bin sapari. if you've read the news on the taiwanese fighter jet plane crash, the name might sound a bell. yes, he was 1 of 2 to be killed on that tragedy. when i first came to know of it i was really dumbfounded. even till now i feel sad that things had to turn out this way. it's a real big shock to all of us.
i admit i wasn't close to him. but in school, he used to mixed around with us often, despite he being the junior batch. despite us always bullying him, he still wanted to mix around with us. frankly speaking, he's a real down to earth guy. not your typical malay type, he's really earnest and really zesty at times. i can still remember how he sounds like, although the last time i spoke to him was more than a year ago.
and suddenly this happens. i actually cried just thinking of him just now and praying to God for him. we are all so saddened and shocked by this. how would they answer to his parents? i feel that it's real sad that he died this way. so what if he died with full military honours at his burial? one can't bring him back. i will surely miss talking to him.
yesterday i just couldn't sleep. spent freaking 3 hours jus tossing and turning around in bed before i could get some sleep. when i tossed to one side, all i could think of was isz and whatever happened in the past. when i tossed to the other side, the other major issue i'm facing now came to my mind. the 2 issues kept running through my mind back and forth, so much so i really felt so strained trying to fall asleep last night. frankly speaking i've never really felt so mentally strained in quite a long time.
errgh. actually i need someone to talk to now? preferably a female companion?haha. but seriously. my mind's so bogged up now and the more i think the more frustrated and exasperated i get. the normal me would usually just chuck it all aside and concentrate, but nowadays i really can't. i feel so affected, i'm really at a loss. then the news of isz's death filters through. makes my head spin.
dear you,
actually i need to talk to you now. but from what i see, there doesn't seem to be time for that nowadays. if you are reading is, all i can tell you i'm really confused. my mind is so blank and i really can't see the light. tell me if i was wrong, because as you know, i am stupid, blur and naive.
i need you.
Friday, May 04, 2007
spidey
suddenly i just felt like blogging.
earlier this week work has really weighed me down. stress is one thing, the sheer fatigue of it all is another. i feel i am showing signs of disgruntlement nowadays. 1 fine day i fear, i shall really explode.
on another note i've had 2 days off straight, on wednesday and today. now i feel so lazy to want to go back to work tomorrow. wednesday was spent with yan. lunched and then slacked around at the harbourfront area. today (or rather yesterday) was spent w/ jj and fab. had tau hui at the rochor aread before catching a movie. spider-man 3 was the order of the day! my suggestion it was.
luckily i suggested catching it, since we hadn't any proper plans to do actually. being the non-movie buff i mean, i'm not ashamed to say i've actually never caught the first 2 installments of the movie. yes call me a loser for all i care. anyway being the naive me, i thought the movie would last around a 100minutes. well i didn't know it was 2 and a half hours long. and halfway an annoying thing happened.
it was already 1 and a half hours into the movie. my seat was near the left aisle of the theatre. suddenly out of nowhere these 5 male jc students in their uniform appeared out of the blue and were standing on the aisle just outside of my row. then they were discussing something, and they said out loud to me and my friends that we had taken up their seats.
what the hell? it's already more than halfway through the show and you don't just come in and try to shoo others away. they did just that. one had the cheek to say do you mind moving away 'cause you've taken up our seats. i made quite a big fuss over it, and then suddenly one of them turned smart just like that and realised they were in the wrong theatre altogether.
and guess what? NONE even said sorry.
how rude can one get? they had already tried to act ya-ya but trying to chase me out of my seats, and thinking i had nothing better than to take other peoples' seats. they had already disturbed me while watching the show. and to top it all of, not even a hint of regret or remorse by saying sorry.
even till now i'm quite peeved at it actually. so rude and uncivilised of them. making a scene in the middle of a show and yet not wanting to say sorry or anything of that sort. seriously, how rude can 1 get?
i think kids nowadays are just immoral. totally don't know how to act their age and show some dignity and basic kindness. whatever happened to the old age values and morals our forefathers used to preach in the days of yesteryear? seems that they wilt away in time.
ah, the youths of today. they can't wait to be adults as soon as possible, but when they reach adulthood they wished it couldn't have come so soon.
earlier this week work has really weighed me down. stress is one thing, the sheer fatigue of it all is another. i feel i am showing signs of disgruntlement nowadays. 1 fine day i fear, i shall really explode.
on another note i've had 2 days off straight, on wednesday and today. now i feel so lazy to want to go back to work tomorrow. wednesday was spent with yan. lunched and then slacked around at the harbourfront area. today (or rather yesterday) was spent w/ jj and fab. had tau hui at the rochor aread before catching a movie. spider-man 3 was the order of the day! my suggestion it was.
luckily i suggested catching it, since we hadn't any proper plans to do actually. being the non-movie buff i mean, i'm not ashamed to say i've actually never caught the first 2 installments of the movie. yes call me a loser for all i care. anyway being the naive me, i thought the movie would last around a 100minutes. well i didn't know it was 2 and a half hours long. and halfway an annoying thing happened.
it was already 1 and a half hours into the movie. my seat was near the left aisle of the theatre. suddenly out of nowhere these 5 male jc students in their uniform appeared out of the blue and were standing on the aisle just outside of my row. then they were discussing something, and they said out loud to me and my friends that we had taken up their seats.
what the hell? it's already more than halfway through the show and you don't just come in and try to shoo others away. they did just that. one had the cheek to say do you mind moving away 'cause you've taken up our seats. i made quite a big fuss over it, and then suddenly one of them turned smart just like that and realised they were in the wrong theatre altogether.
and guess what? NONE even said sorry.
how rude can one get? they had already tried to act ya-ya but trying to chase me out of my seats, and thinking i had nothing better than to take other peoples' seats. they had already disturbed me while watching the show. and to top it all of, not even a hint of regret or remorse by saying sorry.
even till now i'm quite peeved at it actually. so rude and uncivilised of them. making a scene in the middle of a show and yet not wanting to say sorry or anything of that sort. seriously, how rude can 1 get?
i think kids nowadays are just immoral. totally don't know how to act their age and show some dignity and basic kindness. whatever happened to the old age values and morals our forefathers used to preach in the days of yesteryear? seems that they wilt away in time.
ah, the youths of today. they can't wait to be adults as soon as possible, but when they reach adulthood they wished it couldn't have come so soon.
Friday, April 27, 2007
sleep deprivation
maybe you've read about how people get tortured through sleep deprivation.
yesterday i had a very amazing incident at night.
it was just past 12 and i was extremely sleepy. my eyes were so heavy and it was obvious i was ready to tuck in for the nite. i switched off the computer and then left my chair.
the moment i stepped forward, in my state of sheer fatigue i suddenly somehow just collapsed to the floor.
i then pulled myself together and then jus slumped myself on my bed.
come to think of it,now i feel it was quite a scary moment.
only once in my life have i fainted (all the way back in secondary 2), but yesterday i felt like it was more of me being too tired so much so that my legs just couldn't carry my body weight anymore. that's how i felt about it. but on hindsight it was rather scary actually. although i know the source of my extreme fatigue.
it was the manchester united-ac milan match the day before. i was already tired from work and from the lack of sleep in the past few days. but that night i stayed up to watch till 430am. at least the game had 5 goals. thn by 8am i was already up ready to go to work. surprisingly i didn't feel tired at work, but i could feel the fatigue when i reached home. and it all culminated in the collapse later at night. although i did get 12 hours of sleep following that.
on another note just now was the 1st time i've been to holland village! call me a loser if you want but hey, no one's ever asked me to come down to holland village before. i must say though, it's quite a nice place to hang out at night. there's this certain calmness, coolnes and serenity about the place, and to think its smack in the middle of a housing estate. i believe it's a nice place to hang out once i start school soon.
on yet another note, so much for the hype on the kl trip. apparently no one is enthusiastic about it, so it's all gone up in smoke. i'm rather disappoited about it, but what can you do when no one really seems to be up for it? then pulau ubin it is, according to them, although i'll wager that it won't happen either.
