school's not really a blast.
for the first week it's just rushing to queue up for the readings bundles and whatever textbooks that i need to buy. and the lectures are all mostly introductory ones. ah but the tons of reading i have to do, is enough to just deflate my spirits. in fact for once i really have to be very much learn independently, which is something i have to get used to. and the tutorial ballotting system is really ridiculous. i'm too lazy to even bother about it now.
so i went for 2 welcome teas the past week. the malay society one was held 1st. played this superhero dress-up game, where they asked me to put hats under my shirts to make me look muscular. well, of course it looked like boobs! althought i must say at least i did win the final challenge! haha. ah but the muslim society welcome tea was much more refreshing.
met alot of international muslim students, like those from pakistan, iran, myanmar, mauritius, bangladesh and the list goes on. it was really an eye-opener just interacting with them. it's a hard feeling to describe, when you get to meet fellow muslims from across the globe and exchange your thoughts and feelings. i wonder how these people really get through with their lives in their war-torn, poverty-stricken countries, where there is political instability, and the threat of war is very real. countries where the trains still run on diesel, where freedom of speech is strictly forbidden and so on. it makes me think that despite such obstacles, people still believe in the hope that the religion brings. hope springs eternal as they say, and the fact that they are willing to part with their families to actually find a better future is amazing. such is the strength of their willingness to travel to further their studies. living alone in a foreign land is extremely daunting and they risk being outcasted. i really admire such people. it's really interesting to interact with them honestly.
and just now i had a tuition class in the morning, under the mendaki tuition programme for malay/muslim students. i was a relief for some tutor who couldn't make it. i thought sec 3 express english. and from the way i see it, i think we're gonna have a huge problem at hand in the years to come.
the students just don't have the right attitude! stupidity is 1 thing, but attitude is another. if you are just not born smart, the do it the tried and tested way - through hard work. one can be stupid yet achieve goals in life. and that is if you have the right attitude. even the most smartest person in the world will never be succesful if he chooses to be lazy and not make full use of his own potential. and those kids that i were taking are the future of the nation! the very ones that will make the step up when they come of age! the very ones who will decide the path the nation would tread upon!
on one hand, we see more malay people becoming more successful - we see more doctors, lawyers, engineers and the what have you. but on the other hand, more people are dropping out of schools, more truancy cases, more shotgun marriages and the what have you. yesterday one lecturer pointed out the suicide cases among singaporeans are the lowest among the malay/muslim community. but of course, that's not the real picture. pre-marital sex rates, abortion cases, divorce rates have been increasing for the malay/muslim community. and the real reason for such things to happen?
the lack or guidance and education. but as i've said before, one has to help himself too. teaching someone to fish today for a living doesn't guarantee he'll drag his lazy ass to the sea tomorrow to fish on his own. one can be the most knowledgeable person on the planet, but without the right attitude, i doubt he can be successful. and the scary thing is alot of kids do not realise the importance of education. the paper chase is inevitable in a resource-scarce city-state like ours. like it or not, realisty is as such. none of them are thinking practically! as if i have a choice to not want to study too.
it's really scary. and of course, those students i took on just now are not the worst of the lot. if such trends persist, i shudder to think of the future. i get scared thinking of my own personal future. don't such kids get scared of the consequences and repercussions they will face if they falter?
someone should just invent a reality-check mirror where if you look into it, your reflection will just scream its lungs out at you or just give you tight slaps as reality checks.
Saturday, August 18, 2007
Monday, August 13, 2007
school
yai start school tomorrow!
so finally the day arrives, after more than 2 and-a-half years of waiting. i don't have classes on monday hence my school week starts tomorrow. ah the anticipation ends tomorrow, but i've only got a 2 hour lecture tomorrow and that's all. the tutorials haven't started yet so this week is rather relaxed actually. so finally the feeling of going to school will sink in again tomorrow. call me wierd but i like going to school. save the studying part though.
went to gym with liz just now to kill time. i think i had a great workout just now, so i expect to wake up tomorrow with a body like a bodybuilder's! haha. but just now was not bad. ah if only i wasn't born such a lazy ass, i would probably have a better-looking body, maybe learnt how to play the bass guitar and have a much much cleaner room now. and a million other things that i could have achieved. haha.
the other day, had dinner with the friends for the orientation group. it was fun! then went to catch some show with them at victoria concert hall. i think the people in my group are quite fun. of course, not in the sporty or outdoors sense. i feel we all can connect on the same level. haha. i can't help thinking i've more than enough friends in the arts faculty. of course one can't have too many friends, but it can prove to be a headache!
anyway the past week i've had too many surprising news. think i had 4 shocks last week. which is really enough. anymore would just shake the pillars of peacefulness of my life. haha. i've really had a shock too many for the past week. and i also got myself a new handphone on top of that! so that should really end my shopping spree. note the keyword is should. hope that no one would have my handphone too, if not that would be quite a spoiler.
okay so tomorrow i start my life as a student! whoo-pee-do!
the competition with girls and the competition for girls starts tomorrow! haha.
so finally the day arrives, after more than 2 and-a-half years of waiting. i don't have classes on monday hence my school week starts tomorrow. ah the anticipation ends tomorrow, but i've only got a 2 hour lecture tomorrow and that's all. the tutorials haven't started yet so this week is rather relaxed actually. so finally the feeling of going to school will sink in again tomorrow. call me wierd but i like going to school. save the studying part though.
went to gym with liz just now to kill time. i think i had a great workout just now, so i expect to wake up tomorrow with a body like a bodybuilder's! haha. but just now was not bad. ah if only i wasn't born such a lazy ass, i would probably have a better-looking body, maybe learnt how to play the bass guitar and have a much much cleaner room now. and a million other things that i could have achieved. haha.
the other day, had dinner with the friends for the orientation group. it was fun! then went to catch some show with them at victoria concert hall. i think the people in my group are quite fun. of course, not in the sporty or outdoors sense. i feel we all can connect on the same level. haha. i can't help thinking i've more than enough friends in the arts faculty. of course one can't have too many friends, but it can prove to be a headache!
anyway the past week i've had too many surprising news. think i had 4 shocks last week. which is really enough. anymore would just shake the pillars of peacefulness of my life. haha. i've really had a shock too many for the past week. and i also got myself a new handphone on top of that! so that should really end my shopping spree. note the keyword is should. hope that no one would have my handphone too, if not that would be quite a spoiler.
okay so tomorrow i start my life as a student! whoo-pee-do!
the competition with girls and the competition for girls starts tomorrow! haha.
Tuesday, August 07, 2007
dreams
the other day i had 1 of the most wierdest dreams ever.
i dreamt that i was on this mrt train on the east-west line, heading towards boon lay, with my parents. as you all know, they are now building an extention of that line, till somwhere in the pioneer road area or somwhere there. but by right boon lay would still be last stop. but the train didn't stop at boon lay, in fact it picked up speed as it sped past boon lay. so naturally everyone on the train was horrified, since the tracks would run out eventually, and the train would go hurtling in the air (think spiderman? the scene where spidey stops the train from going over the tracks and crashing down). but the thing is, in my dream, there was no such heroics. when the tracks ran out, the train just went into the air and plummeted into the sea, but just beside the shoreline, probably somewhere in the tuas area, near the second link. amazingly, nobody died. everyone managed to force the doors open and just swim to the surface. heck, even my parents did that. and of course, a full scale investigation was launched thereafter.
but what a preposterous and wierd dream.
on another note.
the past week's been damn busy! organising schedules, outings here and there, bidding of modules. and my room's still in a damn mess. i'm too lazy to even bother, but i need to do something about it soon anyway. classes start next week, and from the synopses of the modules, they look quite interesting. there's like a fieldtrip to lucky plaza / penisular plaza, and even a remake of the famous versailles treaty of 1919 to be played out in class. oh and a screening of nang nak in one of the lectures. it might not turn out to be interesting, but at least it's different.
back to school in a week's time!
i dreamt that i was on this mrt train on the east-west line, heading towards boon lay, with my parents. as you all know, they are now building an extention of that line, till somwhere in the pioneer road area or somwhere there. but by right boon lay would still be last stop. but the train didn't stop at boon lay, in fact it picked up speed as it sped past boon lay. so naturally everyone on the train was horrified, since the tracks would run out eventually, and the train would go hurtling in the air (think spiderman? the scene where spidey stops the train from going over the tracks and crashing down). but the thing is, in my dream, there was no such heroics. when the tracks ran out, the train just went into the air and plummeted into the sea, but just beside the shoreline, probably somewhere in the tuas area, near the second link. amazingly, nobody died. everyone managed to force the doors open and just swim to the surface. heck, even my parents did that. and of course, a full scale investigation was launched thereafter.
but what a preposterous and wierd dream.
on another note.
the past week's been damn busy! organising schedules, outings here and there, bidding of modules. and my room's still in a damn mess. i'm too lazy to even bother, but i need to do something about it soon anyway. classes start next week, and from the synopses of the modules, they look quite interesting. there's like a fieldtrip to lucky plaza / penisular plaza, and even a remake of the famous versailles treaty of 1919 to be played out in class. oh and a screening of nang nak in one of the lectures. it might not turn out to be interesting, but at least it's different.
back to school in a week's time!
