tried

warning - the author is extremely tired.

why? well for almost the whole of last week i had silat trainings everyday. of course it wasn't that tiring per se, but it all kinda builds up. and it all culminated in that performance we staged on saturday for PPIS at jurong spring cc (former hong kah cc). basically it was mostly a performance showcasing the more cultural aspects of silat. well for my part i had to be thrown and kicked around by halimah (or hally, which i believe is the anglicised name. haha). and yes it did hurt alot.

i kinda forgot that we were now on a wooden stage and not practising on those thick mats. what was supposed to happen was that at 1 stage i was to run towards her and she would kick me in the chest and send me flying in the air. yes i flew, but the landing was anything but smooth. when i got up my whole body was in complete pain from the impact of being slammed against the hard floor. for some reason i felt like my life was being squeezed out. haha. but seriously, if it was normal training i would have tapped out immediately. anyway some of us suffered from injuries too, more especially so for chong, who left the place with a cut across his right cheek.

in any case the following morning when i got up and went to the bathroom to shower, i stared into the mirror almost immediately i said 'what the f**k is that???' well, there was a huge ass abrasion on my left shoulder that turned mighty red overnight. a reminder of my flying act the day before. i had already felt pain there but the day before it wasn't inflamed as that. anyway it is still bright red as of now, and its roughly the size of 4 50cent coins put side by side? yup. they say its sort of 'bleeding' underneath the skin, so that probably explains why it is as red as that. haha. it doesn't hurt much, but it's just so strikingly red that i'm thankful it wasn't on my arm or face or something like that. haha. hope it heals soon though.

and anyway that same sunday night, after the performance the day before, i went to recce the route for night cycling. had loads of fun, even with only aizat, naim and zuraimi. haha. had dinner at burger king at east coast, and then we cycled to esplanade. before that we managed to stop at chjimes and catch poor liverpool against manchester united for the whole of the 2nd half. that was followed by supper at gluttons' bay at esplanade. haha i had a huge ass ice kachang served, and had roti john n kaya toast too. and then we cycled back via nicoll highway, the national stadium and through east coast park. and reached back at around 330am. we had breakfast at mcdonalds at 4am. haha. basically, i had 3 meals within the space of 9 hours! haha. a real glutton. well, but cycling at night is really fun. i think i should do that real often. haha.

but ya, i'm still tired from the exertions. i haven't had proper sleep since then, and still had time to play futsal just now after the rain. haha i'm really not good at soocer. and i'm even more tired than ever.

dear you,

if you are reading this, i'm real sorry. i am mean too. but i hope you understand. i hope things become better from now on. i really do hope so.