and work's really getting more stressful nowadays. one day i might just blow up in the face of a customer. i'm really restraining myself nowadays.
yesterday i had a very amazing incident at night.
it was just past 12 and i was extremely sleepy. my eyes were so heavy and it was obvious i was ready to tuck in for the nite. i switched off the computer and then left my chair.
the moment i stepped forward, in my state of sheer fatigue i suddenly somehow just collapsed to the floor.
i then pulled myself together and then jus slumped myself on my bed.
come to think of it,now i feel it was quite a scary moment.
only once in my life have i fainted (all the way back in secondary 2), but yesterday i felt like it was more of me being too tired so much so that my legs just couldn't carry my body weight anymore. that's how i felt about it. but on hindsight it was rather scary actually. although i know the source of my extreme fatigue.
it was the manchester united-ac milan match the day before. i was already tired from work and from the lack of sleep in the past few days. but that night i stayed up to watch till 430am. at least the game had 5 goals. thn by 8am i was already up ready to go to work. surprisingly i didn't feel tired at work, but i could feel the fatigue when i reached home. and it all culminated in the collapse later at night. although i did get 12 hours of sleep following that.
on another note just now was the 1st time i've been to holland village! call me a loser if you want but hey, no one's ever asked me to come down to holland village before. i must say though, it's quite a nice place to hang out at night. there's this certain calmness, coolnes and serenity about the place, and to think its smack in the middle of a housing estate. i believe it's a nice place to hang out once i start school soon.
on yet another note, so much for the hype on the kl trip. apparently no one is enthusiastic about it, so it's all gone up in smoke. i'm rather disappoited about it, but what can you do when no one really seems to be up for it? then pulau ubin it is, according to them, although i'll wager that it won't happen either.
and work's really getting more stressful nowadays. one day i might just blow up in the face of a customer. i'm really restraining myself nowadays.
Monday, April 16, 2007
reunion wk
the past week has been a reunion of sorts for me.
every now and then i keep running into people from my past.
it all started off with that day i went to work early, i ran into ashraf, or rather 'bob', on the way to work in the train. then the ex-army colleagues on the way while walking to work. then even during lunchtime and afterwork, even more army colleagues. and even zai, the secondary school friend.
friday was no different. after work i ran into nick! then on the way to orchard mrt met more ex-army colleagues. then at the mrt station i ran into liz, and basically my plans for the night completely changed after that. instead of being the good boy and go home straight after work me,liz n hadi had dinner and then coffee.
saturday night too, was spent with them. and fazlin too. at boat quay, eating ice cream! and jus now, was dinner with the jc friends at causeway point.
alot of reunions, alot of catching up to do!
oh why i ran into so many of my ex-army colleagues was because just outside of my workplace, there's this NS fair which was celebrating the 40 years of NS. so alot of them were involved in the on-the-ground work.
and the word is i'm gonna be transferred to another department at my workplace. as much as i still loathe the sight of pots, pans and porcelain, i feel happy there. i like working there actually, in fact. i feel i get along fine with the staff. the pay is pathetic, i know, but hey, some people earns alot at their work but their lives can still be as miserable as ever. at least i know even if i'm not happy, i can say i'm contented at the least.
but i'm rather disappointed to be hearing that i'm gonna be transferred. the way i see it, i don't have colleagues that are as crazy as the ones i have now. and i really don't wan to make friends all over again, and make colleagues, when i'm just gonna be there for like just over a month more? to me it's not worth it at all. not worth it.
but kent's tendered his resignation, so i hope the HR department would seriously rethink their decision! the reason i'm being transferred out is because they're gonna have a new permanent staff coming in. i'm like so what? if kent's gone and they transfer me out, the department would be slightly handicapped you know. i hope i don't get transferred out. and such news really travels fast. even some of the promoters have got wind of it. and some think i requested for it! tsk tsk.
kent's resignation has given me hope i feel. haha. seriously, i'm quitting in the end of may, earliest. i don't see why they should transfer me out. it all depends.
so many uncertainties now, even about the kl trip. tsk tsk.
i need to get things going!
every now and then i keep running into people from my past.
it all started off with that day i went to work early, i ran into ashraf, or rather 'bob', on the way to work in the train. then the ex-army colleagues on the way while walking to work. then even during lunchtime and afterwork, even more army colleagues. and even zai, the secondary school friend.
friday was no different. after work i ran into nick! then on the way to orchard mrt met more ex-army colleagues. then at the mrt station i ran into liz, and basically my plans for the night completely changed after that. instead of being the good boy and go home straight after work me,liz n hadi had dinner and then coffee.
saturday night too, was spent with them. and fazlin too. at boat quay, eating ice cream! and jus now, was dinner with the jc friends at causeway point.
alot of reunions, alot of catching up to do!
oh why i ran into so many of my ex-army colleagues was because just outside of my workplace, there's this NS fair which was celebrating the 40 years of NS. so alot of them were involved in the on-the-ground work.
and the word is i'm gonna be transferred to another department at my workplace. as much as i still loathe the sight of pots, pans and porcelain, i feel happy there. i like working there actually, in fact. i feel i get along fine with the staff. the pay is pathetic, i know, but hey, some people earns alot at their work but their lives can still be as miserable as ever. at least i know even if i'm not happy, i can say i'm contented at the least.
but i'm rather disappointed to be hearing that i'm gonna be transferred. the way i see it, i don't have colleagues that are as crazy as the ones i have now. and i really don't wan to make friends all over again, and make colleagues, when i'm just gonna be there for like just over a month more? to me it's not worth it at all. not worth it.
but kent's tendered his resignation, so i hope the HR department would seriously rethink their decision! the reason i'm being transferred out is because they're gonna have a new permanent staff coming in. i'm like so what? if kent's gone and they transfer me out, the department would be slightly handicapped you know. i hope i don't get transferred out. and such news really travels fast. even some of the promoters have got wind of it. and some think i requested for it! tsk tsk.
kent's resignation has given me hope i feel. haha. seriously, i'm quitting in the end of may, earliest. i don't see why they should transfer me out. it all depends.
so many uncertainties now, even about the kl trip. tsk tsk.
i need to get things going!
Monday, April 09, 2007
my mom always says that i take after her smartness yet i take after my dad's stupidity.
to that i agree.
i might be book-smart, but i'm definitely not streetsmart.
i'm always doing the stupidest of things and the stupidest of things always happens to me.
take for instance, just now.
i packed food from home for dinner for work, and guess what? just when i was digging out the rice from the thermos suddenly there was a loud BANG! i froze for a moment and thinking where did that come from. but when i looked around the wrold world was staring at me. then i realised.
okay, my thermos kinda exploded actually.
the inner glass lining cracked under pressure, so glass shards were spewed all over my rice and some on the table.
right.
apparently one shouldn't use a metal spoon to dig out warm/hot food from inside a glass-walled thermos. i'm not sure why, but now i know what happens when you do so. haha the whole thing was quite funny actually. but of course, embarassing. and of course the whole department knows about this. tsk tsk.
an exploding thermos.
thats's really food for thought.
sometimes i think why can't i also take after my mom's streetsmartness. i am so blur and so dim-witted at times i find it hard to believe what use can i be to people. people who know well enough know that i'm not a very practical person, neither am i good hands-on. i really feel damn stupid at times getting into the stupidest of situations. sometimes i just brush it off but it really gets to me at times.
for all of the money in the world, i would rather be not so dim-witted and more street-smart and better on hands-on things. seriously.
to that i agree.
i might be book-smart, but i'm definitely not streetsmart.
i'm always doing the stupidest of things and the stupidest of things always happens to me.
take for instance, just now.
i packed food from home for dinner for work, and guess what? just when i was digging out the rice from the thermos suddenly there was a loud BANG! i froze for a moment and thinking where did that come from. but when i looked around the wrold world was staring at me. then i realised.
okay, my thermos kinda exploded actually.
the inner glass lining cracked under pressure, so glass shards were spewed all over my rice and some on the table.
right.
apparently one shouldn't use a metal spoon to dig out warm/hot food from inside a glass-walled thermos. i'm not sure why, but now i know what happens when you do so. haha the whole thing was quite funny actually. but of course, embarassing. and of course the whole department knows about this. tsk tsk.
an exploding thermos.
thats's really food for thought.
sometimes i think why can't i also take after my mom's streetsmartness. i am so blur and so dim-witted at times i find it hard to believe what use can i be to people. people who know well enough know that i'm not a very practical person, neither am i good hands-on. i really feel damn stupid at times getting into the stupidest of situations. sometimes i just brush it off but it really gets to me at times.
for all of the money in the world, i would rather be not so dim-witted and more street-smart and better on hands-on things. seriously.