Wednesday, August 01, 2007
sch's starting
sorry for the way overdue entry!
but hey - school's-a-starting!
haha. something i've actually been waiting for ever since i left school at the end of 2004. although i must say i'm not really as enthusiatic as i would like it to have been, because all the preparation is so confusing! everyone is just as confused as i am about alot of the things, and especially the bidding of modules. i'm slightly stressed up by it, no thanks to the meticulous planning required.
but so far all has gone well. been going back to school for the past few days, and i feel i've really got alot of friends all over. i'm not saying i'm that popular - it's just that everywhere i turn, i'm bound to find someone i know. like today. i bumped into a friend on the way to school, and in school i bumped into so many other long-lost friends. the ex-NS buddies, the primary and the secondary school friends too. hell, i even bumped into an ex-NS colleague while crossing the road just now. and he was on his motorbike waiting for the lights to turn green! haha. had time to catch up abit with him before the green man started to blink.
can one simply have too many friends? but it's hard to define how many is too many. even acquaintances or those "hi-bye" people, some would consider as friends too. well all i know i have quite a number of friends inside my faculty. and i'm going to miss my upcoming faculty's orientation anyway. and this whole week has been really busy busy busy! well, at least i ave things to do outside of home everyday anyway, so i'm not exactly complaining!haha.
ah i expect lesser time to play games then! that's real sad. but school's-a-starting, and i hope i have a decent start in school. after more than 2 years of brain-freeze, i hope it still can function properly! haha. but there's so many people to compete with, and its really scary when one thinks of the competition for places and grades later on. tsk tsk.
on another note, i thought i was done with my shopping! but i just had to buy another pair of jeans, and i'm relly thinking of upgrading my handphone. but it should wait, because i want to see if i have enough cash after i pay off my bills and all. haha. getting a new handphone would really cap it all off! but i must see how.
okay i better play my computer game first before i really have no time in the future.
but hey - school's-a-starting!
haha. something i've actually been waiting for ever since i left school at the end of 2004. although i must say i'm not really as enthusiatic as i would like it to have been, because all the preparation is so confusing! everyone is just as confused as i am about alot of the things, and especially the bidding of modules. i'm slightly stressed up by it, no thanks to the meticulous planning required.
but so far all has gone well. been going back to school for the past few days, and i feel i've really got alot of friends all over. i'm not saying i'm that popular - it's just that everywhere i turn, i'm bound to find someone i know. like today. i bumped into a friend on the way to school, and in school i bumped into so many other long-lost friends. the ex-NS buddies, the primary and the secondary school friends too. hell, i even bumped into an ex-NS colleague while crossing the road just now. and he was on his motorbike waiting for the lights to turn green! haha. had time to catch up abit with him before the green man started to blink.
can one simply have too many friends? but it's hard to define how many is too many. even acquaintances or those "hi-bye" people, some would consider as friends too. well all i know i have quite a number of friends inside my faculty. and i'm going to miss my upcoming faculty's orientation anyway. and this whole week has been really busy busy busy! well, at least i ave things to do outside of home everyday anyway, so i'm not exactly complaining!haha.
ah i expect lesser time to play games then! that's real sad. but school's-a-starting, and i hope i have a decent start in school. after more than 2 years of brain-freeze, i hope it still can function properly! haha. but there's so many people to compete with, and its really scary when one thinks of the competition for places and grades later on. tsk tsk.
on another note, i thought i was done with my shopping! but i just had to buy another pair of jeans, and i'm relly thinking of upgrading my handphone. but it should wait, because i want to see if i have enough cash after i pay off my bills and all. haha. getting a new handphone would really cap it all off! but i must see how.
okay i better play my computer game first before i really have no time in the future.
Monday, July 23, 2007
camp
so i got back from the orientation camp a few days ago.
but first, my last day of work ended on the worst possible note ever. the previous sentence had a pun in there relating to what happened, but i don't want to talk about it haha. but work's finally over, and i get a few days rest now to recharge.
anyways back to the camp. i suppose everyone else had a blast. well i didn't really enjoy myself at the camp, partly due to myself. i was totally invisible during the camp. for much of the camp i was very sleepy, and i just couldn't be as enthusiastic as i would like to have been. haha. but actually i'm really not the kind of person to go for such camps. just doesn't suit my personality i think. haha. but at least i made a few friends. friends that i feel i can talk to with. i still haven't really recovered from the exhaustions of the camp, proven by the fact that this weekend alone was the 1st time i had afternoon naps at home in eons.
but it was fun engaging people, and seeing people interact. at least there was abundance of healthy debates and discussions going on within the group. about our religion, our society, our people. which really stimulates the mind, and opens it up to more interesting viewpoints. sometimes it got so heated because naturally, some would be very emotional with their principles and all. but it was good. i learnt alot from such healthy discussions. in fact i think i've learnt alot about our people and our society over the past 2 years.
of course, no thanks to my ns experience, my workplace and my new school. the people i've met from the 3 places are from totally different types of backgrounds. but it should be good for me, to interact with such people. but of course, i haven't actually seen the real picture yet. but i imagine it to be very sad. especially, the real picture of my own society.
seriously, how can we not agree to the fact that the malay society is the one with the most social problems? as i have argued before, i feel we should call ourselves the malaise instead of the malays. if i am ever going to write a book on my society, it would titled 'the malaise' - so don't copy me. haha. anyways, seriously, we never seem to be able to find solutions to combat such problems. everytime we think we've eradicated a problem, another type emerges. it's really sad. malays score very high in the abortion rates, teenage pregnancy rates, teenage marriages rates, school dropout rates and the list goes on. and them with their nonsensical way of dressing, coupled with their ability to create a ruckus everywhere they go and act as if they are so damn cool. it's a national shame, i feel, that my society is churning out such people who obviously have no future and who don't ever even think about their future. all they care about is looking cool just pushing around baby prams in town, with their 101 piercings on their eyebrows and the list goes on. have you ever wondered why you only see young malay couples pushing prams around or just going out with small kids in town, but never from the other races? i don't know about you, but that really is a startling fact for me.
so what is it with these people?? if i had my way they will be purged sooner rather than later. what a waste to society these people are. to think people are the only resources our country has, and we are churning out such sub-standard ill-mannered people? it's no wonder the government actively tries to recruit foreign talent, because our own people are just not convincing enough. i really can't understand why we have people like this. definitely the household has to bear part of the blame. screwed-up families will naturally produce screwed-up offsprings. but it isn't a curse, is it? surely one can buckle the trend. but sadly alot of such people still choose to carry on with their screwed-up lives.
and this is only just the beginning. if you read history, china has this generation of people called 'the lost generation'. these people were the ones who served as the red guards under mao zedong in the 60s. what they did was just to memorise the little red book, and just harass anyone who was anti-mao. they did that for well over a decade, and when mao died they were already in their 20s, but with no proper educational qualifications nor skills. hence many became jobless, and they were really too old to go back to school. they had wasted their teenage years by not making full use of it.
is that what we want of our own people? if such trends persist i can forsee us having a 'lost generation' of our own. and they might probably turn to crime to survive. hence we might have another problems in our hands. tsk tsk. i shudder to even about my own future, what more of my own people or my own country? reality is just sad.
well, at least from the camp, i've learnt that at least people do still care. and at least my society will still churn out people who will bring benefits, and bring good for all. but these are only a select few. the majority of the soon to be 'lost generation' is still out there, waiting for a reality check, waiting for someone to actually wake them up from their prolonged sleep.
purge them i say! haha. as if.
but first, my last day of work ended on the worst possible note ever. the previous sentence had a pun in there relating to what happened, but i don't want to talk about it haha. but work's finally over, and i get a few days rest now to recharge.
anyways back to the camp. i suppose everyone else had a blast. well i didn't really enjoy myself at the camp, partly due to myself. i was totally invisible during the camp. for much of the camp i was very sleepy, and i just couldn't be as enthusiastic as i would like to have been. haha. but actually i'm really not the kind of person to go for such camps. just doesn't suit my personality i think. haha. but at least i made a few friends. friends that i feel i can talk to with. i still haven't really recovered from the exhaustions of the camp, proven by the fact that this weekend alone was the 1st time i had afternoon naps at home in eons.
but it was fun engaging people, and seeing people interact. at least there was abundance of healthy debates and discussions going on within the group. about our religion, our society, our people. which really stimulates the mind, and opens it up to more interesting viewpoints. sometimes it got so heated because naturally, some would be very emotional with their principles and all. but it was good. i learnt alot from such healthy discussions. in fact i think i've learnt alot about our people and our society over the past 2 years.
of course, no thanks to my ns experience, my workplace and my new school. the people i've met from the 3 places are from totally different types of backgrounds. but it should be good for me, to interact with such people. but of course, i haven't actually seen the real picture yet. but i imagine it to be very sad. especially, the real picture of my own society.
seriously, how can we not agree to the fact that the malay society is the one with the most social problems? as i have argued before, i feel we should call ourselves the malaise instead of the malays. if i am ever going to write a book on my society, it would titled 'the malaise' - so don't copy me. haha. anyways, seriously, we never seem to be able to find solutions to combat such problems. everytime we think we've eradicated a problem, another type emerges. it's really sad. malays score very high in the abortion rates, teenage pregnancy rates, teenage marriages rates, school dropout rates and the list goes on. and them with their nonsensical way of dressing, coupled with their ability to create a ruckus everywhere they go and act as if they are so damn cool. it's a national shame, i feel, that my society is churning out such people who obviously have no future and who don't ever even think about their future. all they care about is looking cool just pushing around baby prams in town, with their 101 piercings on their eyebrows and the list goes on. have you ever wondered why you only see young malay couples pushing prams around or just going out with small kids in town, but never from the other races? i don't know about you, but that really is a startling fact for me.
so what is it with these people?? if i had my way they will be purged sooner rather than later. what a waste to society these people are. to think people are the only resources our country has, and we are churning out such sub-standard ill-mannered people? it's no wonder the government actively tries to recruit foreign talent, because our own people are just not convincing enough. i really can't understand why we have people like this. definitely the household has to bear part of the blame. screwed-up families will naturally produce screwed-up offsprings. but it isn't a curse, is it? surely one can buckle the trend. but sadly alot of such people still choose to carry on with their screwed-up lives.
and this is only just the beginning. if you read history, china has this generation of people called 'the lost generation'. these people were the ones who served as the red guards under mao zedong in the 60s. what they did was just to memorise the little red book, and just harass anyone who was anti-mao. they did that for well over a decade, and when mao died they were already in their 20s, but with no proper educational qualifications nor skills. hence many became jobless, and they were really too old to go back to school. they had wasted their teenage years by not making full use of it.
is that what we want of our own people? if such trends persist i can forsee us having a 'lost generation' of our own. and they might probably turn to crime to survive. hence we might have another problems in our hands. tsk tsk. i shudder to even about my own future, what more of my own people or my own country? reality is just sad.
well, at least from the camp, i've learnt that at least people do still care. and at least my society will still churn out people who will bring benefits, and bring good for all. but these are only a select few. the majority of the soon to be 'lost generation' is still out there, waiting for a reality check, waiting for someone to actually wake them up from their prolonged sleep.
purge them i say! haha. as if.
Saturday, July 14, 2007
bag
the long search for the new bag has finally ended.
after weeks and weeks or searching for a bag, i finally decided on that nike bag that purchased it at vivocity just now. this after so much trouble combing through the streets and shops of kl, jb and places like bugis, orchard and queensway. finally. almost what i wanted, but hey - nothing's ever perfect. and this should probably signal the end of my shopping spree.
honestly i don't think i've bought so many stuff in such a short space of time. like at least 10 new shirts, a bag and 3 pairs of shoes within less than 2 months. is crazy, i know. haha. and i also made a new pair of spectacles the other day at jb. metallic purple and black in colour. haha. to mme it's real nice and cool, but haha i wonder what everyone else will think. i can envision almost everyone saying "why purple!?"
was almost tempted to buy a pair of jeans too with fab just now but just couldn't find the nice 1 with the right size. anyways i don't think i really need jeans too. and fab gave me 2 plain tees for free because he couldn't fit them. my gosh my cupboard will really be packed with so much tops. actually there's still the need 2 buy a new watch but watches area all very pricey, and the prices don't change much. so i guess that will really have to wait.
on another note i'm really lethargic nowadays. after returning to kl i worked for 7 straight days, in between alternating between morning and afternoon shifts. god knows how i managed to pull through. but the good news is i'm resigning. sunday's my last day in fact. so i'm left with tomorrow and sunday to work! after that it''s off to the orientation camp. there's like so much hype around the camp, with people saying it's really gonnna be real fun and all. i'm just like err okay, thanks for the input.
oh and i bought a lenin tee from bugis village just now too. so i've a mao and lenin tee, i'm just left with a stalin tee. haha. they even had a ho chi minh tee selling there. i was like what? it's really weird. though i've yet to see a castro or a kim il sung or kim jong il shirt anywhere. castro would be really cool though, instead of those 2 korean despots. or even ho chi minh for that matter. haha.
leaving my job would be really sad, because of the 5 months i slogged it out there with the rest has been quite an eye-opener. my job really taught me quite a number of things that i previously never gave a hoot about. at least in terms of my ways of thinking, it definitely has an effect there. but ah, there's always the school to look forward to.
on another note.
a friend says my personal life is really like a soap opera.
i really second that.
after weeks and weeks or searching for a bag, i finally decided on that nike bag that purchased it at vivocity just now. this after so much trouble combing through the streets and shops of kl, jb and places like bugis, orchard and queensway. finally. almost what i wanted, but hey - nothing's ever perfect. and this should probably signal the end of my shopping spree.
honestly i don't think i've bought so many stuff in such a short space of time. like at least 10 new shirts, a bag and 3 pairs of shoes within less than 2 months. is crazy, i know. haha. and i also made a new pair of spectacles the other day at jb. metallic purple and black in colour. haha. to mme it's real nice and cool, but haha i wonder what everyone else will think. i can envision almost everyone saying "why purple!?"
was almost tempted to buy a pair of jeans too with fab just now but just couldn't find the nice 1 with the right size. anyways i don't think i really need jeans too. and fab gave me 2 plain tees for free because he couldn't fit them. my gosh my cupboard will really be packed with so much tops. actually there's still the need 2 buy a new watch but watches area all very pricey, and the prices don't change much. so i guess that will really have to wait.
on another note i'm really lethargic nowadays. after returning to kl i worked for 7 straight days, in between alternating between morning and afternoon shifts. god knows how i managed to pull through. but the good news is i'm resigning. sunday's my last day in fact. so i'm left with tomorrow and sunday to work! after that it''s off to the orientation camp. there's like so much hype around the camp, with people saying it's really gonnna be real fun and all. i'm just like err okay, thanks for the input.
oh and i bought a lenin tee from bugis village just now too. so i've a mao and lenin tee, i'm just left with a stalin tee. haha. they even had a ho chi minh tee selling there. i was like what? it's really weird. though i've yet to see a castro or a kim il sung or kim jong il shirt anywhere. castro would be really cool though, instead of those 2 korean despots. or even ho chi minh for that matter. haha.
leaving my job would be really sad, because of the 5 months i slogged it out there with the rest has been quite an eye-opener. my job really taught me quite a number of things that i previously never gave a hoot about. at least in terms of my ways of thinking, it definitely has an effect there. but ah, there's always the school to look forward to.
on another note.
a friend says my personal life is really like a soap opera.
i really second that.
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
re-kl
got back from kl yesterday evening.
and i'm super-duper tired. the exertions of it all caused me to turn up at work with a sleepy face and totally unkempt hair. the colleagues could see the weariness on my face. it doesn't help that i've to work 7 straight days till my next off. if i do pull through, i'm the real deal man. haha.
the trip was okay. it's not like you get to go away for a few days with your friends often. although a lot of cock ups happened but it was still fun. although i only managed to only buy a shirt and a pair of ugly-looking shoes at a combined cost of RM63. but in all i spent around RM335! haha. don't ask me what happened to rest. i'm not too sure myself.
the 1st day was spent at berjaya times square mainly. got to go in the indoor thempark. and the dna mixer ride was real crazy. haha. the ride jus spins you round and round for a few minutes. haha all i know some of the rest felt like throwing up or giddy after that. but me? no! haha. i went through most of the intimidating rides but it was okay. actually i was the 1st one who wanted to back initially, but that was because my stomach wasn't really 100% at the time. then the evening was spent at this club. the live band there rocks man. their opening act was don't matter by akon. i was like what? what kinda band jams don't matter? but anyway the band played all kinds of genre actually. was really great.
the 2nd day we all watched transformers at the imax theatre at the times square. and the movie kicks ass! i'm grateful i never caught it in singapore. the screen was huge! bigger than any screens in singapore, really! and to watch such a movie on such a screen was really mind-blowing. i liked the part when optimus prime stepped on the witwicky's garden fountain and said sorry, my bad. haha. but the whole movie was damn cool. is the best movie i've watched this year. but not say i've watched alot though. and then then evening was spent at petaling street. the last day was spent at the twin towers. i tried to find my sling bag, but it was in vain. we ended up missing the 4pm bus and had to fork out extra to take the 5pm one.
but overall it was fun. thanks to my friends, and thanks to our other friends in kl who brought us around. i still have RM100 with me which i'm really itching to spend.
on another note.
lately i feel i've gone through alot. it's taken a toll on me, mentally. sometimes i ask myself why must things always pan out this way. sometimes it's always been a case of so near yet so far. i also feel drained phsyically. it doesn't help that i've lost 5kg since i started working. i look more gaunt and scrawny now. i hope i will start school with a blast and have fun there.
although in the past i have always started school with a troubled state of mind.
and i'm super-duper tired. the exertions of it all caused me to turn up at work with a sleepy face and totally unkempt hair. the colleagues could see the weariness on my face. it doesn't help that i've to work 7 straight days till my next off. if i do pull through, i'm the real deal man. haha.
the trip was okay. it's not like you get to go away for a few days with your friends often. although a lot of cock ups happened but it was still fun. although i only managed to only buy a shirt and a pair of ugly-looking shoes at a combined cost of RM63. but in all i spent around RM335! haha. don't ask me what happened to rest. i'm not too sure myself.