Sunday, April 01, 2007
sarah's party
the past few days have been rather tiring.
take for example yesterday.
for some reason i came to at around 10.30am. that's too early! and i couldn't sleep back again. then in the evening i went to attend sarah's 21st birthday party. oh and i managed to get hold of my aunt's car! so the whole night i was driving around actually. very excited, i was.
so the party was okay. the cake wasn't nice though apparently. i thought it was okay, it's just that we needed water to wash it down. and the party actually ran out of drinks. after the party, as a class we went to bishan to have some coffee. then we decided to drive over to seletar damn to chill the night away. and then the most ridiculous thing happened.
my car keys actually broke apart.
i think when i put it in my pocket it could have buckled under pressure and then broke. the metal part was still intact, but the plastic part that was welded together had given way. so i couldn't turn the ignition key in, since the plastic part which held the whole key together had given way. so there i was, for a whole 20 minutes i think, figuring out how 2 get the car started.
they key simply just wouldn't turn in! and there i was, stuck in bishan at 1+am in the morning. i was already about to abandon the car and just take a cab home since the locking mechanism of the car was still working fine. then after a few more tries finally i could get it started! whew, what a relief! luckily it didn't spoil the night for my classmates. finally after wasting so much valuable time, we then all drove to seletar dam. including mine, the entourage was made up of 3 cars. haha what a rarity.
before this i had always been wondering, what was so nice about seletar dam? the answer: nothing much actually. so many mosquitos, and i thought it would be a peaceful place. but of course, the road there was like a mini moto gp track. everytime the bikes screamed past it all sounded so annoying. but the scenery is okay actually. then we just talked the night away. once in a while, one must do things that one doesn't do often.
after driving jimmy home, i got home at close to 4am. and i had work that same day actually. morning shift some more! so this whole morning, i was so groggy. haha. my eyes were very heavy and i had a few short spells of headaches. but amazingly i managed to pull through the day. but i'm still weary. but it was fun actually, having the car for night and just zipping around here and there. of course, it really helped alot that yesterday, i didn't fork out a single cent for parking fees.
oh and guess what? my zen neeon got stolen! how f**ked up can things get? i believe it was stolen at the bag deposit at my workplace, since when i was on the way home the other day my player wasn't in the bag anymore. damn wasted, it wasn't even half a year old. i'm just pek chek about the whole thing. although my player was very slow and lagged alot but still, it was worth quite abit of my money! if my player really got stolen by some stranger, curse him to lose his job and get involved in some horrible accident or something along those lines.
i should really get a haircut, since it's really getting messier.
ah i'm just to darn lazy to even bother about things anymore.
take for example yesterday.
for some reason i came to at around 10.30am. that's too early! and i couldn't sleep back again. then in the evening i went to attend sarah's 21st birthday party. oh and i managed to get hold of my aunt's car! so the whole night i was driving around actually. very excited, i was.
so the party was okay. the cake wasn't nice though apparently. i thought it was okay, it's just that we needed water to wash it down. and the party actually ran out of drinks. after the party, as a class we went to bishan to have some coffee. then we decided to drive over to seletar damn to chill the night away. and then the most ridiculous thing happened.
my car keys actually broke apart.
i think when i put it in my pocket it could have buckled under pressure and then broke. the metal part was still intact, but the plastic part that was welded together had given way. so i couldn't turn the ignition key in, since the plastic part which held the whole key together had given way. so there i was, for a whole 20 minutes i think, figuring out how 2 get the car started.
they key simply just wouldn't turn in! and there i was, stuck in bishan at 1+am in the morning. i was already about to abandon the car and just take a cab home since the locking mechanism of the car was still working fine. then after a few more tries finally i could get it started! whew, what a relief! luckily it didn't spoil the night for my classmates. finally after wasting so much valuable time, we then all drove to seletar dam. including mine, the entourage was made up of 3 cars. haha what a rarity.
before this i had always been wondering, what was so nice about seletar dam? the answer: nothing much actually. so many mosquitos, and i thought it would be a peaceful place. but of course, the road there was like a mini moto gp track. everytime the bikes screamed past it all sounded so annoying. but the scenery is okay actually. then we just talked the night away. once in a while, one must do things that one doesn't do often.
after driving jimmy home, i got home at close to 4am. and i had work that same day actually. morning shift some more! so this whole morning, i was so groggy. haha. my eyes were very heavy and i had a few short spells of headaches. but amazingly i managed to pull through the day. but i'm still weary. but it was fun actually, having the car for night and just zipping around here and there. of course, it really helped alot that yesterday, i didn't fork out a single cent for parking fees.
oh and guess what? my zen neeon got stolen! how f**ked up can things get? i believe it was stolen at the bag deposit at my workplace, since when i was on the way home the other day my player wasn't in the bag anymore. damn wasted, it wasn't even half a year old. i'm just pek chek about the whole thing. although my player was very slow and lagged alot but still, it was worth quite abit of my money! if my player really got stolen by some stranger, curse him to lose his job and get involved in some horrible accident or something along those lines.
i should really get a haircut, since it's really getting messier.
ah i'm just to darn lazy to even bother about things anymore.
Saturday, March 24, 2007
zoo
it has been a very eventful week. in fact i've just gotten home under an hour ago.
i went to the zoo today! haha yes, our very own singapore zoo. never in my whole life did i think i would ever visit that hell hole again, but i did. courtesy of 2 of my secondary school friends who had free tickets to the zoo, so some of us went along to the zoo. so there were 9 of us in total.
it was a tiring day walking around in the zoo. even my hours of standing at work non-stop was of no use today. i was really bogged down by the heat, the humidity and the weight of my bag. and it wasn't help by the fact that i was wearing a black top. but it was okay, the trip.
didn't know there were so many types of primates around. what with you orang utans, the siamangs, the proboscis monkey, the chimps and so many more. i got sick of it at one time. and there were new names i've never heard before. like this hugeass freshwater amazon fish called the arapaima. i think the name's cool though. and a primate with a blue ass called a mandrill (it's really blue!). and some other names like the lemur, nighliy (i think) and a few others. got to take a few cool pics of several animals though. and got to see this hugeass python too, and some lazy-ass pigs and boars. and an animal called the babirusa (pig-deer). haha. alot of interesting things to learn.
like the above-mentioned arapaima. i swear i've never of such a fish before. apparently it's the largest freshwater fish in the world, growing up to 3m in length. and they are carnivorous. they eat other fish. i saw the keeper feeding them, and the way the consume it is damn cool. they create a suction-like vacuum using their mouths to suck the fish into their mouths, instead of just biting it straightaway. so it creates a very loud pop sound, which never ceases to shock everyone around. quite cool i find it. that was what the presenter said about this fish. oh and the presenter was very cute! i like her alot already! haha. she had a nice voice and really looks cute when she smiles! maybe i'll go and visit the arapaimas again soon then! haha.
after that was dinner at lot 1, and then i met jimmy. in between i ran into dear old mr chiam! he still remembers alot of me, but not my name! haha. but is okay. at least he remembers. unlike a certain teacher i've mentioned 1 of my recent posts. anyways, what a coincidence running into him, right after a dinner with the secondary school people. mr chiam was a teacher no one ever listened to in class, although he was really devoted to giving extra tuition after school at night. i was one of those who benefited from such sessions. he's actually a good one-on-one tutor i admit. but in class, no one really paid attention to him. we were alwasy playing cards or listening to music. i remembered once, i even had my fortune told in class. imagine that.