the 1st day was spent at berjaya times square mainly. got to go in the indoor thempark. and the dna mixer ride was real crazy. haha. the ride jus spins you round and round for a few minutes. haha all i know some of the rest felt like throwing up or giddy after that. but me? no! haha. i went through most of the intimidating rides but it was okay. actually i was the 1st one who wanted to back initially, but that was because my stomach wasn't really 100% at the time. then the evening was spent at this club. the live band there rocks man. their opening act was don't matter by akon. i was like what? what kinda band jams don't matter? but anyway the band played all kinds of genre actually. was really great.
the 2nd day we all watched transformers at the imax theatre at the times square. and the movie kicks ass! i'm grateful i never caught it in singapore. the screen was huge! bigger than any screens in singapore, really! and to watch such a movie on such a screen was really mind-blowing. i liked the part when optimus prime stepped on the witwicky's garden fountain and said sorry, my bad. haha. but the whole movie was damn cool. is the best movie i've watched this year. but not say i've watched alot though. and then then evening was spent at petaling street. the last day was spent at the twin towers. i tried to find my sling bag, but it was in vain. we ended up missing the 4pm bus and had to fork out extra to take the 5pm one.
but overall it was fun. thanks to my friends, and thanks to our other friends in kl who brought us around. i still have RM100 with me which i'm really itching to spend.
on another note.
lately i feel i've gone through alot. it's taken a toll on me, mentally. sometimes i ask myself why must things always pan out this way. sometimes it's always been a case of so near yet so far. i also feel drained phsyically. it doesn't help that i've lost 5kg since i started working. i look more gaunt and scrawny now. i hope i will start school with a blast and have fun there.
although in the past i have always started school with a troubled state of mind.
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
shop
these days i'm only into one thing - shopping.
basically all my off days or time after work is spent on shopping.
since my kl trip, i've already bought 3 tops and 2 pair of shoes. and before i head off to kl again next week i expect to buy another 1 or 2 more tops. then at kl i shall shop for maybe another pair of shoes, a bag and more tops? haha. and also a new watch. i don't know if i need to get new jeans. actually i don't need to, i just need to alter my exisiting ones and this one that i've not worn yet. oh there's still the pair of spectacles that i need to make.
the things i do just to prepare myself for school. i'm amazed.
so now i've like 4 sneakers, a pair of running shoes, 4 (or 5?) pairs of jeans and a whole lot of tops. but i expect to have even more tops.
can't wait to go kl again so soon. this time with the gang. and finally get to visit my friend over in kl! and shop till i drop. i doubt the gst offset package is even enough for my shopping expenses, at the rate i'm going at.
so my retirement (resignation actually, haha) date has been set. after retiring, i shall probably spend the rest of the days cleaning up the mess in my room. which has never witnessed a major clean up ever since we shifted in here around 7 years ago. haha.
then they ask me to join some orientation camp. i'm rather cool on it, but i'll see how things go. then that 1 time huge class gathering at the end of the month that i'm planning for, and then get ready to enter school again.
i really can't wait for school to start. can't wait to experience the feeling of just going to school, just sitting in lectures etc. call me crazy if you want but i've missed that feeling for over 2 years already.
nowadays i just can't be bothered with things anymore. who cares. fcuk it, as what i saw on a shirt at the french connection shop. i'll just carry on with my own life and do my own things and just bloody care about myself. at least when i shop for myself, i feel good. haha.
pardon me if i exhibit female characteristics. but i assure you, i'm definitely not gay.
but gay as in happy - a definite yes.
basically all my off days or time after work is spent on shopping.
since my kl trip, i've already bought 3 tops and 2 pair of shoes. and before i head off to kl again next week i expect to buy another 1 or 2 more tops. then at kl i shall shop for maybe another pair of shoes, a bag and more tops? haha. and also a new watch. i don't know if i need to get new jeans. actually i don't need to, i just need to alter my exisiting ones and this one that i've not worn yet. oh there's still the pair of spectacles that i need to make.
the things i do just to prepare myself for school. i'm amazed.
so now i've like 4 sneakers, a pair of running shoes, 4 (or 5?) pairs of jeans and a whole lot of tops. but i expect to have even more tops.
can't wait to go kl again so soon. this time with the gang. and finally get to visit my friend over in kl! and shop till i drop. i doubt the gst offset package is even enough for my shopping expenses, at the rate i'm going at.
so my retirement (resignation actually, haha) date has been set. after retiring, i shall probably spend the rest of the days cleaning up the mess in my room. which has never witnessed a major clean up ever since we shifted in here around 7 years ago. haha.
then they ask me to join some orientation camp. i'm rather cool on it, but i'll see how things go. then that 1 time huge class gathering at the end of the month that i'm planning for, and then get ready to enter school again.
i really can't wait for school to start. can't wait to experience the feeling of just going to school, just sitting in lectures etc. call me crazy if you want but i've missed that feeling for over 2 years already.
nowadays i just can't be bothered with things anymore. who cares. fcuk it, as what i saw on a shirt at the french connection shop. i'll just carry on with my own life and do my own things and just bloody care about myself. at least when i shop for myself, i feel good. haha.
pardon me if i exhibit female characteristics. but i assure you, i'm definitely not gay.
but gay as in happy - a definite yes.
Sunday, June 17, 2007
kl
my trip to kl sucked to the core.
1st day, saturday, was spent at the uncle's place, somewhere outside of kl. then the 2nd day, visited a family friend and shopped just abit only. then the problems all started.
kl flooded on sunday night. but by that time, we were already at the hotel area but it wasn't flooded. although at 10pm a blackout occurred, which was corrected only at 130am. then the whole of monday was spent rotting away in the hotel room. the reason - my whole family was down with fever and flu and cough. i was the only okay one, but i wasn't allowed to go out on my own. only on tuesday did i properly shop. and then wednesday back home. a completely uninspiring holiday which i would rather shop. overall, i only spent on a grand total of 2 pathetic tops.
yesterday dined with clare, and just talked away the whole night. been a very long time since i last talked to clare. it was fun. then i just got back from iza's birthday party. just took the car out and drive around like nobody's business too.
i'm very tired nowadays. because i always sleep late. and at kl, we rested quite alot but i always had trouble falling asleep. because my mind is not at peace.
its really distressing.
i wonder why somethings just couldn't be much more straightforward.
1st day, saturday, was spent at the uncle's place, somewhere outside of kl. then the 2nd day, visited a family friend and shopped just abit only. then the problems all started.
kl flooded on sunday night. but by that time, we were already at the hotel area but it wasn't flooded. although at 10pm a blackout occurred, which was corrected only at 130am. then the whole of monday was spent rotting away in the hotel room. the reason - my whole family was down with fever and flu and cough. i was the only okay one, but i wasn't allowed to go out on my own. only on tuesday did i properly shop. and then wednesday back home. a completely uninspiring holiday which i would rather shop. overall, i only spent on a grand total of 2 pathetic tops.
yesterday dined with clare, and just talked away the whole night. been a very long time since i last talked to clare. it was fun. then i just got back from iza's birthday party. just took the car out and drive around like nobody's business too.
i'm very tired nowadays. because i always sleep late. and at kl, we rested quite alot but i always had trouble falling asleep. because my mind is not at peace.
its really distressing.
i wonder why somethings just couldn't be much more straightforward.
Friday, June 08, 2007
kl
tomorrow i'm off to KL! so basically i'll be virtually uncontactable for the next 5 days or so.
it's been awhile since i had a proper holiday. think if i were to count taiwan as the last one, that was more than half a year ago. so i guess i'll be spending away my hard-earned money. alot of things to shop for there, although i would arrive too early for the nationwide sales period.
sent the aunt off on her minor pilgrimage trip to the holy city last wednesday morning. damn tired because i got back at almost 5am. i remember my trip to the holy land there. exactly 7 years ago. simply astounding. just praying in front of the kaabah is an experience to cherish. imagine, around 1.2 billion moslems (maybe you can count out over half of the malays in singapore) praying to the kaabah every single day, and suddenly one gets a chance to pray exactly right in front of it. especially the dusk prayers. i remember birds circling the kaabah. if i wasn't mistaken, they were crows. and crows usually make one hell of a ruckus with their homies. but they just flew around encircling the kaabah noiselessly, as if they knew they just had to shut their traps. simply amazing. a scene i still remember clearly.
someday i shall visit the holy land again. on top of that, for all the wonders of the world, there are also 4 other places i would like visit. firstly jerusalem. i've been there before, and it really is among the most beautiful of cities. i remember standing on top of this bibilical site called the mount of olives. really beautiful. i looked down the view was really magnificent. it overlooks jerusalem and the city looks really wonderful from there. and across from the mount of olives, i could see the al-aqsa mosque, and the famous dome of the rock. and the city itself is beautiful, rich in culture and history. i managed to visit bethlehem, the tomb of king david, the tomb of moses, the western wall and other historically rich places. and i have stepped into the dead sea before! i remember i had a cut at my foot so it did hurt just a little bit. though i never tested to see if i could really float. haha. someday i shall go there again.
moscow is another place on my list. has to do with my fascination with its communist legacy. maybe st. petersburg too. i want to see the kremlin, the red square, and the museums rich in history of communism. berlin too. berlin is a beautiful city, and i would also like to see the remains of the berlin wall, and delve into the history of the nazi era (if they still have relics from that era). london too, for its beautiful setting, and its famous landmarks. and not to mention, probably catch a match at the emirates stadium. just too bad highbury is history.
alot of places to travel to, and alot of money needed! haha. personally if you notice, i of course appreciate places rich in history that i have interests in. natural sights are a sight to behold, say niagara falls etc - but i would rather appreciate buildings, sites, relics that have to do with human history. and america doesn't interest me that much so heck. i hope i can really visit all these 5 places in my lifetime.
dear God, grant me a very well-paying job so as to fulfil my dreams!
for now, it's KL for me it seems. haha.
till next week then.
it's been awhile since i had a proper holiday. think if i were to count taiwan as the last one, that was more than half a year ago. so i guess i'll be spending away my hard-earned money. alot of things to shop for there, although i would arrive too early for the nationwide sales period.
sent the aunt off on her minor pilgrimage trip to the holy city last wednesday morning. damn tired because i got back at almost 5am. i remember my trip to the holy land there. exactly 7 years ago. simply astounding. just praying in front of the kaabah is an experience to cherish. imagine, around 1.2 billion moslems (maybe you can count out over half of the malays in singapore) praying to the kaabah every single day, and suddenly one gets a chance to pray exactly right in front of it. especially the dusk prayers. i remember birds circling the kaabah. if i wasn't mistaken, they were crows. and crows usually make one hell of a ruckus with their homies. but they just flew around encircling the kaabah noiselessly, as if they knew they just had to shut their traps. simply amazing. a scene i still remember clearly.
someday i shall visit the holy land again. on top of that, for all the wonders of the world, there are also 4 other places i would like visit. firstly jerusalem. i've been there before, and it really is among the most beautiful of cities. i remember standing on top of this bibilical site called the mount of olives. really beautiful. i looked down the view was really magnificent. it overlooks jerusalem and the city looks really wonderful from there. and across from the mount of olives, i could see the al-aqsa mosque, and the famous dome of the rock. and the city itself is beautiful, rich in culture and history. i managed to visit bethlehem, the tomb of king david, the tomb of moses, the western wall and other historically rich places. and i have stepped into the dead sea before! i remember i had a cut at my foot so it did hurt just a little bit. though i never tested to see if i could really float. haha. someday i shall go there again.
moscow is another place on my list. has to do with my fascination with its communist legacy. maybe st. petersburg too. i want to see the kremlin, the red square, and the museums rich in history of communism. berlin too. berlin is a beautiful city, and i would also like to see the remains of the berlin wall, and delve into the history of the nazi era (if they still have relics from that era). london too, for its beautiful setting, and its famous landmarks. and not to mention, probably catch a match at the emirates stadium. just too bad highbury is history.
alot of places to travel to, and alot of money needed! haha. personally if you notice, i of course appreciate places rich in history that i have interests in. natural sights are a sight to behold, say niagara falls etc - but i would rather appreciate buildings, sites, relics that have to do with human history. and america doesn't interest me that much so heck. i hope i can really visit all these 5 places in my lifetime.
dear God, grant me a very well-paying job so as to fulfil my dreams!
for now, it's KL for me it seems. haha.
till next week then.
Monday, June 04, 2007
hair
so the so-called last step to the revamp of my computer system has been put in place.
now the whole system is totally different from the last one i had. so stage 3 is complete. although the next thing i might upgrade in the future is the CPU, but it won't come so soon. but im contented with my system so far. it's not the best, but at least it's stable and adequate to meed my needs.
went to the PC show with jj. got some speakers and a new keyboard and mouse set. and i decided against investing in a laptop so soon. and kept running into alot of my ex-recruits. tsk tsk.
ah got alot of things to do this month. got a show im supposed to catch, a party im supposed to attend, and KL! haha. gonna get e car keys in 2 days' time but ah i won't have so much time driving it around anyways.
dear you,
nowadays i don't feel so frustrated about it all anymore. but i really don't know. my mind is so confused about everything. i want to bring it up to you, but i've no courage at all.
what would you see or would have seen in me anyway?
now the whole system is totally different from the last one i had. so stage 3 is complete. although the next thing i might upgrade in the future is the CPU, but it won't come so soon. but im contented with my system so far. it's not the best, but at least it's stable and adequate to meed my needs.
went to the PC show with jj. got some speakers and a new keyboard and mouse set. and i decided against investing in a laptop so soon. and kept running into alot of my ex-recruits. tsk tsk.
ah got alot of things to do this month. got a show im supposed to catch, a party im supposed to attend, and KL! haha. gonna get e car keys in 2 days' time but ah i won't have so much time driving it around anyways.
dear you,
nowadays i don't feel so frustrated about it all anymore. but i really don't know. my mind is so confused about everything. i want to bring it up to you, but i've no courage at all.
what would you see or would have seen in me anyway?
Thursday, May 31, 2007
f up
i feel damn f**ked up right now.
it's as if it's like back to 3 years ago.
sometimes i just feel like dropping everything at once and just stone there.
someone help me get out of my misery.
it's as if it's like back to 3 years ago.
sometimes i just feel like dropping everything at once and just stone there.
someone help me get out of my misery.
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
mp3
finally got that mp3 player that i've been wanting to have.
henceforth no more vapid trips to and fro from work anymore! got it at the creative warehouse sale. the zen v plus for 239 bucks, at 4GB. well as long as it works for me, i'm fine with it. even though i don't really fancy the interface that much. i still prefer my old zen micro! although it's really really outdated now.
bought it on saturday, after the lunch session with the guys at pizza hut. supposed to celebrate ramli's birthday, it was. at least i did something fruitful on my last saturday off. never quite managed to go to the gym.
like today. was supposed to hit the gym, but as always, the key word here is supposed. what i did today was just to go out and get my hair cut (a drastic one at that!) and then meet up with sarah for dinner. and talked alot of things. real personal.
recently i've really done alot of talking. alot of yakking with other people. which is really good for me these days, since it really keeps me sane. haha. but conversations have been good. like the other day, with tyan and sarah. combined with that, a badminton game after work. rushed all the way to god-forsaken hougang just to play badminton for a freaking hour. but it was nice, meeting up old friends and just talk. i'm left out of alot of things it seems.
and meeting up with liz, shaz and hadi on friday night. and just yak the whole night away over coffee . then that saturday, yak away with my dearest so called 3rd cousin na'im during the bus ride home.
i don't know, but it seems alot of people are having a tumultous time with regards to their love life. ah it seems to be that time of the year again where people's hearts are just going through testing times. tsk tsk. wonder when all this will end for us all.
on top of that, i've really got alot of things to do. like clean up my room. and cleaning out my closet. not to mention, finishing up the whose line is it anyway cds that i borrowed from shaz. i can proudly say its more than halfway done, and probably around almost 4 years of whose line left to watch. (give me a break man, the show ran on for 8 freaking years!) and the whole of season 1 lost dvds from fab, which i'll probably give back to him when i graduate. and the 1st 2 seasons of prison break courtesy of ali, which i probably won't watch anytime soon. and those whole stacks of books i keep buying and buying, but they just end up sitting pretty on my desk and yellow with age.
can't wait to see the horrified faces of everyone starting tomorrow!haha.
this is an entry with totally no purpose, i admit.
henceforth no more vapid trips to and fro from work anymore! got it at the creative warehouse sale. the zen v plus for 239 bucks, at 4GB. well as long as it works for me, i'm fine with it. even though i don't really fancy the interface that much. i still prefer my old zen micro! although it's really really outdated now.
bought it on saturday, after the lunch session with the guys at pizza hut. supposed to celebrate ramli's birthday, it was. at least i did something fruitful on my last saturday off. never quite managed to go to the gym.
like today. was supposed to hit the gym, but as always, the key word here is supposed. what i did today was just to go out and get my hair cut (a drastic one at that!) and then meet up with sarah for dinner. and talked alot of things. real personal.
recently i've really done alot of talking. alot of yakking with other people. which is really good for me these days, since it really keeps me sane. haha. but conversations have been good. like the other day, with tyan and sarah. combined with that, a badminton game after work. rushed all the way to god-forsaken hougang just to play badminton for a freaking hour. but it was nice, meeting up old friends and just talk. i'm left out of alot of things it seems.
and meeting up with liz, shaz and hadi on friday night. and just yak the whole night away over coffee . then that saturday, yak away with my dearest so called 3rd cousin na'im during the bus ride home.
i don't know, but it seems alot of people are having a tumultous time with regards to their love life. ah it seems to be that time of the year again where people's hearts are just going through testing times. tsk tsk. wonder when all this will end for us all.
on top of that, i've really got alot of things to do. like clean up my room. and cleaning out my closet. not to mention, finishing up the whose line is it anyway cds that i borrowed from shaz. i can proudly say its more than halfway done, and probably around almost 4 years of whose line left to watch. (give me a break man, the show ran on for 8 freaking years!) and the whole of season 1 lost dvds from fab, which i'll probably give back to him when i graduate. and the 1st 2 seasons of prison break courtesy of ali, which i probably won't watch anytime soon. and those whole stacks of books i keep buying and buying, but they just end up sitting pretty on my desk and yellow with age.
can't wait to see the horrified faces of everyone starting tomorrow!haha.
this is an entry with totally no purpose, i admit.