and then ran into nurul in the bus on the way to meeting jimmy. haha i keep running into nurul nowadays. and i met jimmy to sort out certain preparations for an event that's coming up!haha.
oh i watched pathfinder the other day. not bad a movie, although it is definitely a movie with the least scripts and lines i've ever watched. and the lead actress, moon bloodgood, is damn hooottt! shes dutch, irish and korean all rolled into 1! what an exotic blend! but i've yet to watch 300. and teenage mutant ninja turtles! errghh. it's tough being single in this sense. haha.
oh well, i would rather want to watch teenage mutant ninja turtles that 300 i guess. anyone caring enough to accompany me and watch either of the 2 movies? i'm so desperate. tsk tsk.
i went to the zoo today! haha yes, our very own singapore zoo. never in my whole life did i think i would ever visit that hell hole again, but i did. courtesy of 2 of my secondary school friends who had free tickets to the zoo, so some of us went along to the zoo. so there were 9 of us in total.
it was a tiring day walking around in the zoo. even my hours of standing at work non-stop was of no use today. i was really bogged down by the heat, the humidity and the weight of my bag. and it wasn't help by the fact that i was wearing a black top. but it was okay, the trip.
didn't know there were so many types of primates around. what with you orang utans, the siamangs, the proboscis monkey, the chimps and so many more. i got sick of it at one time. and there were new names i've never heard before. like this hugeass freshwater amazon fish called the arapaima. i think the name's cool though. and a primate with a blue ass called a mandrill (it's really blue!). and some other names like the lemur, nighliy (i think) and a few others. got to take a few cool pics of several animals though. and got to see this hugeass python too, and some lazy-ass pigs and boars. and an animal called the babirusa (pig-deer). haha. alot of interesting things to learn.
like the above-mentioned arapaima. i swear i've never of such a fish before. apparently it's the largest freshwater fish in the world, growing up to 3m in length. and they are carnivorous. they eat other fish. i saw the keeper feeding them, and the way the consume it is damn cool. they create a suction-like vacuum using their mouths to suck the fish into their mouths, instead of just biting it straightaway. so it creates a very loud pop sound, which never ceases to shock everyone around. quite cool i find it. that was what the presenter said about this fish. oh and the presenter was very cute! i like her alot already! haha. she had a nice voice and really looks cute when she smiles! maybe i'll go and visit the arapaimas again soon then! haha.
after that was dinner at lot 1, and then i met jimmy. in between i ran into dear old mr chiam! he still remembers alot of me, but not my name! haha. but is okay. at least he remembers. unlike a certain teacher i've mentioned 1 of my recent posts. anyways, what a coincidence running into him, right after a dinner with the secondary school people. mr chiam was a teacher no one ever listened to in class, although he was really devoted to giving extra tuition after school at night. i was one of those who benefited from such sessions. he's actually a good one-on-one tutor i admit. but in class, no one really paid attention to him. we were alwasy playing cards or listening to music. i remembered once, i even had my fortune told in class. imagine that.
and then ran into nurul in the bus on the way to meeting jimmy. haha i keep running into nurul nowadays. and i met jimmy to sort out certain preparations for an event that's coming up!haha.
oh i watched pathfinder the other day. not bad a movie, although it is definitely a movie with the least scripts and lines i've ever watched. and the lead actress, moon bloodgood, is damn hooottt! shes dutch, irish and korean all rolled into 1! what an exotic blend! but i've yet to watch 300. and teenage mutant ninja turtles! errghh. it's tough being single in this sense. haha.
oh well, i would rather want to watch teenage mutant ninja turtles that 300 i guess. anyone caring enough to accompany me and watch either of the 2 movies? i'm so desperate. tsk tsk.
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
k/w
i'm very absent-minded. with regards to work, it's really very annoying. twice today alone, i forgot to give back 2 credit cards to the respective customer. we could call back 1, but not the other. today there's just something wrong with me. cocked up alot. as always. and not forgetting, i'm still being faced with rude and overly demanding customers.
so work has been taxing, but i can stand 5 hours on an end now. haha. other than that things have been okay. i'm now a full-fledged cashier, although still unsure on certain things. but so far no major problems. i'm happily enjoying work.
and i've been having alot of dinners out lately. with jj, hasan, and last saturday met up with fairus, khamsya and hanan. after dinner, slacked at starbucks with hana and khamsya. it's real fun being with them. and i really wonder how's school gonna be with them around later in the year. it will be so havoc i feel. i doubt the campus has seen the most havoc and happenning students yet. i really can't wait for school, i wished it started tomorrow.
and a few days ago, i finally saw nad in person! but i was scared to approach her, fearing the ill-fated question - who are you? ah it was unmistakeably her. apparently she thought it was me. my dearest primary school friend, so finally i've seen you in person. happy birthday to you anyways, haha.
and mom has given me the green light to go KL. haha the funny thing was, before i left for work yesterday, i told her playfully i wanted to go london in june. she chided me, for saying such things, since i was kinda not so well-off, yet wanted to go holidaying in london. but later on in the day after i got back from work, she actually asked me whether i really wanted to go to london. haha. damn funny la my mum. but she says i can go to KL. so i can't wait. a few people are very interested in it, so hope the trip materialises.
and also, alot of gatherings to attend. on the 24th,on e 31st,on the 1st of apr...my gosh i don't know shy suddenly all the gatherings culminate during this period. my work hasalready take up much of my time, and plus all this...of course it's all gonna be very fun. and packed. haha. well at least i've things to do on much of the upcoming weekends. better staying at home and rotting away.
can't wait for the end of the month to beckon.
so work has been taxing, but i can stand 5 hours on an end now. haha. other than that things have been okay. i'm now a full-fledged cashier, although still unsure on certain things. but so far no major problems. i'm happily enjoying work.
and i've been having alot of dinners out lately. with jj, hasan, and last saturday met up with fairus, khamsya and hanan. after dinner, slacked at starbucks with hana and khamsya. it's real fun being with them. and i really wonder how's school gonna be with them around later in the year. it will be so havoc i feel. i doubt the campus has seen the most havoc and happenning students yet. i really can't wait for school, i wished it started tomorrow.
and a few days ago, i finally saw nad in person! but i was scared to approach her, fearing the ill-fated question - who are you? ah it was unmistakeably her. apparently she thought it was me. my dearest primary school friend, so finally i've seen you in person. happy birthday to you anyways, haha.
and mom has given me the green light to go KL. haha the funny thing was, before i left for work yesterday, i told her playfully i wanted to go london in june. she chided me, for saying such things, since i was kinda not so well-off, yet wanted to go holidaying in london. but later on in the day after i got back from work, she actually asked me whether i really wanted to go to london. haha. damn funny la my mum. but she says i can go to KL. so i can't wait. a few people are very interested in it, so hope the trip materialises.
and also, alot of gatherings to attend. on the 24th,on e 31st,on the 1st of apr...my gosh i don't know shy suddenly all the gatherings culminate during this period. my work hasalready take up much of my time, and plus all this...of course it's all gonna be very fun. and packed. haha. well at least i've things to do on much of the upcoming weekends. better staying at home and rotting away.
can't wait for the end of the month to beckon.