Sunday, May 20, 2007
gym
today i went to the gym.
the last time i did that, was more than half a year ago.
me and hadi were up for gym since last night, and the girls liz and shaz wanted to tag along. haha. i really needed a workout since leaving my job as the defender of the fatherland a few months back. my body's very frail actually. but the workout at the bukit gombak gym was okay. i think tomorrow then my arms will ache as hell.
yesterday i was supposed to watch the fa cup final. thank goodness i didn't. it was such a bore, apparently. luckily fab said he was lazy. so i managed to meet up with hadi, and shaz and liz later on, followed by lin. had ben & jerry's first. haha so i've actually broken my virginity with regards to ben & jerry's. but seriously, what's the hype all about it? the taste isn't as spectacular as i thought it would be. after that went to have satay under the stars at lau pa sat, and managed to catch drogba's goal at the end. and then this funny thing happened.
we got to the car to head home, then there was this lizard that entered the car when we opened the doors. so the girls were screaming away, and i took my bag out to also check whether it was inside. then after lin said he saw the lizard scurry out of the car, we just got in the car quickly. inside then i remember i had left the drinks on the railings of the carpark, so i quickly exited and took them back in the car. so we drove off.
then at the cashcard gantry as hadi stopped, there was this security guard running towards the car and waving at us frantically. hadi lowered down the screen and the guard told him - "hey, there's a bag on top of the car!"
haha stupid me forgot to put back the bag under my seat after checking it for the lizard. i just absent-mindedly left it on top of the car! haha. and to think i could remember that i left the drinks behind but not my dearest deutschland sling bag. on top of the car, at that! we could have driven through the CTE still with my bag on top of it. maybe when hadi braked hard, and then the bag would have fallen forward on top of the bonnet. haha that was real funny but really stupid and absent-minded of me. god knows what would have happened if the guard never spotted it in the first place.
on another note.
i'm still bogged down with this 1 huge ass of a problem.
dear you,
all i need is just some time with you. there's certain things i need to talk to you about. i hope you understand.
i still need you.
the last time i did that, was more than half a year ago.
me and hadi were up for gym since last night, and the girls liz and shaz wanted to tag along. haha. i really needed a workout since leaving my job as the defender of the fatherland a few months back. my body's very frail actually. but the workout at the bukit gombak gym was okay. i think tomorrow then my arms will ache as hell.
yesterday i was supposed to watch the fa cup final. thank goodness i didn't. it was such a bore, apparently. luckily fab said he was lazy. so i managed to meet up with hadi, and shaz and liz later on, followed by lin. had ben & jerry's first. haha so i've actually broken my virginity with regards to ben & jerry's. but seriously, what's the hype all about it? the taste isn't as spectacular as i thought it would be. after that went to have satay under the stars at lau pa sat, and managed to catch drogba's goal at the end. and then this funny thing happened.
we got to the car to head home, then there was this lizard that entered the car when we opened the doors. so the girls were screaming away, and i took my bag out to also check whether it was inside. then after lin said he saw the lizard scurry out of the car, we just got in the car quickly. inside then i remember i had left the drinks on the railings of the carpark, so i quickly exited and took them back in the car. so we drove off.
then at the cashcard gantry as hadi stopped, there was this security guard running towards the car and waving at us frantically. hadi lowered down the screen and the guard told him - "hey, there's a bag on top of the car!"
haha stupid me forgot to put back the bag under my seat after checking it for the lizard. i just absent-mindedly left it on top of the car! haha. and to think i could remember that i left the drinks behind but not my dearest deutschland sling bag. on top of the car, at that! we could have driven through the CTE still with my bag on top of it. maybe when hadi braked hard, and then the bag would have fallen forward on top of the bonnet. haha that was real funny but really stupid and absent-minded of me. god knows what would have happened if the guard never spotted it in the first place.
on another note.
i'm still bogged down with this 1 huge ass of a problem.
dear you,
all i need is just some time with you. there's certain things i need to talk to you about. i hope you understand.
i still need you.
Sunday, May 13, 2007
return
today i mourn the loss of my friend.
the late isz sazli bin sapari. if you've read the news on the taiwanese fighter jet plane crash, the name might sound a bell. yes, he was 1 of 2 to be killed on that tragedy. when i first came to know of it i was really dumbfounded. even till now i feel sad that things had to turn out this way. it's a real big shock to all of us.
i admit i wasn't close to him. but in school, he used to mixed around with us often, despite he being the junior batch. despite us always bullying him, he still wanted to mix around with us. frankly speaking, he's a real down to earth guy. not your typical malay type, he's really earnest and really zesty at times. i can still remember how he sounds like, although the last time i spoke to him was more than a year ago.
and suddenly this happens. i actually cried just thinking of him just now and praying to God for him. we are all so saddened and shocked by this. how would they answer to his parents? i feel that it's real sad that he died this way. so what if he died with full military honours at his burial? one can't bring him back. i will surely miss talking to him.
yesterday i just couldn't sleep. spent freaking 3 hours jus tossing and turning around in bed before i could get some sleep. when i tossed to one side, all i could think of was isz and whatever happened in the past. when i tossed to the other side, the other major issue i'm facing now came to my mind. the 2 issues kept running through my mind back and forth, so much so i really felt so strained trying to fall asleep last night. frankly speaking i've never really felt so mentally strained in quite a long time.
errgh. actually i need someone to talk to now? preferably a female companion?haha. but seriously. my mind's so bogged up now and the more i think the more frustrated and exasperated i get. the normal me would usually just chuck it all aside and concentrate, but nowadays i really can't. i feel so affected, i'm really at a loss. then the news of isz's death filters through. makes my head spin.
dear you,
actually i need to talk to you now. but from what i see, there doesn't seem to be time for that nowadays. if you are reading is, all i can tell you i'm really confused. my mind is so blank and i really can't see the light. tell me if i was wrong, because as you know, i am stupid, blur and naive.
i need you.
the late isz sazli bin sapari. if you've read the news on the taiwanese fighter jet plane crash, the name might sound a bell. yes, he was 1 of 2 to be killed on that tragedy. when i first came to know of it i was really dumbfounded. even till now i feel sad that things had to turn out this way. it's a real big shock to all of us.
i admit i wasn't close to him. but in school, he used to mixed around with us often, despite he being the junior batch. despite us always bullying him, he still wanted to mix around with us. frankly speaking, he's a real down to earth guy. not your typical malay type, he's really earnest and really zesty at times. i can still remember how he sounds like, although the last time i spoke to him was more than a year ago.
and suddenly this happens. i actually cried just thinking of him just now and praying to God for him. we are all so saddened and shocked by this. how would they answer to his parents? i feel that it's real sad that he died this way. so what if he died with full military honours at his burial? one can't bring him back. i will surely miss talking to him.
yesterday i just couldn't sleep. spent freaking 3 hours jus tossing and turning around in bed before i could get some sleep. when i tossed to one side, all i could think of was isz and whatever happened in the past. when i tossed to the other side, the other major issue i'm facing now came to my mind. the 2 issues kept running through my mind back and forth, so much so i really felt so strained trying to fall asleep last night. frankly speaking i've never really felt so mentally strained in quite a long time.
errgh. actually i need someone to talk to now? preferably a female companion?haha. but seriously. my mind's so bogged up now and the more i think the more frustrated and exasperated i get. the normal me would usually just chuck it all aside and concentrate, but nowadays i really can't. i feel so affected, i'm really at a loss. then the news of isz's death filters through. makes my head spin.
dear you,
actually i need to talk to you now. but from what i see, there doesn't seem to be time for that nowadays. if you are reading is, all i can tell you i'm really confused. my mind is so blank and i really can't see the light. tell me if i was wrong, because as you know, i am stupid, blur and naive.
i need you.
Friday, May 04, 2007
spidey
suddenly i just felt like blogging.
earlier this week work has really weighed me down. stress is one thing, the sheer fatigue of it all is another. i feel i am showing signs of disgruntlement nowadays. 1 fine day i fear, i shall really explode.
on another note i've had 2 days off straight, on wednesday and today. now i feel so lazy to want to go back to work tomorrow. wednesday was spent with yan. lunched and then slacked around at the harbourfront area. today (or rather yesterday) was spent w/ jj and fab. had tau hui at the rochor aread before catching a movie. spider-man 3 was the order of the day! my suggestion it was.
luckily i suggested catching it, since we hadn't any proper plans to do actually. being the non-movie buff i mean, i'm not ashamed to say i've actually never caught the first 2 installments of the movie. yes call me a loser for all i care. anyway being the naive me, i thought the movie would last around a 100minutes. well i didn't know it was 2 and a half hours long. and halfway an annoying thing happened.
it was already 1 and a half hours into the movie. my seat was near the left aisle of the theatre. suddenly out of nowhere these 5 male jc students in their uniform appeared out of the blue and were standing on the aisle just outside of my row. then they were discussing something, and they said out loud to me and my friends that we had taken up their seats.
what the hell? it's already more than halfway through the show and you don't just come in and try to shoo others away. they did just that. one had the cheek to say do you mind moving away 'cause you've taken up our seats. i made quite a big fuss over it, and then suddenly one of them turned smart just like that and realised they were in the wrong theatre altogether.