Monday, March 05, 2007
cashier
so nowadays i'm ALWAYS the cashier. the seniors and the permanent staff always bully me by telling me to be the cashier for the day, even if the roster didn't say so.
i mean cashiering is okay actually, fun at the start. but i'm always stuck at the counter, and i can't really go out and walk around and interact with the rest of the staff. but i'm more adept at cashiering nowadays. to tell you the truth i'm beginning to like my job behind the counter.haha. although it can be a tad too boring at times. like my what my colleague said just now - "got customers can die, no customers also can die." haha. there's alot of sense and truth in that statement. last weekend was quite hellish though. in fact i've gotten a complain from a customer already. haha. wasn't really my fault anyway.
it was friday morning, and we were really understaffed. the phone at the counter kept ringing non-stop, so there was this 1 particular call i answered. then came along this ang moh woman who wanted to pay. i dealt with the call first, but after a while i realised the call would take quite some time. then i told her politely to proceed to the other counters. then she got exasperated, because as it turned out the other counter had directed her to mine. she then stormed off and in the distance i could see her turn back and gesturing and probably curse and swear at me. of course i couldn't hear a thing since my ear was still glued to the receiver. i think she complained about me to the other counter.
then my manager came along to inquire about the complain, but eventually she forgot about it. tsk tsk. that's not all. on saturday i got a earful from another customer. his credit card didn't bear his signature at the back, so politely i asked him to sign. he berated me, saying his card was brand new so its the top of the range kind, where e signature is already embedded at the front of card. he said i was totally ignorant of such things and said i should know of such updates since i'm a cashier. in the end my colleague was the one who said sorry.
now that man is a complete a**hole. c'mon la, you are talking to this poor boy, who doesn't even own a POSB GO! card for god's sake. i'm not like some stinking rich chinese indonesians who come here and spulrge like 3K on knives alone. or neither do i collect credit cards like i'm a stamp collector. that's why i'm actually working as a modest cashier, a**hole. how would you expect me to know what kind of credit card you have, new or old?
you see, i realise the most stuck up and standoffish customers are surprise, surprise, our very own asians. just because they think they are filthy rich they think they can bully others around with their wealth. singaporeans too, become more well-off then suddenly they become pig-headed. the caucasians on the other hand, are rather polite and curteous. all these japanese, koreans, indonesians and even singaporeans - they are the most demanding, most unreasonable and most unrealistic customers i've ever seen. really. working in this line has shown me how rude, snobbish, ungracious and ridiculous our very own singaporeans are. i think we can only just hav a first world place to live in, but not the first world citizens to match up to that.
how to? become abit more wealthier and many start to think they are more superior than the rest. hallo, even the caste system is banned in India FYI. even simple mistakes and small matters can be blown up to such a huge and unreasonable proportion. the way i see it, i serious feel we can never be the gracious society that is hoped of us to be. we can always be a first world country in our lifetime no doubt, but with second rate citizens, with second rate mindsets, and second rate behaviour and attitudes.
on another note.
my computer was spoilt for the past week. thanks to ali it's up and running now. later on this week there will be an IT show at Suntec City. i need to go there to buy a DVD writer. i borrowed fabian's Lost DVD series for season 1, but my player in the living room can't play DVDs. i'm quite an idiot for not realising this, so anyway i shall have to get one soon. and mayb speakers to go along. we'll see how.
i got offs on wednesday and thursday back to back. i don't know if i should play badminton or not. but i'm sure i will go to the IT show. then dinner with fad, and abit of shopping to go. friday i feel like having dinner with some of the classmates.
busy, busy days ahead it seems.
i mean cashiering is okay actually, fun at the start. but i'm always stuck at the counter, and i can't really go out and walk around and interact with the rest of the staff. but i'm more adept at cashiering nowadays. to tell you the truth i'm beginning to like my job behind the counter.haha. although it can be a tad too boring at times. like my what my colleague said just now - "got customers can die, no customers also can die." haha. there's alot of sense and truth in that statement. last weekend was quite hellish though. in fact i've gotten a complain from a customer already. haha. wasn't really my fault anyway.
it was friday morning, and we were really understaffed. the phone at the counter kept ringing non-stop, so there was this 1 particular call i answered. then came along this ang moh woman who wanted to pay. i dealt with the call first, but after a while i realised the call would take quite some time. then i told her politely to proceed to the other counters. then she got exasperated, because as it turned out the other counter had directed her to mine. she then stormed off and in the distance i could see her turn back and gesturing and probably curse and swear at me. of course i couldn't hear a thing since my ear was still glued to the receiver. i think she complained about me to the other counter.
then my manager came along to inquire about the complain, but eventually she forgot about it. tsk tsk. that's not all. on saturday i got a earful from another customer. his credit card didn't bear his signature at the back, so politely i asked him to sign. he berated me, saying his card was brand new so its the top of the range kind, where e signature is already embedded at the front of card. he said i was totally ignorant of such things and said i should know of such updates since i'm a cashier. in the end my colleague was the one who said sorry.
now that man is a complete a**hole. c'mon la, you are talking to this poor boy, who doesn't even own a POSB GO! card for god's sake. i'm not like some stinking rich chinese indonesians who come here and spulrge like 3K on knives alone. or neither do i collect credit cards like i'm a stamp collector. that's why i'm actually working as a modest cashier, a**hole. how would you expect me to know what kind of credit card you have, new or old?
you see, i realise the most stuck up and standoffish customers are surprise, surprise, our very own asians. just because they think they are filthy rich they think they can bully others around with their wealth. singaporeans too, become more well-off then suddenly they become pig-headed. the caucasians on the other hand, are rather polite and curteous. all these japanese, koreans, indonesians and even singaporeans - they are the most demanding, most unreasonable and most unrealistic customers i've ever seen. really. working in this line has shown me how rude, snobbish, ungracious and ridiculous our very own singaporeans are. i think we can only just hav a first world place to live in, but not the first world citizens to match up to that.
how to? become abit more wealthier and many start to think they are more superior than the rest. hallo, even the caste system is banned in India FYI. even simple mistakes and small matters can be blown up to such a huge and unreasonable proportion. the way i see it, i serious feel we can never be the gracious society that is hoped of us to be. we can always be a first world country in our lifetime no doubt, but with second rate citizens, with second rate mindsets, and second rate behaviour and attitudes.
on another note.
my computer was spoilt for the past week. thanks to ali it's up and running now. later on this week there will be an IT show at Suntec City. i need to go there to buy a DVD writer. i borrowed fabian's Lost DVD series for season 1, but my player in the living room can't play DVDs. i'm quite an idiot for not realising this, so anyway i shall have to get one soon. and mayb speakers to go along. we'll see how.
i got offs on wednesday and thursday back to back. i don't know if i should play badminton or not. but i'm sure i will go to the IT show. then dinner with fad, and abit of shopping to go. friday i feel like having dinner with some of the classmates.
busy, busy days ahead it seems.
Monday, February 26, 2007
taka
my legs are definitely stronger now. i can stand for 4 hours straight without feeling muscles aches. haha. and my legs do feel less painful too even after a long day at work.
so i've finally started off with cashiering. it's quite simple actually, although some parts are abit confusing. i just need to slowly grasp the concepts and that should be all. the colleagues have been really patient with me and the other newbies. i'm thankful for that actually. even though the place is always packed with people almost all the time.
and i've seen alot fo people i know too. and my friends have been dropping by, i don't know why. is it like exciting to see me work at the counter? i don't know. thanks though for wasting your time (and my time!) for dropping by. oh i ran into into cikgu saripah too. but surprisingly she can't remember me at all.
i waved at her then she waved back. obviously she couldn't remember who i was, so i gave her the chance to stare at me at close range for a few seconds, and the name that came out of her mouth was not mine. right. what an anti-climax. so i explained myself, and we chatted a very short while. she says she can't remember her all of her students because she's taught alot of students.
that is, of course. but come on la cikgu! we were your last batch of students before you left our school to go to RI!(of course i didn't say it in front of her.) and we were your pioneer malay literature class batch, in fact the only 1 you taught before you left our school. and there were like, 14 of us in that small class? i admit i wasn't 1 of the more attention-grabbing students, but surely you should still remember me? memories of us would be fresher, logically. she remember shaz, when she ran into her last month. and shaz only takes higher malay! i took both! even after she walked away after the conversation, i wasn't fully convinced she actually remembered who i actually am. tsk tsk.
anyway last week had that class reunion dinner. i ate pizza that i asked von to order. the reast ate steamboat, and i only ate a measly prawn. then they did the lo hey thingy, and i couldn't bear to consume that, since it looked disgusting to me (sorry man!) anyway there's actually such things as halal lo hey. i'm like, what? okay la, it shouldn't be difficult to find halal lo hey snce it only consists of vegetables (errgh! simply disgusting!) and raw fish. it was nice to see back the classmates. i'm quite amazed we still meet up. i bet most of you don't even know what has happened to your own ex-classmates.