and guess what? NONE even said sorry.
how rude can one get? they had already tried to act ya-ya but trying to chase me out of my seats, and thinking i had nothing better than to take other peoples' seats. they had already disturbed me while watching the show. and to top it all of, not even a hint of regret or remorse by saying sorry.
even till now i'm quite peeved at it actually. so rude and uncivilised of them. making a scene in the middle of a show and yet not wanting to say sorry or anything of that sort. seriously, how rude can 1 get?
i think kids nowadays are just immoral. totally don't know how to act their age and show some dignity and basic kindness. whatever happened to the old age values and morals our forefathers used to preach in the days of yesteryear? seems that they wilt away in time.
ah, the youths of today. they can't wait to be adults as soon as possible, but when they reach adulthood they wished it couldn't have come so soon.
earlier this week work has really weighed me down. stress is one thing, the sheer fatigue of it all is another. i feel i am showing signs of disgruntlement nowadays. 1 fine day i fear, i shall really explode.
on another note i've had 2 days off straight, on wednesday and today. now i feel so lazy to want to go back to work tomorrow. wednesday was spent with yan. lunched and then slacked around at the harbourfront area. today (or rather yesterday) was spent w/ jj and fab. had tau hui at the rochor aread before catching a movie. spider-man 3 was the order of the day! my suggestion it was.
luckily i suggested catching it, since we hadn't any proper plans to do actually. being the non-movie buff i mean, i'm not ashamed to say i've actually never caught the first 2 installments of the movie. yes call me a loser for all i care. anyway being the naive me, i thought the movie would last around a 100minutes. well i didn't know it was 2 and a half hours long. and halfway an annoying thing happened.
it was already 1 and a half hours into the movie. my seat was near the left aisle of the theatre. suddenly out of nowhere these 5 male jc students in their uniform appeared out of the blue and were standing on the aisle just outside of my row. then they were discussing something, and they said out loud to me and my friends that we had taken up their seats.
what the hell? it's already more than halfway through the show and you don't just come in and try to shoo others away. they did just that. one had the cheek to say do you mind moving away 'cause you've taken up our seats. i made quite a big fuss over it, and then suddenly one of them turned smart just like that and realised they were in the wrong theatre altogether.
and guess what? NONE even said sorry.
how rude can one get? they had already tried to act ya-ya but trying to chase me out of my seats, and thinking i had nothing better than to take other peoples' seats. they had already disturbed me while watching the show. and to top it all of, not even a hint of regret or remorse by saying sorry.
even till now i'm quite peeved at it actually. so rude and uncivilised of them. making a scene in the middle of a show and yet not wanting to say sorry or anything of that sort. seriously, how rude can 1 get?
i think kids nowadays are just immoral. totally don't know how to act their age and show some dignity and basic kindness. whatever happened to the old age values and morals our forefathers used to preach in the days of yesteryear? seems that they wilt away in time.
ah, the youths of today. they can't wait to be adults as soon as possible, but when they reach adulthood they wished it couldn't have come so soon.
Friday, April 27, 2007
sleep deprivation
maybe you've read about how people get tortured through sleep deprivation.
yesterday i had a very amazing incident at night.
it was just past 12 and i was extremely sleepy. my eyes were so heavy and it was obvious i was ready to tuck in for the nite. i switched off the computer and then left my chair.
the moment i stepped forward, in my state of sheer fatigue i suddenly somehow just collapsed to the floor.
i then pulled myself together and then jus slumped myself on my bed.
come to think of it,now i feel it was quite a scary moment.
only once in my life have i fainted (all the way back in secondary 2), but yesterday i felt like it was more of me being too tired so much so that my legs just couldn't carry my body weight anymore. that's how i felt about it. but on hindsight it was rather scary actually. although i know the source of my extreme fatigue.
it was the manchester united-ac milan match the day before. i was already tired from work and from the lack of sleep in the past few days. but that night i stayed up to watch till 430am. at least the game had 5 goals. thn by 8am i was already up ready to go to work. surprisingly i didn't feel tired at work, but i could feel the fatigue when i reached home. and it all culminated in the collapse later at night. although i did get 12 hours of sleep following that.
on another note just now was the 1st time i've been to holland village! call me a loser if you want but hey, no one's ever asked me to come down to holland village before. i must say though, it's quite a nice place to hang out at night. there's this certain calmness, coolnes and serenity about the place, and to think its smack in the middle of a housing estate. i believe it's a nice place to hang out once i start school soon.
on yet another note, so much for the hype on the kl trip. apparently no one is enthusiastic about it, so it's all gone up in smoke. i'm rather disappoited about it, but what can you do when no one really seems to be up for it? then pulau ubin it is, according to them, although i'll wager that it won't happen either.
and work's really getting more stressful nowadays. one day i might just blow up in the face of a customer. i'm really restraining myself nowadays.
yesterday i had a very amazing incident at night.
it was just past 12 and i was extremely sleepy. my eyes were so heavy and it was obvious i was ready to tuck in for the nite. i switched off the computer and then left my chair.
the moment i stepped forward, in my state of sheer fatigue i suddenly somehow just collapsed to the floor.
i then pulled myself together and then jus slumped myself on my bed.
come to think of it,now i feel it was quite a scary moment.
only once in my life have i fainted (all the way back in secondary 2), but yesterday i felt like it was more of me being too tired so much so that my legs just couldn't carry my body weight anymore. that's how i felt about it. but on hindsight it was rather scary actually. although i know the source of my extreme fatigue.
it was the manchester united-ac milan match the day before. i was already tired from work and from the lack of sleep in the past few days. but that night i stayed up to watch till 430am. at least the game had 5 goals. thn by 8am i was already up ready to go to work. surprisingly i didn't feel tired at work, but i could feel the fatigue when i reached home. and it all culminated in the collapse later at night. although i did get 12 hours of sleep following that.
on another note just now was the 1st time i've been to holland village! call me a loser if you want but hey, no one's ever asked me to come down to holland village before. i must say though, it's quite a nice place to hang out at night. there's this certain calmness, coolnes and serenity about the place, and to think its smack in the middle of a housing estate. i believe it's a nice place to hang out once i start school soon.
on yet another note, so much for the hype on the kl trip. apparently no one is enthusiastic about it, so it's all gone up in smoke. i'm rather disappoited about it, but what can you do when no one really seems to be up for it? then pulau ubin it is, according to them, although i'll wager that it won't happen either.
and work's really getting more stressful nowadays. one day i might just blow up in the face of a customer. i'm really restraining myself nowadays.
Monday, April 16, 2007
reunion wk
the past week has been a reunion of sorts for me.
every now and then i keep running into people from my past.
it all started off with that day i went to work early, i ran into ashraf, or rather 'bob', on the way to work in the train. then the ex-army colleagues on the way while walking to work. then even during lunchtime and afterwork, even more army colleagues. and even zai, the secondary school friend.
friday was no different. after work i ran into nick! then on the way to orchard mrt met more ex-army colleagues. then at the mrt station i ran into liz, and basically my plans for the night completely changed after that. instead of being the good boy and go home straight after work me,liz n hadi had dinner and then coffee.
saturday night too, was spent with them. and fazlin too. at boat quay, eating ice cream! and jus now, was dinner with the jc friends at causeway point.
alot of reunions, alot of catching up to do!
oh why i ran into so many of my ex-army colleagues was because just outside of my workplace, there's this NS fair which was celebrating the 40 years of NS. so alot of them were involved in the on-the-ground work.
and the word is i'm gonna be transferred to another department at my workplace. as much as i still loathe the sight of pots, pans and porcelain, i feel happy there. i like working there actually, in fact. i feel i get along fine with the staff. the pay is pathetic, i know, but hey, some people earns alot at their work but their lives can still be as miserable as ever. at least i know even if i'm not happy, i can say i'm contented at the least.
but i'm rather disappointed to be hearing that i'm gonna be transferred. the way i see it, i don't have colleagues that are as crazy as the ones i have now. and i really don't wan to make friends all over again, and make colleagues, when i'm just gonna be there for like just over a month more? to me it's not worth it at all. not worth it.
but kent's tendered his resignation, so i hope the HR department would seriously rethink their decision! the reason i'm being transferred out is because they're gonna have a new permanent staff coming in. i'm like so what? if kent's gone and they transfer me out, the department would be slightly handicapped you know. i hope i don't get transferred out. and such news really travels fast. even some of the promoters have got wind of it. and some think i requested for it! tsk tsk.
kent's resignation has given me hope i feel. haha. seriously, i'm quitting in the end of may, earliest. i don't see why they should transfer me out. it all depends.
so many uncertainties now, even about the kl trip. tsk tsk.
i need to get things going!
every now and then i keep running into people from my past.
it all started off with that day i went to work early, i ran into ashraf, or rather 'bob', on the way to work in the train. then the ex-army colleagues on the way while walking to work. then even during lunchtime and afterwork, even more army colleagues. and even zai, the secondary school friend.
friday was no different. after work i ran into nick! then on the way to orchard mrt met more ex-army colleagues. then at the mrt station i ran into liz, and basically my plans for the night completely changed after that. instead of being the good boy and go home straight after work me,liz n hadi had dinner and then coffee.
saturday night too, was spent with them. and fazlin too. at boat quay, eating ice cream! and jus now, was dinner with the jc friends at causeway point.
alot of reunions, alot of catching up to do!
oh why i ran into so many of my ex-army colleagues was because just outside of my workplace, there's this NS fair which was celebrating the 40 years of NS. so alot of them were involved in the on-the-ground work.
and the word is i'm gonna be transferred to another department at my workplace. as much as i still loathe the sight of pots, pans and porcelain, i feel happy there. i like working there actually, in fact. i feel i get along fine with the staff. the pay is pathetic, i know, but hey, some people earns alot at their work but their lives can still be as miserable as ever. at least i know even if i'm not happy, i can say i'm contented at the least.
but i'm rather disappointed to be hearing that i'm gonna be transferred. the way i see it, i don't have colleagues that are as crazy as the ones i have now. and i really don't wan to make friends all over again, and make colleagues, when i'm just gonna be there for like just over a month more? to me it's not worth it at all. not worth it.
but kent's tendered his resignation, so i hope the HR department would seriously rethink their decision! the reason i'm being transferred out is because they're gonna have a new permanent staff coming in. i'm like so what? if kent's gone and they transfer me out, the department would be slightly handicapped you know. i hope i don't get transferred out. and such news really travels fast. even some of the promoters have got wind of it. and some think i requested for it! tsk tsk.
kent's resignation has given me hope i feel. haha. seriously, i'm quitting in the end of may, earliest. i don't see why they should transfer me out. it all depends.
so many uncertainties now, even about the kl trip. tsk tsk.
i need to get things going!
Monday, April 09, 2007
my mom always says that i take after her smartness yet i take after my dad's stupidity.
to that i agree.
i might be book-smart, but i'm definitely not streetsmart.
i'm always doing the stupidest of things and the stupidest of things always happens to me.
take for instance, just now.
i packed food from home for dinner for work, and guess what? just when i was digging out the rice from the thermos suddenly there was a loud BANG! i froze for a moment and thinking where did that come from. but when i looked around the wrold world was staring at me. then i realised.
okay, my thermos kinda exploded actually.
the inner glass lining cracked under pressure, so glass shards were spewed all over my rice and some on the table.
right.
apparently one shouldn't use a metal spoon to dig out warm/hot food from inside a glass-walled thermos. i'm not sure why, but now i know what happens when you do so. haha the whole thing was quite funny actually. but of course, embarassing. and of course the whole department knows about this. tsk tsk.
an exploding thermos.
thats's really food for thought.
sometimes i think why can't i also take after my mom's streetsmartness. i am so blur and so dim-witted at times i find it hard to believe what use can i be to people. people who know well enough know that i'm not a very practical person, neither am i good hands-on. i really feel damn stupid at times getting into the stupidest of situations. sometimes i just brush it off but it really gets to me at times.
for all of the money in the world, i would rather be not so dim-witted and more street-smart and better on hands-on things. seriously.
to that i agree.
i might be book-smart, but i'm definitely not streetsmart.
i'm always doing the stupidest of things and the stupidest of things always happens to me.
take for instance, just now.
i packed food from home for dinner for work, and guess what? just when i was digging out the rice from the thermos suddenly there was a loud BANG! i froze for a moment and thinking where did that come from. but when i looked around the wrold world was staring at me. then i realised.
okay, my thermos kinda exploded actually.
the inner glass lining cracked under pressure, so glass shards were spewed all over my rice and some on the table.
right.
apparently one shouldn't use a metal spoon to dig out warm/hot food from inside a glass-walled thermos. i'm not sure why, but now i know what happens when you do so. haha the whole thing was quite funny actually. but of course, embarassing. and of course the whole department knows about this. tsk tsk.
an exploding thermos.
thats's really food for thought.
sometimes i think why can't i also take after my mom's streetsmartness. i am so blur and so dim-witted at times i find it hard to believe what use can i be to people. people who know well enough know that i'm not a very practical person, neither am i good hands-on. i really feel damn stupid at times getting into the stupidest of situations. sometimes i just brush it off but it really gets to me at times.
for all of the money in the world, i would rather be not so dim-witted and more street-smart and better on hands-on things. seriously.
Sunday, April 01, 2007
sarah's party
the past few days have been rather tiring.
take for example yesterday.
for some reason i came to at around 10.30am. that's too early! and i couldn't sleep back again. then in the evening i went to attend sarah's 21st birthday party. oh and i managed to get hold of my aunt's car! so the whole night i was driving around actually. very excited, i was.
so the party was okay. the cake wasn't nice though apparently. i thought it was okay, it's just that we needed water to wash it down. and the party actually ran out of drinks. after the party, as a class we went to bishan to have some coffee. then we decided to drive over to seletar damn to chill the night away. and then the most ridiculous thing happened.
my car keys actually broke apart.
i think when i put it in my pocket it could have buckled under pressure and then broke. the metal part was still intact, but the plastic part that was welded together had given way. so i couldn't turn the ignition key in, since the plastic part which held the whole key together had given way. so there i was, for a whole 20 minutes i think, figuring out how 2 get the car started.
they key simply just wouldn't turn in! and there i was, stuck in bishan at 1+am in the morning. i was already about to abandon the car and just take a cab home since the locking mechanism of the car was still working fine. then after a few more tries finally i could get it started! whew, what a relief! luckily it didn't spoil the night for my classmates. finally after wasting so much valuable time, we then all drove to seletar dam. including mine, the entourage was made up of 3 cars. haha what a rarity.
before this i had always been wondering, what was so nice about seletar dam? the answer: nothing much actually. so many mosquitos, and i thought it would be a peaceful place. but of course, the road there was like a mini moto gp track. everytime the bikes screamed past it all sounded so annoying. but the scenery is okay actually. then we just talked the night away. once in a while, one must do things that one doesn't do often.
after driving jimmy home, i got home at close to 4am. and i had work that same day actually. morning shift some more! so this whole morning, i was so groggy. haha. my eyes were very heavy and i had a few short spells of headaches. but amazingly i managed to pull through the day. but i'm still weary. but it was fun actually, having the car for night and just zipping around here and there. of course, it really helped alot that yesterday, i didn't fork out a single cent for parking fees.
oh and guess what? my zen neeon got stolen! how f**ked up can things get? i believe it was stolen at the bag deposit at my workplace, since when i was on the way home the other day my player wasn't in the bag anymore. damn wasted, it wasn't even half a year old. i'm just pek chek about the whole thing. although my player was very slow and lagged alot but still, it was worth quite abit of my money! if my player really got stolen by some stranger, curse him to lose his job and get involved in some horrible accident or something along those lines.
i should really get a haircut, since it's really getting messier.
ah i'm just to darn lazy to even bother about things anymore.
take for example yesterday.
for some reason i came to at around 10.30am. that's too early! and i couldn't sleep back again. then in the evening i went to attend sarah's 21st birthday party. oh and i managed to get hold of my aunt's car! so the whole night i was driving around actually. very excited, i was.
so the party was okay. the cake wasn't nice though apparently. i thought it was okay, it's just that we needed water to wash it down. and the party actually ran out of drinks. after the party, as a class we went to bishan to have some coffee. then we decided to drive over to seletar damn to chill the night away. and then the most ridiculous thing happened.
my car keys actually broke apart.
i think when i put it in my pocket it could have buckled under pressure and then broke. the metal part was still intact, but the plastic part that was welded together had given way. so i couldn't turn the ignition key in, since the plastic part which held the whole key together had given way. so there i was, for a whole 20 minutes i think, figuring out how 2 get the car started.
they key simply just wouldn't turn in! and there i was, stuck in bishan at 1+am in the morning. i was already about to abandon the car and just take a cab home since the locking mechanism of the car was still working fine. then after a few more tries finally i could get it started! whew, what a relief! luckily it didn't spoil the night for my classmates. finally after wasting so much valuable time, we then all drove to seletar dam. including mine, the entourage was made up of 3 cars. haha what a rarity.
before this i had always been wondering, what was so nice about seletar dam? the answer: nothing much actually. so many mosquitos, and i thought it would be a peaceful place. but of course, the road there was like a mini moto gp track. everytime the bikes screamed past it all sounded so annoying. but the scenery is okay actually. then we just talked the night away. once in a while, one must do things that one doesn't do often.
after driving jimmy home, i got home at close to 4am. and i had work that same day actually. morning shift some more! so this whole morning, i was so groggy. haha. my eyes were very heavy and i had a few short spells of headaches. but amazingly i managed to pull through the day. but i'm still weary. but it was fun actually, having the car for night and just zipping around here and there. of course, it really helped alot that yesterday, i didn't fork out a single cent for parking fees.
oh and guess what? my zen neeon got stolen! how f**ked up can things get? i believe it was stolen at the bag deposit at my workplace, since when i was on the way home the other day my player wasn't in the bag anymore. damn wasted, it wasn't even half a year old. i'm just pek chek about the whole thing. although my player was very slow and lagged alot but still, it was worth quite abit of my money! if my player really got stolen by some stranger, curse him to lose his job and get involved in some horrible accident or something along those lines.
i should really get a haircut, since it's really getting messier.
ah i'm just to darn lazy to even bother about things anymore.
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