anyway arsenal lost last night. kinda disappointed, considering we opened the scoring first. i thought the unknown quantity that is the youth players of arsenal could have given chelsea a huge surprise. it did initially, but in the end chelsea nicked it. oh well. at least it proves arsenal's youngster have a very bright future in them. if the can match up to chelsea in a final, i guess they can match up to the hustle and bustle of the premiership then.
today on off, tomorrow back to work. feel like playing badminton this thursday with haekal, acop and rahman again. it's like a weekly ritual you know. my way (only way actually) of keeping fit. haha although we all tire very easily towards the end of the 2 hours.
everyday, i'm always wondering wondering who i'll run into at my workplace. the possibiilty of it is always very very high, it seems. oh well.
so i've finally started off with cashiering. it's quite simple actually, although some parts are abit confusing. i just need to slowly grasp the concepts and that should be all. the colleagues have been really patient with me and the other newbies. i'm thankful for that actually. even though the place is always packed with people almost all the time.
and i've seen alot fo people i know too. and my friends have been dropping by, i don't know why. is it like exciting to see me work at the counter? i don't know. thanks though for wasting your time (and my time!) for dropping by. oh i ran into into cikgu saripah too. but surprisingly she can't remember me at all.
i waved at her then she waved back. obviously she couldn't remember who i was, so i gave her the chance to stare at me at close range for a few seconds, and the name that came out of her mouth was not mine. right. what an anti-climax. so i explained myself, and we chatted a very short while. she says she can't remember her all of her students because she's taught alot of students.
that is, of course. but come on la cikgu! we were your last batch of students before you left our school to go to RI!(of course i didn't say it in front of her.) and we were your pioneer malay literature class batch, in fact the only 1 you taught before you left our school. and there were like, 14 of us in that small class? i admit i wasn't 1 of the more attention-grabbing students, but surely you should still remember me? memories of us would be fresher, logically. she remember shaz, when she ran into her last month. and shaz only takes higher malay! i took both! even after she walked away after the conversation, i wasn't fully convinced she actually remembered who i actually am. tsk tsk.
anyway last week had that class reunion dinner. i ate pizza that i asked von to order. the reast ate steamboat, and i only ate a measly prawn. then they did the lo hey thingy, and i couldn't bear to consume that, since it looked disgusting to me (sorry man!) anyway there's actually such things as halal lo hey. i'm like, what? okay la, it shouldn't be difficult to find halal lo hey snce it only consists of vegetables (errgh! simply disgusting!) and raw fish. it was nice to see back the classmates. i'm quite amazed we still meet up. i bet most of you don't even know what has happened to your own ex-classmates.
anyway arsenal lost last night. kinda disappointed, considering we opened the scoring first. i thought the unknown quantity that is the youth players of arsenal could have given chelsea a huge surprise. it did initially, but in the end chelsea nicked it. oh well. at least it proves arsenal's youngster have a very bright future in them. if the can match up to chelsea in a final, i guess they can match up to the hustle and bustle of the premiership then.
today on off, tomorrow back to work. feel like playing badminton this thursday with haekal, acop and rahman again. it's like a weekly ritual you know. my way (only way actually) of keeping fit. haha although we all tire very easily towards the end of the 2 hours.
everyday, i'm always wondering wondering who i'll run into at my workplace. the possibiilty of it is always very very high, it seems. oh well.
Friday, February 16, 2007
ppp
i probably should call myself the gangster wrapper. or gangsta wrappa, ratha.
a la 50cent, but not quite.
i wrap like mad at work nowadays.
now pots, pans and porcelain (ppp i term them) is the norm for me at my workplace.
idiotic jerome. cursed me that i might be posted to the pots and pans department. and it REALLY turned out to just that. tsk tsk. everyday i wrap and wrap. still not proficient at it though, but definitely better with my hands now. haha.
pay's not good at all. but hey, this is the only job that i could get. better then idling away at home. at least i learn something, although not really mentally stimulating. kinda tests more on patience and endurance. haven't yet started with the cash register machine, but next week i'm quite sure i've to start cashiering. so no more gangsta-wrappa for me i guess. actually not really.
been reading a book on english words and terms that are actually imported and borrowed from other languages. some of them are really alien to me, but some of them we use itall the time, not knowing it actually is of foreign nature. like vice versa. or status quo. or even chic. and macho.
so everyday i do the same thing - wake up, go to work, read this book on the way to work( i'm done with it actually), work my ass off, thn go back and read it on the way home, then sleep.
i'm still trying to get used to such routines, but so far it has been okay. work hasn't really been a blast, but at least it ain't boring, although there's really alot of tedious things to do. like i said, at least there's things to do. even though the pay might never match anything else.
so i don't work for the next 3 days. but as always, nothing is ever open during these holidays.
i guess it's home sweet home for me then this weekend.
then got a steamboat next week at vonnie's house. more than 2 years ago it was christmas dinner at fab's house. so now is a chinese new year steamboat dinner. ah shall have to rush down from work then.
my legs are really aching like mad! tsk tsk. now i know the life behind the counter ain't so simple.
a la 50cent, but not quite.
i wrap like mad at work nowadays.
now pots, pans and porcelain (ppp i term them) is the norm for me at my workplace.
idiotic jerome. cursed me that i might be posted to the pots and pans department. and it REALLY turned out to just that. tsk tsk. everyday i wrap and wrap. still not proficient at it though, but definitely better with my hands now. haha.
pay's not good at all. but hey, this is the only job that i could get. better then idling away at home. at least i learn something, although not really mentally stimulating. kinda tests more on patience and endurance. haven't yet started with the cash register machine, but next week i'm quite sure i've to start cashiering. so no more gangsta-wrappa for me i guess. actually not really.
been reading a book on english words and terms that are actually imported and borrowed from other languages. some of them are really alien to me, but some of them we use itall the time, not knowing it actually is of foreign nature. like vice versa. or status quo. or even chic. and macho.
so everyday i do the same thing - wake up, go to work, read this book on the way to work( i'm done with it actually), work my ass off, thn go back and read it on the way home, then sleep.
i'm still trying to get used to such routines, but so far it has been okay. work hasn't really been a blast, but at least it ain't boring, although there's really alot of tedious things to do. like i said, at least there's things to do. even though the pay might never match anything else.
so i don't work for the next 3 days. but as always, nothing is ever open during these holidays.
i guess it's home sweet home for me then this weekend.
then got a steamboat next week at vonnie's house. more than 2 years ago it was christmas dinner at fab's house. so now is a chinese new year steamboat dinner. ah shall have to rush down from work then.
my legs are really aching like mad! tsk tsk. now i know the life behind the counter ain't so simple.
Sunday, February 11, 2007
shirts
i don't know why, but i keep seeing our football heroes these days.
on wednesday night and last night, i saw khairul amri. then just now i saw raddy avramovic.
so who's next for tomorrow? jj says it should be ridhuan muhd. haha. he of the bandaged head fame. but apparently he took out the stitches on his head all by himself.
i digress.
so i have gotten a job actually. i try not to be choosy so i just accepted it. then another offer comes along. which is more lucrative than the first one.
how now brown cow?
i haven't started work yet. i start on monday. but the 2nd job offer offers more - for less. but i only have had a verbal agreement for the first job, no contract signing etc done yet. but right now i'm very muddled up.
i accepted the first offer because it's so hard to get a part-time/temporary job nowadays. the pay is rather paltry i guess. but working there would probably open me up to a world i might not have seen before. but the 2nd job offers more money, for less hours. but its working conditions are so - safe. like it's really guarded.
ah i was already geared up to work on monday. i'm not really excited or anything, it's just that i jus want to know what my new job entails and such. it might be mundane, but it will be quite insightful i guess. it might make me a stronger person.
oh well.
on another note, i've been shopping these days - even though there's no sale going on now. so far i've spent jus over a hundred bucks on 4 shirts. haha. 3 dress shirts and 1 top from topman. tsk tsk. and river island is something like topman, but i think slightly more pricey, from what i observed just now.
on yet another note.
2 nights ago was the birthday dinner with nurul and the rest. i'm real glad even after all these years we primary school friends still meet up. it's amazing to see how each other have grown through the years. and cam-whoring is so fun! haha yes hatta, yours truly admit he's a cam-whore. okay i guess i kind of get in touch with this feminine( is that how you spell it?) side of mine. but then again, i already have a digital camera, so might as well shoot away all night long what! haha. if not for what i own a digital camera?
so tomorrow is another day of shopping for me - with jj and jimmy. haha. money's flowing out but not coming in. tsk tsk.
the other day i had no jobs at all. now i've got 2 offers! haha what a whirlwind life can be.
how now brown cow?
on wednesday night and last night, i saw khairul amri. then just now i saw raddy avramovic.
so who's next for tomorrow? jj says it should be ridhuan muhd. haha. he of the bandaged head fame. but apparently he took out the stitches on his head all by himself.
i digress.
so i have gotten a job actually. i try not to be choosy so i just accepted it. then another offer comes along. which is more lucrative than the first one.
how now brown cow?
i haven't started work yet. i start on monday. but the 2nd job offer offers more - for less. but i only have had a verbal agreement for the first job, no contract signing etc done yet. but right now i'm very muddled up.
i accepted the first offer because it's so hard to get a part-time/temporary job nowadays. the pay is rather paltry i guess. but working there would probably open me up to a world i might not have seen before. but the 2nd job offers more money, for less hours. but its working conditions are so - safe. like it's really guarded.
ah i was already geared up to work on monday. i'm not really excited or anything, it's just that i jus want to know what my new job entails and such. it might be mundane, but it will be quite insightful i guess. it might make me a stronger person.
oh well.
on another note, i've been shopping these days - even though there's no sale going on now. so far i've spent jus over a hundred bucks on 4 shirts. haha. 3 dress shirts and 1 top from topman. tsk tsk. and river island is something like topman, but i think slightly more pricey, from what i observed just now.
on yet another note.
2 nights ago was the birthday dinner with nurul and the rest. i'm real glad even after all these years we primary school friends still meet up. it's amazing to see how each other have grown through the years. and cam-whoring is so fun! haha yes hatta, yours truly admit he's a cam-whore. okay i guess i kind of get in touch with this feminine( is that how you spell it?) side of mine. but then again, i already have a digital camera, so might as well shoot away all night long what! haha. if not for what i own a digital camera?
so tomorrow is another day of shopping for me - with jj and jimmy. haha. money's flowing out but not coming in. tsk tsk.
the other day i had no jobs at all. now i've got 2 offers! haha what a whirlwind life can be.
how now brown cow?
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
ord
okay, so finally my nightmare has ended.
finally. errgh, the wait seemed like forever. for the past 2 years this is the day i have been waiting for, but it passed just like that. i'm not feeling so euphoric or ecstatic, it just feels like just another day. i don't know why.
everyone is really looking forward to this day, but yet is feel nothing inside. i don't know. ah must be the uncertainties that lie ahead. the end of something is almost always the beginning of something.
and i haven't even started to scout for jobs, and yet people have been asking me out here and there. tomorrow i'm out with marcus and wadi. thursday's dinner with the primary school friends. friday's job-hunting and maybe another game of badminton, and saturday could be a gathering of old camp mates. ah it's all so packed.
but i need a job, badly. my finances isn't that healthy, and it may plummet towards recession sooner rather than later it seems. i need the World Bank to save me! haha.
oh well. at least i've somewhat gotten my life back.
can't wait to start school. i don't mind starting school tomorrow, frankly speaking.but actually, i need a break.
come june - Kl here i come. i think.
finally. errgh, the wait seemed like forever. for the past 2 years this is the day i have been waiting for, but it passed just like that. i'm not feeling so euphoric or ecstatic, it just feels like just another day. i don't know why.
everyone is really looking forward to this day, but yet is feel nothing inside. i don't know. ah must be the uncertainties that lie ahead. the end of something is almost always the beginning of something.
and i haven't even started to scout for jobs, and yet people have been asking me out here and there. tomorrow i'm out with marcus and wadi. thursday's dinner with the primary school friends. friday's job-hunting and maybe another game of badminton, and saturday could be a gathering of old camp mates. ah it's all so packed.
but i need a job, badly. my finances isn't that healthy, and it may plummet towards recession sooner rather than later it seems. i need the World Bank to save me! haha.
oh well. at least i've somewhat gotten my life back.
can't wait to start school. i don't mind starting school tomorrow, frankly speaking.but actually, i need a break.
come june - Kl here i come. i think.
Monday, January 29, 2007
match
just came home from going out...to buy the singapore-thailand match tickets. yeah finally. was supposed to go down to catch saturday's match but the tickets sold out by 3pm. i was already ready to rush down in thomas' car but it wasn't to be. the whole weekend was then practically wasted away at home doing nothing but colelcting dust.
so this time round me and jerome couldn't take any chances. we reached jalan besar at close to 4 but the queue was quite long. took us around 20minutes or so before we could purchase the tickets. the fatigue on the faces of the people at the counter was clear - both of them had sore eyes! and they still had to work. so wednesday i'll be there cheering them on against the mighty thais.
seriously singapore played quite horribly against malaysia. i think me and jj got a common consensus. singapore wants to utilise alam shah's supposed aerial prowess but they can't even cross the ball properly. even the freekicks were wasted. and i don't think one needs to be an einstein to tell me indra is off-form. so is baihakki. baihakki is seriously a pale shadow of the player he was during the last tiger cup. and the defence is really shaky. bennett can't really take freekicks, contrary to what the players claim. ridhuan mohd can't cross the ball for nuts and shi jia yi hasn't impressed me enough.
of course i don't expect perfection. but seriously, what i see on the pitch and what is written on the newspapers do not match. so i think i should be expecting better from them this wednesday, since it is most probably the national stadium's last match ever.
frankly speaking i've never watched a match at the stadium before, although i've performed on the pitch itself many times with my military band in my heydays a few years back.
on another note.
finally i've won the international cup on winning 11 at level 5! haha big deal to some other people, but it's quite an achievement to me. been trying to do that for the past few months. finally did it! achieved it at 3am+ on sunday night/monday morning. finally!haha.
on yet another note.
i need to find work!
anyone got a decent propostion?
so this time round me and jerome couldn't take any chances. we reached jalan besar at close to 4 but the queue was quite long. took us around 20minutes or so before we could purchase the tickets. the fatigue on the faces of the people at the counter was clear - both of them had sore eyes! and they still had to work. so wednesday i'll be there cheering them on against the mighty thais.
seriously singapore played quite horribly against malaysia. i think me and jj got a common consensus. singapore wants to utilise alam shah's supposed aerial prowess but they can't even cross the ball properly. even the freekicks were wasted. and i don't think one needs to be an einstein to tell me indra is off-form. so is baihakki. baihakki is seriously a pale shadow of the player he was during the last tiger cup. and the defence is really shaky. bennett can't really take freekicks, contrary to what the players claim. ridhuan mohd can't cross the ball for nuts and shi jia yi hasn't impressed me enough.
of course i don't expect perfection. but seriously, what i see on the pitch and what is written on the newspapers do not match. so i think i should be expecting better from them this wednesday, since it is most probably the national stadium's last match ever.
frankly speaking i've never watched a match at the stadium before, although i've performed on the pitch itself many times with my military band in my heydays a few years back.
on another note.
finally i've won the international cup on winning 11 at level 5! haha big deal to some other people, but it's quite an achievement to me. been trying to do that for the past few months. finally did it! achieved it at 3am+ on sunday night/monday morning. finally!haha.
on yet another note.
i need to find work!
anyone got a decent propostion?
Sunday, January 21, 2007
slacking
things are very mundane nowadays.
i sleep quite alot in camp. in fact i even brought in a very detailed book about WWII to keep me preoccupied.
ah it's not those thick and wordy ones, is those with colour illustrations and almost 300 page thick. just what i need to get a grasp of the events of WWII. tomorrow i'll start on the chapter where the tide of the war now goes against the Nazi Germans.
it's quite exciting actually. well maybe to me actually, since history is probably the only i read in depth.
on another note.
my clumsiness has taken me to a higher level now. haha. think some of you might know just how clumsy i can be. and the stupidest of things that i could do. well yet another embarassing thing happened to me.
ever walked past by SMU? somewhere there by bras basah rd, there's this water fountain thingy, outside the li ka shing library. well i happened to walk past there on saturday with sheikh and iman. then i got a call. so while on the phone i started to lose my mind abit i think, apparently i slowly swayed too much to the left the woooosh!
damn it i stepped into the water structure. the thing looked like a flight of stairs but its full of water. i couldn't see since it was at night around 7+and the lighting was dim. i swear i didn't realise it was water. you gotta go see for yourselves how the water structure looks like.
well the aftermath was embarassing. my jeans were drenched up to my shin level. it was pretty obvious. then i just sat down exasperated. while the guys were laughing their socks off. well at least their socks were still dry. tsk tsk.
after various means of trying to get my jeans dry up it took like around 7 hours before my jeans really dried up. that night still carried on. played pool, played counter-strike for the 1st time ever and then hanged out till morning.
rather embarassing. well at least it didn't happen on my way to meet some girl on a date or what. haha. i'm so clumsy i wonder when i'll grow out of my clumsiness. it kinda stems from my blurredness or my stupidity somehow. it's all a mish-mash.
so far i've been to 2 birthday functions this month. everyone's like turning 21 this year. thinking of having 1 myself later in the year, but logistics-wise it will be quite a nightmare. still thinking.
well, good thing is the nightmare is going to end rather soon.
but it it isn't the end of everything it seems.
the end of something almost always means the beginning of another thing.
and somethings can never end just like that.
i sleep quite alot in camp. in fact i even brought in a very detailed book about WWII to keep me preoccupied.
ah it's not those thick and wordy ones, is those with colour illustrations and almost 300 page thick. just what i need to get a grasp of the events of WWII. tomorrow i'll start on the chapter where the tide of the war now goes against the Nazi Germans.
it's quite exciting actually. well maybe to me actually, since history is probably the only i read in depth.
on another note.
my clumsiness has taken me to a higher level now. haha. think some of you might know just how clumsy i can be. and the stupidest of things that i could do. well yet another embarassing thing happened to me.
ever walked past by SMU? somewhere there by bras basah rd, there's this water fountain thingy, outside the li ka shing library. well i happened to walk past there on saturday with sheikh and iman. then i got a call. so while on the phone i started to lose my mind abit i think, apparently i slowly swayed too much to the left the woooosh!
damn it i stepped into the water structure. the thing looked like a flight of stairs but its full of water. i couldn't see since it was at night around 7+and the lighting was dim. i swear i didn't realise it was water. you gotta go see for yourselves how the water structure looks like.
well the aftermath was embarassing. my jeans were drenched up to my shin level. it was pretty obvious. then i just sat down exasperated. while the guys were laughing their socks off. well at least their socks were still dry. tsk tsk.
after various means of trying to get my jeans dry up it took like around 7 hours before my jeans really dried up. that night still carried on. played pool, played counter-strike for the 1st time ever and then hanged out till morning.
rather embarassing. well at least it didn't happen on my way to meet some girl on a date or what. haha. i'm so clumsy i wonder when i'll grow out of my clumsiness. it kinda stems from my blurredness or my stupidity somehow. it's all a mish-mash.
so far i've been to 2 birthday functions this month. everyone's like turning 21 this year. thinking of having 1 myself later in the year, but logistics-wise it will be quite a nightmare. still thinking.
well, good thing is the nightmare is going to end rather soon.
but it it isn't the end of everything it seems.
the end of something almost always means the beginning of another thing.
and somethings can never end just like that.
Saturday, January 06, 2007
new yr
hey, happy new year!
oh i know, i haven't been blogging for quite sometime. pardon the laziness. my bad.
i guess i'll just blog on what happened in the day leading up to the new year and after that.
for starters, the class outing. the much-hyped one apparently. the one that i kinda volunteered to organise.
it went okay actually. although everyone else came late for the badminton game. there was me, jerome, fabian, thomas, vineson, gq, clarissa, yenlin, sarah and lingfang. we played for around 2 hours at the toa payoh sports hall. then we showered and then made our way to toa payoh central. waited for mr yong to come. dear old mr yong, my jc class form teacher. i haven't seen him since i collected my results for a levels almost 2 years ago. too bad mr tan and mr yap couldn't join us. tyan joined us for dinner too.
so we dined at swensens. and chatted. then we played pool for 2 hours near there. then me jerome fabian and thomas made our way to a pub at selegie road, supposedy to catch the liverpool-spurs match. but ended up watching man u-reading instead.
so the class outing went okay. it wasn't really a blast,but it wasn't really a disaster either. it's just wasted that some originally could make it but had to pull out last minute. it's really hard to get everyone coming over actually.
then the next day was hari raya haji. got to drive the aunt's car around abit. at night i went out to clarke quay. met up with hadi,lizzy, haryyany and shaz. shaz brought along her cousin from kl. and we walked around, and then went over to esplanade to catch the fireworks. then slacked around town, and catching the 1st (or rather 2nd train) home. no cabs wanted to take us in, so we decided to waste time away till the first train.
i got home at close to 8am on new year's day. later that day i went out again, this time with fab and jj. got a shirt for myself from pull and bear at taka. and after that caught the liverpool-bolton game at chjimes. and on the 2nd i was on duty in camp.
so now it's already 2007. i'm going to ord quite soon. but i'm really taking things with alot of caution. things havent't really panned out well for me so far. i really hope everything else won't affect me. because it might just have an adverse effect on me. until then all i can say is jus i've keep my head up and put on a brave front i guess. hope things will turn out okay for me in the end.
i really do.
God please help me.
oh i know, i haven't been blogging for quite sometime. pardon the laziness. my bad.
i guess i'll just blog on what happened in the day leading up to the new year and after that.
for starters, the class outing. the much-hyped one apparently. the one that i kinda volunteered to organise.
it went okay actually. although everyone else came late for the badminton game. there was me, jerome, fabian, thomas, vineson, gq, clarissa, yenlin, sarah and lingfang. we played for around 2 hours at the toa payoh sports hall. then we showered and then made our way to toa payoh central. waited for mr yong to come. dear old mr yong, my jc class form teacher. i haven't seen him since i collected my results for a levels almost 2 years ago. too bad mr tan and mr yap couldn't join us. tyan joined us for dinner too.
so we dined at swensens. and chatted. then we played pool for 2 hours near there. then me jerome fabian and thomas made our way to a pub at selegie road, supposedy to catch the liverpool-spurs match. but ended up watching man u-reading instead.
so the class outing went okay. it wasn't really a blast,but it wasn't really a disaster either. it's just wasted that some originally could make it but had to pull out last minute. it's really hard to get everyone coming over actually.
then the next day was hari raya haji. got to drive the aunt's car around abit. at night i went out to clarke quay. met up with hadi,lizzy, haryyany and shaz. shaz brought along her cousin from kl. and we walked around, and then went over to esplanade to catch the fireworks. then slacked around town, and catching the 1st (or rather 2nd train) home. no cabs wanted to take us in, so we decided to waste time away till the first train.
i got home at close to 8am on new year's day. later that day i went out again, this time with fab and jj. got a shirt for myself from pull and bear at taka. and after that caught the liverpool-bolton game at chjimes. and on the 2nd i was on duty in camp.
so now it's already 2007. i'm going to ord quite soon. but i'm really taking things with alot of caution. things havent't really panned out well for me so far. i really hope everything else won't affect me. because it might just have an adverse effect on me. until then all i can say is jus i've keep my head up and put on a brave front i guess. hope things will turn out okay for me in the end.
i really do.
God please help me.
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